When you have only yourself to hold on to

Taraaa. I've finished another piece of art. This came through my imagination. Thanks to the crappy moment that I've been dealing with =D. This is the edit version. I'm still getting around with Photoshop. Boy, it's not easy. I only managed to use the features that's available which was piece of cake. Maybe I should try coloring this later on in the future when I have the time. InsyaAllah.

Do check out the original here

P.S I just noticed I gave u the wrong link. ^^. Corrected! Check it out OK.

In-Laws

Even though the work stress is taking its toll on me, yeah, I did a stress test at a clinic and I'm two points away of going depress because of this breathing difficulty that I'm having. Phew. Good thing I'm not. An evening chat with my colleagues managed to amuse me and keep me cool and sane. Pretty much. I don't exactly remember how the topic came up even though it took place like two days ago (Blame the slow processor XD). We were talking about in-laws. More precisely, they. Since of course I don't know how married life is, but what I've heard the other day sums it all up. Marriage is not easy. Especially if it involves fussy, nosey, selfish, stuck up in-laws.

I can't imagine if I had to deal with one of them. People says that when you marry, you are not marrying the guy himself, but the whole entire family. Now that can be a nightmare. Unless your future-spouse-to-be family members are like angel, case settled. If not, it can be a total agony. The type of in-laws I don't think I can handle would be the type who are sarcastic right in front or behind my face. Well, obviously these goes out to the mothers since mothers are known to be the fussy species. "Aih, macam tak berperisa je masakan ni, mak masak lagi sedap kan Ahmad"/"This cooking is so tasteless. I can cook better than this. Right Ahmad?" and would tell the whole damn thing to the whole kampung. If a friend did this to me, I would completely ignore and just tell to back off. Can you do that to your mother-in-law? Huhu. I don't think so.

The other type would be those who doesn't know how to talk. I mean, she's probably the shy type but having to start a conversation with an old lady who lives in her own world could be very challenging. I'm lacking that. I'm lacking that I-know-how-to-impress-people personality. Yes, I am quite a chatter box with friends my age or a little bit older, but having to impress an old citizen with my-so-called-brain, won't do much help. I had to play childish trying to get my mom attention XD. She is the serious type. I can't act that way. Then my mother-in-law will think her son married a chimpanzee. Wait, my mom did smirk up a little seeing me being all dumb. Hey, maybe I'll try that. Naa, too risky. Unless the mother-in-law is the type who likes to talk, talk good stuff, then I will make the best listener ever even though I do have a bit of a sound trouble XD.

My colleagues shared stories from their family members and I'm quite freaked out about this whole marriage thing. Well, I'll be lying if I say I didn't want to get married(who wouldn't want to get married?) but I might change my requirement to whom I should marry and add new ones. Either the guy doesn't have a parent(prime evil) or who doesn't speak Malay or English at all! That way I'll just smile even though she might be saying how stupid I am for not stirring up the soup. Haha.

*Ahmad has nothing to do with my life. He is just acting out XD.

The Secret

I was cleaning my room the other day and I stumbled across this piece of plastic bag.

The Secret. Everyone has it.

Do you have a secret? I do XD. I wonder what do they sell and who on earth bought them? Surely it has to be one family members of mine. Hmm...

Top 10 Signs That You Need a New Job

10. Your outgo exceeds your income. Damn

9. The most rewarding thing you did this week was sharpen all twelve of your pencils to the same length.

8. You’re reluctant to be a Career Day speaker at your kid’s fourth-grade class.

7. Everyone in your work group got a raise except you.

6. Your friends all have jobs that sound more interesting than yours.

5. You were late for work three times this week, but you just don’t care. XD

4. There’s a meeting at 3:00 to talk about the upcoming reorganization, and you’re not invited.

3. Your boss keeps forgetting your name. *Sigh*

2. You constantly daydream about being a forest ranger. --> more or less

1. Your company was recently acquired, and you spent two weeks worrying that you’d be laid off. After that you worried that you wouldn’t be. Exactly

OK, I so need a new job!!!!

Any Given Time

Mmm any given time He'll be there
I don't really have to say no more
Mmm any given time He's right here
Embedded in my living soul - oh for sure
Oh any given time I see
The beauty that has always been
In any given time

I swear by The Lord of the moon split in 2
5 o'clock in the morning, I be calling You

I'm totally lost with out Your light
I'm finding my self on the strive all the time
Not a single day goes by

I'm out to fight the devil but never fought myself
Read a thousand books but never read myself
My souls starving it needs to be fed lord I need your help
Hell with the devil my biggest enemy's myself
It makes me wonder am I doing this for the right reasons
I mean the money the fame and game all sounds appealing
Instead of entertaining I prefer to enlighten
But then again who am I to be in a position
To represent a whole generation of kids and to make them believe
When till this day I still struggle to uphold my deen
I read a 100 God is great in less then a minute
And though my tongue is fast like twista
My hearts not in it

Mmm any given time He'll be there
I don't really have to say no more
Mmm any given time He's right here
Embedded in my living soul - oh for sure
Oh any given time I see
The beauty that has always been
In any given time

By the one in whose hands my soul is there is no match
To think a spider couldn't? weave a curtain just like that (break)

I wouldn't be here without Your light
I'm finding my self on the strive all the time
Not a single day goes by

Sí que tengo fervor, devoción para dar mi granito de arena
Y mi aspiración mantenerla serena
Yo Tengo buen criterio aunque a veces esta difuso
Yo Tengo mi firmeza de la cual a veces abuso
Yo trato de ser justo, me sobra lealtad
Coraje valentía, me falta sobriedad
Diferentes situaciónes,diferentes actitudes
Afectan mi progreso y todas mis virtudes

[Translation]
Sure I have fervour to give my grain of sand
And my aspirations keep them serene
My perception is sound even though it sometimes gets fuzzy
I have my resolution even though I sometimes abuse it
I try to be righteous, I abound in devotion
Courageous irascibility, I lack moderation
Different situations, different attitudes
Hamper my development and all of my virtues

Mmm any given time He'll be there
I don't really have to say no more
Mmm any given time He's right here
Embedded in my living soul - oh for sure
Oh any given time I see
The beauty that has always been
In any given time

Mercy with out boasting
Gifts with out terms
Goodness with out anger
Forgive with out reason
Any given time
I do my best to strive
In Your name I rise
The apple of my eye

Even when I'm not alone
You are closer than the veins in my neck
Even when I'm all alone

Even when I'm in sleep
You are closer than the veins in my neck
Even when I'm in it so deep

Even when I'm all gone
You are closer than the veins in my neck
Even as I'm singin' this song

Even when I'm on a high
You are closer than the veins in my neck
Even when I try to touch the sky

Mmm any given time He'll be there
I don't really have to say no more
Mmm any given time He's right here
Embedded in my living soul - oh for sure
Oh any given time I see
The beauty that has always been
In any given time

Outlandish