Momhood

Last Saturday, I went out for lunch at Mines. While waiting for mom to pray, I laid my bottom on a bench near the corridor. People were passing by in and out of the toilet. I scrutinized
every one that passes me by. From bizarre outfits they were wearing to pretty shoes they had on, I comment every detail inside my brain as though I was talking to someone.

After about 10 minutes sitting there particularly doing nothing, a Chinese mom came to sit on the benches with her son in the stroller. I watched her from afar. We were separated by a bench. I was awe-strucked (is that even a word?) with how she handled her toddler. He was weeping and crying slowly which I have no idea why. The mom took out some stuff from the basket in the stroller. I saw her took out a flask and a bowl. Right, the kid is hungry. She managed to mix baby food if I'm not mistaken and fed her son. She patiently fed him spoon by spoon and he opened his mouth like a hungry bird waiting his mom to put food in his mouth. He's so cute. He looks like a shoalin baby with his bald head. Adorable. While watching the mom-feeding-her-kid-scene, it occurred to me, being a mom is one tough job.

I'm really amazed of what these moms had gone through life to raise us kids. From the day she got the big news to the day she brought us to the world, to the day we learned our ABCs and stumbled in our attempts to walk and so many other things. What really touches me is how she has gone through such torments in bringing us to the world. Yesterday I went to visit an old colleague, Kak syu dear, who just gave birth 6 days ago. She told her side of her story. Every bits. To hear her stories, made me have a second thoughts of being a mom. Really, it freaks me out. Big time.

First thing first, I don't have that mom material and I'm sure most of you people out there would agree. Second, I don't know if I'm capable of being a mom. Having to deal with babies, toddlers, kids, gosh, I sucked at it. I can't even handle my 4 and 6 years old cousins. Not with a calm attitude. Only to have me gone bonkers. Truth be told. I can't stand them. Really. They're little devils but cute ones though. Dealing with them is no easy task. Really challenging and it gives me an insight of what mom hood is like. Definitely not easy.

Me and my mom doesn't have that cool bond between us like Lorelai and Rory. We have different views and opinions, always bickering with one another, yet at the end of the day, she is still my mom till the end. Even though I give her hell most of my life, I love her even if I might not say it. I've always been nonchalant about my feelings. I'm not the type who spills everything to her parents especially it if involves tears. Hehe. I xreti OK. I will try my best to be a good daughter. InsyaAllah. Mom bear with me ok.

A mother is everything in our life. She would sacrifice herself for her children, spends her money to buy clothes even though she can't afford it and try to fulfill her children's need even if they give her a hard time. Maybe I would do the same under what circumstances I might go through. Everyone has that mother instincts. Right? Still, I can't picture myself being a mom. Can you?

New things on the shelf

Got these on Saturday. So excited indeed. They are still wrapped very nicely. Cam sayang nak bukak. Leh x? *Giggles* But I don't know which ones to read first. Tee heee....

Wallflower

I came acrossed the word Wallflower in CLEO November issues yesterday under the article 'Which high school student were you?'

I've only heard of

Sunflower
Moonflower
Flower flower

But...

Wallflower???

=/

America Voted

"I know you didn't do this just to win an election and I know you didn't do it for me. You did it because you understand the enormity of the task that lies ahead. For even as we celebrate tonight, we know the challenges that tomorrow will bring are the greatest of our lifetime - two wars, a planet in peril, the worst financial crisis in a century."

A part of Obama speech, a look of a very humble man whom I've known little of concerning his background, but I do know he was running for presidency. I was never a fan of politics, Democratic, Republican and everything that goes with it but after today, I was inspired and overwhelmed. I never experienced something like this my whole entire life even though I'm merely a citizen of the United States. What I witnessed today was mesmerizing.

I only got to experienced this through the screen of my bulky TV turning on CNN, BBC and Al-Jazeera back and forth which I seldom do. I certainly can feel the joy and spirits the Americans are feeling. As I glued myself to the television, I can't help myself but giving full concentration on Obama as he gives his acceptance speech. The message he sent out was captivating. I listened to every word and almost came to tears. Almost. Each sentences that came out of his mouth is so meaningful, so powerful and so sincere.

Obama scored votes a lot from the Black, Hispanic and the young generation and those who's wanting a change towards something better in the future. He brings hope in all of us by bringing all of us together no matter the age, sex, skin color and race. He's not only hoping to change America but also the world. He has made history by becoming the first Black President ever. Something to be proud of. He represent each and everyone of us whether you are African, Asian, Native America and he's there to represent us.

I see him as the next Malcolm X. A role model we should look up to despite what the world is going through. Still, he has a long journey ahead. Full of trials and tribulations. Let this be an inspiration for us all. A mark for a change. Change has come to America and change will come to us. May Allah guide him like He guided people before him and that the world can come to a peace. God bless America. God bless us all.

Today marks the history of the United States. I wonder, when will Malaysia experience something like this? =\

Skinny is talking politics ;-)

Glad that's over

My my my...what a week. I just got back home from off site visit in Bangi. It wasn't that bad as I thought. Thanks for my office buddies who were around helping me out. In fact it was rather interesting really. Meeting with new people. Users to be exact. All from different location and different looks. Of course, they are definitely senior by age but they were a cool bunch. As I thought. Yeah, it wasn't that bad.

The accommodation was great. The apartment we stayed in was way beyond my expectation although we were warned that the place was somewhat 'keras' but Alhamdulillah none of us got hurt. We were too tired to bother about it. We did remember about what our old colleague told us about their 'incident' there. I tried not to think about it even though it slipped through my mind before going to bed, but because we were too exhausted, we slept peacefully unaware of what was going on around. Except that one night, Ann was disturbed by me talking in my sleep. Hehe. How embarrassing! By the way, nothing creepy happened. Thank goodness.

The food, not bad either. I had a plateful of food all the time. Shoveling it down my guts. Overall, it's something I'm looking forward to do in the future. I mean going off-site which will gives us an opportunity to meet the world. Still, I dread going to work.

I'm wiped and I'm hitting the sheets even though my bed is sheet-less. I didn't have the time to do my bed since I was busy outside. Huh. Alasan.

The Moment of Truth

Would you spill your personal details, dirty little secrets, confessions etc etc on national TV for half of million dollars?

Mark Warlberg: Do you have a crush on your male colleagues?

Skinny: Hell No

Mark Warlberg: Are you sure? There's no turning back.

Skinny: Positive. 100%.

Mark Warlberg: Here it goes, the moment of truth and your way to winning 25 grand.

The answer is...

....

....

....

FALSE!

Skinny: Whattttt? That machine is lying.

What kind of reality show is this?

See, I can't even get to the second question.

Watch it on Star World Channel 711 every Wednesday at 10pm ;-)

The new me...soon...hopefully

It's not even new years yet, but I'm jotting down my to-do-list or specifically, my new resolution. Actually, it's not new, it has always been on my list before. This time, I'm determine. I'm determine to gain weight. Not just that, I want to start living healthy. Leh percaya ke neh? Yes, I need this. I'm always complaining, people always complaining of how absolutely thin I am and I'm done listening to it. So I'm gonna do something about it. For good. I want to look like a babe. You know, babe. Haha. well, I don't have to be a total knockout, fine will just do. At least I'll fit perfectly well in my clothes rather than having them loose all about. Still, tight clothing isn't an option.

First thing I have to do is stop being lazy. Yes, this is my ultimate sin. Ever since I was born I guess. Who to blame? Being definitely lazy won't get me anyway. Right? First step to achieve this is, I have to wake up really early in the morning. Like at 6.30am. Haha. Well, I can't make resolution if I'm not opt for it, can I? Waking up early is the first thing, next I MUST NOT sleep after subuh. Lame huh, but I can'ttttttttt help it. I love the feeling of being in bed in the morning. Who wouldn't? ;-) Still, I'm not sure if 'm qualified to be call a grown up, because I feel like 17, but at 24, I should start to act like one. =D

Second, I have to diet. Whoaaaa, I'll be insane if I go on a diet. I meant, eating properly with proper food and eating at a proper time. My eating habits these days is way out of hands. I tend to have breakfast late and having lunch like 4 hours later then have dinner way late at night. Around 10pm sometimes. Not good. As they say that food finish processing the guts every 4 hours. My stomach for sure will be crying for food in between lunch and dinner. So yeah, I have to fix my eating habits. Plus, making sure I eat in balance. Taking fruits and a lot of veggies. I was thinking of living the way like white people does. Salad, roast chicken, foods doesn't involve using too much oil, you know, English stuff. Like I can live with that. Haha. Still, I have to eat rice. Without rice, I'll shiver like a junkie who need his drugs. Imagine that!

Third, exercise. Ooohh, how I hate exercise so much. I always thought that skinny people don't need to exercise. You don't have the fat to excess off. Whats the point? You will end up being more skinny. I was indeed wrong. Exercise helps you gain your stamina. Good stamina gives good impression. Of course I'm thankful for this skinny frame, but if being skinny and people think you are an anorexic freak, its not really that pleasant. So that's why I have to re-shape my whole self. In and out. Do workouts daily like sits up, squats or whatever exercise available that I can do, at least for 5 mins, will do. Build the muscle, strengthen the heart and feeling good about it. I so have to get myself an exercise mat. =D

Lastly, think positive and stick to the plan. When there's a will, there's always a way. I'm trying to project good thoughts in my brain these days to stimulate it. Everything is possible if you believe in it. Well this is my mission. I better work it otherwise I'll just end up a big loser around. It's almost 11.30pm. I better hit the sheets then. Sleeping early is a must do too. Getting enuf sleep is essential. ;-) Wish me luck you guys so that I don't screw up. =D