I Don't Know

I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANT BUT I KNOW IT'S NOT THIS crossed my mind today. Well, actually it's been haunting me like forever. Really I don't know what I want. I don't want to do reporting for the rest of my life. Certainly not. One thing I know, if I don't start or plan to change it right now or at least in the next couple of months, I might as well rot here at J**P all miserable. What's the point of complaining yet not a single steps to change it for good? Eh skinny? Skinny has been having some low self-esteem because she can't figure out what she wants in life. She seems pretty lost. But no worry skinny, everything will be fine. InsyaAllah.

Have you ever felt this way? All lost and confused as though you come to the edge of a cliff and you don't know what to do but to let fate run its course? Of course you just can't jump off it and expect Superman to come to the rescue. No, it doesn't happen that way here on earth. Even if Superman exist, I don't think jumping off a cliff is an option to get rid of your problems. It's totally stupid OK. Unless you're trying to escape danger from some mountain lion...well...yeah...maybe.

OK, I'm so lost.

With the economics going sour where thousand are indeed going jobless, I don't think it's the right time for me to babble and act as though I'm the only victim. No, that isn't right. Other
suffered greater than what I'm dealing with. The war in Gaza, economics meltdown, poverty and so many more.It's really creepy what is happening in this world these days. I hope and pray it doesn't happen to me or anyone else. For a start, I should be grateful for what I have. I think we
should all do, regardless of what circumstances we are going through. Still, we are not obligate to act as though we are Superhuman. Pretending that everything is OK. Yeah, we break and we bleed but I guess that's part and parcel of life. That's when we seek refuge in Allah. Pray that He will guide us all the way. InsyaAllah. My sister taught me that. She is more of a Kak Long to me than I am. ;) Thanks adek. InsyaAllah, everything will be alright.

I know I sound ridiculously optimistic as though things will fall into place very soon, but I'm keeping my hopes high because I believe if you believe in things, you will start to see them coming no matter how long you have to wait for them. Brian Kim taught me that too. I've been subscribing his newsletter and it is very inspiring. You should try it out yourself.

No matter how hard the wave might hit you, you are gonna keep on going. I want to be one of those people who sees that tomorrow is always brand new even though I feel like breaking apart from reality but a little dream never kills. Rite? You can dream but you got to put effort into it to make it come true.

I sound pretty corny...don't you think? Teehee...

Oh yeah, what do you think of this new layout? I had some problem with the previous one so I found this...neat eh?