Sunday, November 23, 2008

Momhood

Last Saturday, I went out for lunch at Mines. While waiting for mom to pray, I laid my bottom on a bench near the corridor. People were passing by in and out of the toilet. I scrutinized
every one that passes me by. From bizarre outfits they were wearing to pretty shoes they had on, I comment every detail inside my brain as though I was talking to someone.

After about 10 minutes sitting there particularly doing nothing, a Chinese mom came to sit on the benches with her son in the stroller. I watched her from afar. We were separated by a bench. I was awe-strucked (is that even a word?) with how she handled her toddler. He was weeping and crying slowly which I have no idea why. The mom took out some stuff from the basket in the stroller. I saw her took out a flask and a bowl. Right, the kid is hungry. She managed to mix baby food if I'm not mistaken and fed her son. She patiently fed him spoon by spoon and he opened his mouth like a hungry bird waiting his mom to put food in his mouth. He's so cute. He looks like a shoalin baby with his bald head. Adorable. While watching the mom-feeding-her-kid-scene, it occurred to me, being a mom is one tough job.

I'm really amazed of what these moms had gone through life to raise us kids. From the day she got the big news to the day she brought us to the world, to the day we learned our ABCs and stumbled in our attempts to walk and so many other things. What really touches me is how she has gone through such torments in bringing us to the world. Yesterday I went to visit an old colleague, Kak syu dear, who just gave birth 6 days ago. She told her side of her story. Every bits. To hear her stories, made me have a second thoughts of being a mom. Really, it freaks me out. Big time.

First thing first, I don't have that mom material and I'm sure most of you people out there would agree. Second, I don't know if I'm capable of being a mom. Having to deal with babies, toddlers, kids, gosh, I sucked at it. I can't even handle my 4 and 6 years old cousins. Not with a calm attitude. Only to have me gone bonkers. Truth be told. I can't stand them. Really. They're little devils but cute ones though. Dealing with them is no easy task. Really challenging and it gives me an insight of what mom hood is like. Definitely not easy.

Me and my mom doesn't have that cool bond between us like Lorelai and Rory. We have different views and opinions, always bickering with one another, yet at the end of the day, she is still my mom till the end. Even though I give her hell most of my life, I love her even if I might not say it. I've always been nonchalant about my feelings. I'm not the type who spills everything to her parents especially it if involves tears. Hehe. I xreti OK. I will try my best to be a good daughter. InsyaAllah. Mom bear with me ok.

A mother is everything in our life. She would sacrifice herself for her children, spends her money to buy clothes even though she can't afford it and try to fulfill her children's need even if they give her a hard time. Maybe I would do the same under what circumstances I might go through. Everyone has that mother instincts. Right? Still, I can't picture myself being a mom. Can you?

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

New things on the shelf


Got these on Saturday. So excited indeed. They are still wrapped very nicely. Cam sayang nak bukak. Leh x? *Giggles* But I don't know which ones to read first. Tee heee....
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Friday, November 07, 2008

Wallflower

I came acrossed the word Wallflower in CLEO November issues yesterday under the article 'Which high school student were you?'

I've only heard of

Sunflower
Moonflower
Flower flower

But...

Wallflower???

=/

Thursday, November 06, 2008

America Voted


"I know you didn't do this just to win an election and I know you didn't do it for me. You did it because you understand the enormity of the task that lies ahead. For even as we celebrate tonight, we know the challenges that tomorrow will bring are the greatest of our lifetime - two wars, a planet in peril, the worst financial crisis in a century."

A part of Obama speech, a look of a very humble man whom I've known little of concerning his background, but I do know he was running for presidency. I was never a fan of politics, Democratic, Republican and everything that goes with it but after today, I was inspired and overwhelmed. I never experienced something like this my whole entire life even though I'm merely a citizen of the United States. What I witnessed today was mesmerizing.

I only got to experienced this through the screen of my bulky TV turning on CNN, BBC and Al-Jazeera back and forth which I seldom do. I certainly can feel the joy and spirits the Americans are feeling. As I glued myself to the television, I can't help myself but giving full concentration on Obama as he gives his acceptance speech. The message he sent out was captivating. I listened to every word and almost came to tears. Almost. Each sentences that came out of his mouth is so meaningful, so powerful and so sincere.

Obama scored votes a lot from the Black, Hispanic and the young generation and those who's wanting a change towards something better in the future. He brings hope in all of us by bringing all of us together no matter the age, sex, skin color and race. He's not only hoping to change America but also the world. He has made history by becoming the first Black President ever. Something to be proud of. He represent each and everyone of us whether you are African, Asian, Native America and he's there to represent us.

I see him as the next Malcolm X. A role model we should look up to despite what the world is going through. Still, he has a long journey ahead. Full of trials and tribulations. Let this be an inspiration for us all. A mark for a change. Change has come to America and change will come to us. May Allah guide him like He guided people before him and that the world can come to a peace. God bless America. God bless us all.

Today marks the history of the United States. I wonder, when will Malaysia experience something like this? =\

Skinny is talking politics ;-)

Monday, November 03, 2008

Glad that's over

My my my...what a week. I just got back home from off site visit in Bangi. It wasn't that bad as I thought. Thanks for my office buddies who were around helping me out. In fact it was rather interesting really. Meeting with new people. Users to be exact. All from different location and different looks. Of course, they are definitely senior by age but they were a cool bunch. As I thought. Yeah, it wasn't that bad.

The accommodation was great. The apartment we stayed in was way beyond my expectation although we were warned that the place was somewhat 'keras' but Alhamdulillah none of us got hurt. We were too tired to bother about it. We did remember about what our old colleague told us about their 'incident' there. I tried not to think about it even though it slipped through my mind before going to bed, but because we were too exhausted, we slept peacefully unaware of what was going on around. Except that one night, Ann was disturbed by me talking in my sleep. Hehe. How embarrassing! By the way, nothing creepy happened. Thank goodness.

The food, not bad either. I had a plateful of food all the time. Shoveling it down my guts. Overall, it's something I'm looking forward to do in the future. I mean going off-site which will gives us an opportunity to meet the world. Still, I dread going to work.

I'm wiped and I'm hitting the sheets even though my bed is sheet-less. I didn't have the time to do my bed since I was busy outside. Huh. Alasan.