Monday, June 23, 2008

Lame guys

I'm always the place where people goes to splur out their broken feelings, to be more specific, the male species. I hate that, eventhough of course I will say something calm to soothe their claimed wounded hearts and wat-so-ever. Huhu. The annoying part was that in the beginning they told you how they fell about you and suddenly brought up their stories about how they are hurt by their exes or being ignored by the person they loved since 12???? What am I? A Shrink...? Huhu. Good thing I didn't mustered my feelings for them otherwise I don't know how to handle it. I'm not a rebound gurl. If he wants me, he has to be in love with me. Not a place to heal his broken hearts. Lame~

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Ramblings

I feel tense in the air. Don't you? My past entry is somewhat emotional. Excuse me though. Just got to get it out of my chest. I'll come around. Hmm, I've got tons to share, but really I'm out of ideas. Hehe. How can you have tons to share but running out of ideas at the same time? X logik langsung!

My life these days is OK I guess. Not much of a thing. Not that bad, not that good either. Yeah, I've been pretty down lately but I'm alrite. I hope so. It's not that big a deal. Enuf of this sappy moment will you Skinny. Hehe.

Right now, I'm listening to Always be my Baby sang by David Cook. Man, he's sooooooo SEXY. I'm captivated by his amazing voice. He looks cute too. My type of guy. Hehe. I'm touched by the lyrics. You hoping for things to be exactly you wanted it but yeah, people change. This song is conveying that situation. I think I can relate to it. My play list consists of slow rhythm songs. I got the blues. ;-)

Last night I had a dream. Super funny dream. Normally I'm the superhero in all of it. Even though I don't posses super quality powers in all my heroic action. Like I always fall when I fly, but I did managed to save the day. Hehe. Last night dream I get to be the victim. Hmmm, not the write word. Heroin? Hahaha. Too expressive. Let's just say I wasn't playing the lead role.

There was Superman. Funny thing was, it was me saving the Superman, not Superman saving me. Haha. Tadi kata x save dunia for the day, pe cite lak neh? Hehe. Ok ok. Superman was weak. He was wrapped in some sheet from out of nowhere. I can't remember the detail but I was helping him to his feet. Maybe he was krypton-ite. Sebab tuh lah kot.

Then we were attacked by some giants Cats and Dogs. Haha. There was no monster. Weird. Usually I'm fighting those squid like monster in my dream, but this time Cats and Dogs. Aneh2 je mimpi. All of the sudden, Superman turned into a cat. Bengong ke hape mimpi neh? Haha. We were grasping of where about is Superman. I was disappointed because he just left like that. A cat. Later on, Superman came. But he didn't came to rescue us but he took me away. Only me. Hahaha. Ok. Harus ke begitu? He flown and took me away in his arms to I don't exactly know. That was that. Subuh da waktu tuh. Huhu. I'm wondering what I might be dreaming tonight. Can anyone interpret dreams? I really like to know to what is going on in my slumber.


DPLI test is on Saturday. I better make it this time as I've screwed my first opportunity 2 years back. Like they always say, good opportunities don't always come at you but having a second chance is possible too. I'm praying though. Hoping to have a second chance at this. Amin. So good luck to me and the rest of the DPLIAN-soon-to-be. InsyaAllah.

I've got my new retainer yesterday. My, it's been month since I had my teeth tied to some metal. I'm feeling pain and trying to adjust myself to it. This time I'm taking precautions step as to not lose my retainer out of sight. Don't want risking going to the dentist and lying all over again. Hehe. Ashamed you Skinny.

Well, that's ramblings for now. I always end up with too much of ramblings. Not good not good.

Later~

Sunday, June 15, 2008

When you feel like letting go...

I remembered Che'Nelle telling the whole nation on Hitz.fm that to just feel good about yourself and don't feel stress out about what others are saying on having someone in your life. It is somewhat motivates me. She added we have to be happy first with ourselves and if that someone is in your life, he or she must add that happiness. Alhamdulillah, I'm happy with me being on my own. Of course, it's not like I'm hoping to be single for the rest of my life, it's just that I've not found the right guy yet. I don't know. Maybe I'm anxious bout this whole thing and just don't want to go there. It really freaks me out. All I know I'm enjoying my moment. You guys may think that I'm just saying that to feel good. True but not exactly true.

I've once watched Little Black Book. The story has its good lesson. Life doesn't always go the way we plan. That's the storyline. We are always told that you'll be complete when you have that other significant half and that you have achieved everything. Rite? Well not exactly. This Stacy (Brittany Murphy) came across her boyfriend's 'little black book' only to discover that her boyfriend kept pictures and phone numbers of his several ex-girlfriends. She then decides to meet one of the ex's in attempt to get closer to Derek's past life and ends up becoming friends with one of the ex.

Things then became pretty harsh as Stacy colleague, Barb (Holly Hunter) a producer on a TV talk show, Kippie Kann, unravel what was going on with Stacy. She kept track of this activity Stacy was doing with the 'Little Black Book' and stages her on a live performance of the talk and ends up losing Derek to the ex she became friends with. So she moved on and lastly she got a new, better job and meeting her idol Carly Simon.

You see, sometimes bad things happen in your life, but its not a sign like its over. It's a learning experience. You experienced the downs in the early stage, but Allah replace that with something better. I might not find the guy of my dreams, who knows I'm having my dream carrier in the future. InsyaAllah. All due to keeping positive in life. It doesn't mean that I have to hold back tears. Tears is a part of us. A friend to a sorrow soul. It's good to let go once in a while. Take away the misery inside.