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To me...

I'm 24 now, but never felt like it. Hehe. My bad. I don't look like one either. Oh well...

Math Talk

atulnoor: wani... remainder apa eh ?

me: remainder tuh hmmm...cam peninggalan saki baki

atulnoor: klu dlm math tahu x ?

me: Mathematics. the difference between a function or a number and an approximation to it. heee. Arithmetic. a. the quantity that remains after subtraction. b. the portion of the dividend that is not evenly divisible by the divisor.

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atulnoor: ish..x pahe la.. hee

me: heee...mskdnye kira baki bile sesuatu ditolak tuh, cam 5-3=2, 2 tuh ada remainder tp yg 2 lagik tuh pon cam xberpa phm...ekeke

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atulnoor: heee...i pun x paham fening

me: nk wtpe

atulnoor: nk check calculation. jap ni dah tanye n td mod igt x

me: mod tuh no yg terbesar kan antt jujukan no yg ada

atulnoor: n pun kata camtu hee tp mod org ni lain kot...hee...pening ah kt buat query mod(23,5) jwpn die 3...paham x ? hee

me: kat sini dier ckp...no yg dibahagi by 2 given no then bile dier bhg tuh dpt sama baki nye... ekekeke...kena tnya org maths lah

atulnoor: mod returns the remainder of m divided by n m=25 n=5 m=23 bkn 25...phm x?

me: 25/5

atulnoor: heee...hahaha

me: 3 lah kn...eh 5...klu cmtuh 25/5 = 5

atulnoor: 23/5, m=23, n=5 pastu mod(23,5) =3, ktrgnn di die mod returns the remainder of m divided by n

me: ok2 cmni, btol lah mod 3, kan kite bhgn 23/5 kan, ptot nye 4. something tp kan 5 x 4 = 20 23-20 = 3 3 tuh mod lh kena lukis lah... hahaha. Phm x neh? 5 x 4 tuh closest tu 23 phm x neh?

me: slh keterangan 3 tuh ada remainder hasil dr mod (23,5) phm?

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atulnoor: dl kt ade blaja ke ni ms blaja math cam x leh recall lah huu

me: blaja kan huhu

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atulnoor: heee x leh recall tgh berserabut ni heee

me: yg td wani cerita tuh xphm lah? alaa...da lukis tp xleh send lak

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atulnoor: haha emel leh x bg kat cni

me: hihi ok

atulnoor: sahidattul@tellowpages.com.my yellow bkn t hik2 silap sahidattul@yellowpages.com.my bg dua2 la gmail skali thnks a lot

me: ok

atulnoor: hee

me: tp buruks lah sbb pkai paint kan ekekek

atulnoor: heee x pela

me: ok da send

atulnoor: x smpt la nak skodeng2 kat tenet ok thanks

me: :)

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atulnoor: hahahah wani biar betik cam budak tadika je ekekeke

me: hahahah...tp btol kan penerangan tuh heeee

atulnoor: hahahah... phm2 hik2 klako2

me: hehehhe... sbb xreti nak tulis pkai mouse ekekek

This is what I drew in order for atul to understand...ekekeke...do u guys understand Mod and Remainder now? Hehe

Hi, I'm Ariel

Headstrong and fiesty. You have a mind of your own that's full of romantic dreams about the world around you. Exploring exotic places is your ultimate dream, and although you can be a little naive you'll realize that there is something to be gained from your family's wisdom.

Yip, I am.

Which Disney Princess Are You?

May 23, 2004

I was cleaning out my inbox since I had to wait like forever for this to run and I came across this particular email from a very dear friend of mine...

Date: 23 May 2004
From: wordsmithleo@hotmail.com

assalamualaikum...

wei wani...ko mmg amek lesen motor skali ngan kete ke... wah wah... lawan tokeh nmpk...aku mana ader pakwe baru...pakwe lama pon takder...ko buat lawak ker...siapa la nk kt aku nih...lagipun mmg malang saper yg dpt aku...hehehe...drop dat.....
aku mmg tgh terpikir psl ko tadi...terasa nk tanya amacam ko ngan dier... aku agak2 cam ok cos ko senyap jer... tak sangka tengah bernanah lagi...(power tak ayat aku?)...sesungguhnya part last email ko tu mmg mengharukan ulu hati aku...ko tau after aku baca email ko terus aku buka winamp dgr lagu my immortal(rock version) ngan evribody's fool(adik aku m'download-menghabihkan duit mak bapak...hehehe cam aku skang)... ...yelah nk tau gak aper yg menyayat jantung ko...aku bkan tau sgt psl korang w/pun ko pnah story kt aku...after aku dgr tuh, br aku dpt hint sket ar...maksud aku...ko mmg giler emosi lah nih sampai msk dlm lagu...sampai terheret aku skali...hehehe...wani, time cam gini, tak yah la dgr lagu cam gini...buat bengkak jer...sbnrnya aku pun tak der pengalaman frust cintan al maklum lah tak nah btol2 fall inlove...ntah2 if dh experience nnti, tunggang terbalik dunia...

aku xtau nk ckp cam ner... ko kt ko tgh konfius kan...cos apa yg dier dh buat kat ko... aku rs masa jer yg boleh menyelesaikan masalah ko nie...(but if ko dlm dilema saama ada ko nk lagi kat dier, tu lain citer plak kot)...lama2 ko akan luper semua ni... maksud aku, maybe you wont get over dis thing but you'll get used to it....if u know wat i mean...maybe biler dah naik sem, dh cbuk, ko tak pk sgt psl dier kan...skang nih, time cuti...padan la asyik pk mende2 tuh...adik aku pinjam dvd winter sonata mem dier...best... aku pon tgh melayan blues ngan adik n mak aku skali... satu family tgk, tak tahan...(ayah aku outstation seminggu, g chini, pahang)...dulu aku miss tgk part awal... aku bkn galakkan ko tgk... kang emosi berlebihan plak nanti...=)aku plak yg bersalah...terkejut gak aku tang ko ckp cam leopard tuh... ko biar tol wani... tol ker cos pk mende2 tu, leh jadi teruk cam tu...

sbnrnya maybe if aku kt tmpat ko pun, maybe aku ter percaya gak kat laki tak guna tuh... maklum je lah... long distance relationship nih mmg payah sket...tambah2 tak nah jumpa... maybe next time ko kena becareful ngan relationship cam nih... laki ni mmg susah sket...dah la makin pupus... nk dapat yg baik tu lagi ar payah...tol x? hehe...

kelmarin aku mimpi psl ko...sbnrnya mimpi jumpa kwn2 kat sek. rendah n bebdk2 matrik... tetiba aku t'nmpk ko sorang2 tgh order kt kaunter mc donald...ko tau tak... ko x pakai tudung... rambut ko pjg -hampir pinggang, siap buat curls cam dalam iklan pantene hijau tu,(byk tgk tv sampai bw dlm mimpi)...terkesima aku...aku tinggal kwn2 aku yg lain...cos nk tegur ko...nk tanya naper ko buka tudung...bila aku tanya, ko kata cam ni- sumthing bout penyakit ko- dh b'nanah- so kena buka tudung..."tiba2 aku terjaga dr tidur"...nasib baik bkn real...cos dlm mimpi ko cam serius nk mampus...air muka ko pun serius...tapi lua mimpi aku tau ko takkan bukak tudung kan...giler sial punye mimpi...takkan kulupakan...dulu aku mimpi nangih2 n b'pelukan ngan sorang kwn aku kat asasi...rupe2nya bila aku call dier, dia kata mmg dier nangis sepanjang minggu cos fail sume paper medic(dier kt hukm ngan primus)...member aku ni scorer but xtau naper leh jadi cam tuh(mcm ader masalah ngan pakwe)...tak taulah citer sebenar... hrp 2 ko tak fail paper dsebabkan lelaki tak guna ni in the future k...

sorry ar aku citer byk sangat...aku ni bkn pakar bab2 ni...harap leh sooth the pain...lets just time decides ok...
okla bubbye...take care...
chow...

I can't help laughing...hahaha...seriously...

P.S I had a boyfriend? Hahaha

No worries

Oh well, I didn't make the cut. I might as well start to fall in love with my job again. *Sigh*. Anyhow it's not the end of the world, so I guess there's lot of hidden opportunities out there waiting to be discover. Just got to discover it patiently. To drain away all the misery (yeah, I'm kinda frustrated OK), I was thinking of doing something fabulous in life. Like...hmmmm...which I don't really know what.

Thinking...
thinking...
Hah...YES...
Got it...

I want to take up Japanese class. Sounds great eh? Or maybe French class. Totally wicked. I've got 'teachers' online just got to find the time to mingle with them. At least I'll be looking forward for something like this each week. Or if it didn't go the way that I wanted it to be, I want to start up my hobby again. Drawing. Ah yes. Experimenting with pencils, learn new techniques and scribbling my sketch pads. I've always loved it. In fact there's so much that I want to do in life, I just don't know whether if I have the time for it. I let Allah decides then. InsyaAllah, things will work out.

Life may be dull, but you can still color it. It is never a dull moment.

Momhood

Last Saturday, I went out for lunch at Mines. While waiting for mom to pray, I laid my bottom on a bench near the corridor. People were passing by in and out of the toilet. I scrutinized
every one that passes me by. From bizarre outfits they were wearing to pretty shoes they had on, I comment every detail inside my brain as though I was talking to someone.

After about 10 minutes sitting there particularly doing nothing, a Chinese mom came to sit on the benches with her son in the stroller. I watched her from afar. We were separated by a bench. I was awe-strucked (is that even a word?) with how she handled her toddler. He was weeping and crying slowly which I have no idea why. The mom took out some stuff from the basket in the stroller. I saw her took out a flask and a bowl. Right, the kid is hungry. She managed to mix baby food if I'm not mistaken and fed her son. She patiently fed him spoon by spoon and he opened his mouth like a hungry bird waiting his mom to put food in his mouth. He's so cute. He looks like a shoalin baby with his bald head. Adorable. While watching the mom-feeding-her-kid-scene, it occurred to me, being a mom is one tough job.

I'm really amazed of what these moms had gone through life to raise us kids. From the day she got the big news to the day she brought us to the world, to the day we learned our ABCs and stumbled in our attempts to walk and so many other things. What really touches me is how she has gone through such torments in bringing us to the world. Yesterday I went to visit an old colleague, Kak syu dear, who just gave birth 6 days ago. She told her side of her story. Every bits. To hear her stories, made me have a second thoughts of being a mom. Really, it freaks me out. Big time.

First thing first, I don't have that mom material and I'm sure most of you people out there would agree. Second, I don't know if I'm capable of being a mom. Having to deal with babies, toddlers, kids, gosh, I sucked at it. I can't even handle my 4 and 6 years old cousins. Not with a calm attitude. Only to have me gone bonkers. Truth be told. I can't stand them. Really. They're little devils but cute ones though. Dealing with them is no easy task. Really challenging and it gives me an insight of what mom hood is like. Definitely not easy.

Me and my mom doesn't have that cool bond between us like Lorelai and Rory. We have different views and opinions, always bickering with one another, yet at the end of the day, she is still my mom till the end. Even though I give her hell most of my life, I love her even if I might not say it. I've always been nonchalant about my feelings. I'm not the type who spills everything to her parents especially it if involves tears. Hehe. I xreti OK. I will try my best to be a good daughter. InsyaAllah. Mom bear with me ok.

A mother is everything in our life. She would sacrifice herself for her children, spends her money to buy clothes even though she can't afford it and try to fulfill her children's need even if they give her a hard time. Maybe I would do the same under what circumstances I might go through. Everyone has that mother instincts. Right? Still, I can't picture myself being a mom. Can you?

New things on the shelf

Got these on Saturday. So excited indeed. They are still wrapped very nicely. Cam sayang nak bukak. Leh x? *Giggles* But I don't know which ones to read first. Tee heee....

Wallflower

I came acrossed the word Wallflower in CLEO November issues yesterday under the article 'Which high school student were you?'

I've only heard of

Sunflower
Moonflower
Flower flower

But...

Wallflower???

=/

America Voted

"I know you didn't do this just to win an election and I know you didn't do it for me. You did it because you understand the enormity of the task that lies ahead. For even as we celebrate tonight, we know the challenges that tomorrow will bring are the greatest of our lifetime - two wars, a planet in peril, the worst financial crisis in a century."

A part of Obama speech, a look of a very humble man whom I've known little of concerning his background, but I do know he was running for presidency. I was never a fan of politics, Democratic, Republican and everything that goes with it but after today, I was inspired and overwhelmed. I never experienced something like this my whole entire life even though I'm merely a citizen of the United States. What I witnessed today was mesmerizing.

I only got to experienced this through the screen of my bulky TV turning on CNN, BBC and Al-Jazeera back and forth which I seldom do. I certainly can feel the joy and spirits the Americans are feeling. As I glued myself to the television, I can't help myself but giving full concentration on Obama as he gives his acceptance speech. The message he sent out was captivating. I listened to every word and almost came to tears. Almost. Each sentences that came out of his mouth is so meaningful, so powerful and so sincere.

Obama scored votes a lot from the Black, Hispanic and the young generation and those who's wanting a change towards something better in the future. He brings hope in all of us by bringing all of us together no matter the age, sex, skin color and race. He's not only hoping to change America but also the world. He has made history by becoming the first Black President ever. Something to be proud of. He represent each and everyone of us whether you are African, Asian, Native America and he's there to represent us.

I see him as the next Malcolm X. A role model we should look up to despite what the world is going through. Still, he has a long journey ahead. Full of trials and tribulations. Let this be an inspiration for us all. A mark for a change. Change has come to America and change will come to us. May Allah guide him like He guided people before him and that the world can come to a peace. God bless America. God bless us all.

Today marks the history of the United States. I wonder, when will Malaysia experience something like this? =\

Skinny is talking politics ;-)

Glad that's over

My my my...what a week. I just got back home from off site visit in Bangi. It wasn't that bad as I thought. Thanks for my office buddies who were around helping me out. In fact it was rather interesting really. Meeting with new people. Users to be exact. All from different location and different looks. Of course, they are definitely senior by age but they were a cool bunch. As I thought. Yeah, it wasn't that bad.

The accommodation was great. The apartment we stayed in was way beyond my expectation although we were warned that the place was somewhat 'keras' but Alhamdulillah none of us got hurt. We were too tired to bother about it. We did remember about what our old colleague told us about their 'incident' there. I tried not to think about it even though it slipped through my mind before going to bed, but because we were too exhausted, we slept peacefully unaware of what was going on around. Except that one night, Ann was disturbed by me talking in my sleep. Hehe. How embarrassing! By the way, nothing creepy happened. Thank goodness.

The food, not bad either. I had a plateful of food all the time. Shoveling it down my guts. Overall, it's something I'm looking forward to do in the future. I mean going off-site which will gives us an opportunity to meet the world. Still, I dread going to work.

I'm wiped and I'm hitting the sheets even though my bed is sheet-less. I didn't have the time to do my bed since I was busy outside. Huh. Alasan.

The Moment of Truth

Would you spill your personal details, dirty little secrets, confessions etc etc on national TV for half of million dollars?

Mark Warlberg: Do you have a crush on your male colleagues?

Skinny: Hell No

Mark Warlberg: Are you sure? There's no turning back.

Skinny: Positive. 100%.

Mark Warlberg: Here it goes, the moment of truth and your way to winning 25 grand.

The answer is...

....

....

....

FALSE!

Skinny: Whattttt? That machine is lying.

What kind of reality show is this?

See, I can't even get to the second question.

Watch it on Star World Channel 711 every Wednesday at 10pm ;-)

The new me...soon...hopefully

It's not even new years yet, but I'm jotting down my to-do-list or specifically, my new resolution. Actually, it's not new, it has always been on my list before. This time, I'm determine. I'm determine to gain weight. Not just that, I want to start living healthy. Leh percaya ke neh? Yes, I need this. I'm always complaining, people always complaining of how absolutely thin I am and I'm done listening to it. So I'm gonna do something about it. For good. I want to look like a babe. You know, babe. Haha. well, I don't have to be a total knockout, fine will just do. At least I'll fit perfectly well in my clothes rather than having them loose all about. Still, tight clothing isn't an option.

First thing I have to do is stop being lazy. Yes, this is my ultimate sin. Ever since I was born I guess. Who to blame? Being definitely lazy won't get me anyway. Right? First step to achieve this is, I have to wake up really early in the morning. Like at 6.30am. Haha. Well, I can't make resolution if I'm not opt for it, can I? Waking up early is the first thing, next I MUST NOT sleep after subuh. Lame huh, but I can'ttttttttt help it. I love the feeling of being in bed in the morning. Who wouldn't? ;-) Still, I'm not sure if 'm qualified to be call a grown up, because I feel like 17, but at 24, I should start to act like one. =D

Second, I have to diet. Whoaaaa, I'll be insane if I go on a diet. I meant, eating properly with proper food and eating at a proper time. My eating habits these days is way out of hands. I tend to have breakfast late and having lunch like 4 hours later then have dinner way late at night. Around 10pm sometimes. Not good. As they say that food finish processing the guts every 4 hours. My stomach for sure will be crying for food in between lunch and dinner. So yeah, I have to fix my eating habits. Plus, making sure I eat in balance. Taking fruits and a lot of veggies. I was thinking of living the way like white people does. Salad, roast chicken, foods doesn't involve using too much oil, you know, English stuff. Like I can live with that. Haha. Still, I have to eat rice. Without rice, I'll shiver like a junkie who need his drugs. Imagine that!

Third, exercise. Ooohh, how I hate exercise so much. I always thought that skinny people don't need to exercise. You don't have the fat to excess off. Whats the point? You will end up being more skinny. I was indeed wrong. Exercise helps you gain your stamina. Good stamina gives good impression. Of course I'm thankful for this skinny frame, but if being skinny and people think you are an anorexic freak, its not really that pleasant. So that's why I have to re-shape my whole self. In and out. Do workouts daily like sits up, squats or whatever exercise available that I can do, at least for 5 mins, will do. Build the muscle, strengthen the heart and feeling good about it. I so have to get myself an exercise mat. =D

Lastly, think positive and stick to the plan. When there's a will, there's always a way. I'm trying to project good thoughts in my brain these days to stimulate it. Everything is possible if you believe in it. Well this is my mission. I better work it otherwise I'll just end up a big loser around. It's almost 11.30pm. I better hit the sheets then. Sleeping early is a must do too. Getting enuf sleep is essential. ;-) Wish me luck you guys so that I don't screw up. =D

I need a Shoulder to Lean on

Most times I’m the most strong I’m the rock the spot you get support from
Mostly cope with hopes that’s been rolled on
And when you’re low you know that you can hold on me
In a heartbeat I can be there the fears and tears you cry I’m by your side so dry your eyes
And let me provide peace of mind in time I know you’ll be fine
And if it’s heartbreak I can take some off your plate replace the lies and hate with smiles of faith
You fall deep I could fall with you. The dark is a familiar place you’re lost I can help you escape
It was my fate (pain) so that I can relate
Now when I can’t even stand I can handle the weight
I’ll be your shoulder for as long as I can but where’s the shoulder for my shoulder when I can’t

I will be the one you can count on the most
When the road is dark you know I’ll bare the load
You never see the days when I fall down to my knees
None of you will know that sometimes I need a shoulder to lean on

Sometimes it’s really hard to be this invincible figure you figure me to be
Cause I can feel the pain and when I’m cut I bleed mostly inside but lord knows I cry
I don’t lie I just keep it bottled inside I meet your eyes with a smile and you think I’m lion but I’m alive cause I can feel like you can feel with emotions still though it don’t show it’s real.
Conceal when my heart cries fall apart in the dark at the spot where my thoughts lie
I thought I was as strong as they come, I thought I was numb my thoughts send my heart over run as I wonder
Can I make it through and is the one coming soon that’s gonna hold me console me
Or was this something meant to be and a shoulder for a shoulder wasn’t meant for me

I will be the one you can count on the most
When the road is dark you know I’ll bare the load
You never see the days when I fall down to my knees
None of you will know that sometimes I need a shoulder to lean on

The Sound of Reason

Salam Eid Mubarak

Raya this year... a blissful moment, so I claimed. It wasn't terrific like in the past years. It was more of an OK. Just plain OK. Nothing fabulous. Still, I had a good time with my cousins during raya. I don't have much to tell. My mind's bogging me and I just don't have any feelings of what-so-ever. Maybe I'm feeling lonely at home with no one to nag to since all of my siblings left for class *sigh*. 5 days off from work is not enough. I just started my holiday and all of the sudden its the end of it. *Sigh* I'm still in my holiday mood and I think everyone is. Anyhow I'm not letting that get in my way of having a great time.

hhhhmmm...

err...

mmmmm...

Frankly speaking, I'm a little uninspired right now. Can't think of what to write even though there's plenty.BTW, I never got the chance to wish you guys. Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir & Batin. Hope that the last Ramadhan won't be our last. InsyaAllah. Let me get this clutter out of my head and will write something better than this. Hopefully.

Inspired by Lat's Cartoon =)

Confessions of a Shopaholic

OMG, Becky Bloomwood is coming to theatre soon. I have no idea that they are making a flick on this eye-catchy, glamorous novel by Sophie Kinsella. I've only read Shopaholic and Sister and it's totally hilarious. Isla Fisher plays Becky whom I've known in Definitely Maybe playing along side Ryan Renolds. You guys should catch it. It's totally adorable. My sister made me watch it so I'm making you guys. Hmmm, Hugh Dancy will be playing Luke Brandon. The husband-to-be. He starred in Ella Enchanted playing as Char, the Prince. Weird name huh? Anyhow, I'm thrilled and I can't wait to see Becky Bloomwood in action.

Rantings

Hi. It's quarter past 3 and I can't put my mind to work. 2 more hours to go and I'll be heading straight home like always. Today seems like crap. Well actually most of my days are crap. Work is crap really. I know I should be more patience and just deal with it like an adult,
but the thing is I'm tired. It's like I'm coming to an end where all I want to do is nothing. N.O.T.H.I.N.G. Well in that case I rather be stone. All rock stiff. Doing nothing. Doing nothing ain't getting me nowhere. Duh! Anyway just hear me rant.

I've just learned that one of my colleagues is leaving us...soon. Following the footsteps of many before her. That must be a relief for her to be getting out of this rut. If only I could get out of here sooner not later, I would, but my folks won't allow me. Not unless I secured a job somewhere else. Yeah, I know they are concerned and they have every right to express their worries, but I'm 24 now. Isn't it time for me to make my own decision? To ease that up, I always tell myself, parents know best. I hope they do in my case.

It's always the same for me and I'm sure for everyone else. Waking up in the morning which I dread the most and coming to office, turning on the notebook and continuing yesterdays work which never seems to finish, coming home and repeating it all over again. What can be more boring than that? Maybe this is work. I have to get that through my skull. If I gone out soon, maybe I'll have to deal with bigger new problems. Maybe much worse. Crap. I hate the thought of that. What if new colleagues or new user or new work at new workplace is 10 times more terrible than what I'm dealing with? Who knows what the future holds. Human beings are complicated. So complicated indeed. That's a fact.

All I know now is that I'm thirsty for something new, something which I like to do every time I get out of bed every morning, which I love doing over and over again, something that grabs my heart. Still, life ain't easy. It never was, it never is, it never will be. I believe that when you go through an ordeal that can turn your world upside down, that time teaches us to be more appreciative of what life had offered us. Allah knows best. Just believe in Him totally.

Here's a beautiful quote I've found on the net.

"When God leads you to a cliff,Trust Him fully;

Only one of the two things will happen:

Either He will catch you when you fall Or teach you how to fly"

A little tazkirah for the day...hehe!

Haritu or Hantu?

Me: Aku nak pakai pensil ko xde dakwat plak (pensil fabel caster berwarna purple).
N: Aah.
Me: Nak pakai yang ni lak tapi ko kata xde dakwat.
--(sambil tuh ann amek pensil tersebut and petik) *xberpa ingat situasi*--
N: Eh ada lah *clicking the pencil* Ntah2 haritu x isik?
Me: Ada ke hantu ?
N: Ade...
Me: Hah? Ada ke hantu bulan pose??? *blur*
N: Hahahaha...
Me: Hahahahaha...
N: Aku cakap haritu tapi aku ingat ko cakap haritu.
Me: Aku dengar hantu, aku ingat ko cakap hantu.

Either I'm totally deaf or we both are. Hahaha...

This dialog is not that accurate due to some memory loss =D

3 days and counting

Ramadhan this year is pretty much the same. Well, not really. First of all, traffic jam from Putrajaya to Kajang sucks big time. I have not gone through such traffic jam since the last time I remembered. It has been only two days of fasting and the traffic is bad. Really, really bad. Imagine after all this time working in Putrajaya, you don't get much cars around. It will only take me approximately 30 mins to arrive home with the speed of 80kmph so and so. Suddenly I have to hit the break more often for every meters. You do the math. Since oil price is way expensive and not forgetting that I am driving my dads' Volvo 970 (Big car means big gas). So if I'm in a stream of vehicles, it won't do much help. Plus I'm getting cramps around my hips, my spine and my knee which is not good due to my P.

The breaking of fast this year to me is not as merrier as before. We have indulged ourselves for less and simple foods to avoid waste. I have not hit any bazaar yet because I don't see the necessary to do so since I have my mom. Hee. Maybe my appetite these days is not big as before. I used to eat like a pig you know. This year, I want to follow the sunnah of the Prophet SAW by stop eating before you go full. Konon. I don't know. Seem to be losing appetite these days. Is that some sort of a sign? Ke sebab da keciwa nak tambah berat badan tapi xtertambah-tambah pon. Hmmm...

Tarawikh. I don't know about you, but I think that tarawikh this year is so quick that I don't have time to feel sleepy. Not that I'm complaining of how fast its going, but yeah its fast. During my teeny years, going to tarawikh felt like miles away. Always getting lost of what rakaah we were on even though we only performed 8! These 4 days of performing tarawikh, happened so fast. Maybe its the Imam or maybe I got too lost in my mind during prayers. There's a saying that goes, if you felt time was running fast, there is something wrong with our Iman. Those who are pious will only see time at a normal pace. Therefore, we have to ask ourselves, are we there yet?

Me? I'm still me. Still all cranky and pretty much the same. I have not changed a bit.
Whatever reasons or whatever happens, hope that this Ramadhan will give us blessings and that we are commit to become a better Muslims in the future. InsyaAllah.

One Step At A Time

I'm so glad I got it out of my chest. Right now this is what's playing in my head to keep me inspired and keep me going by Jordin Sparks - One Step at a Time

Hurry up and wait
So close, but so far away
Everything that you've always dreamed of
Close enough for you to taste
But you just can't touch

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

[Chorus:]
We live and we learn to take
One step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen and it's
Supposed to happen that we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time

You believe and you doubt
You're confused, you got it all figured out
Everything that you always wished for
Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours
If they only knew

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

[Chorus]

When you can't wait any longer
But there's no end in sight
when you need to find the strength
It's the faith that makes you stronger
The only way you get there
Is one step at a time

Where did I got the name Skinny legs?

No where...

It was destined to be mine. => . It happened to pop up just like that one day which I obviously don't remember. No wait. I do. I was editing my profile in friendster some ages ago and I happened to have a picture of my legs. My profiles before was somewhat uninspired and lack of that cool factor. Haha. I wanted Something different and what was uniquely me. Skinny legs was perfect and it resembles me totally even though there are a lot of skinny legs out there. Haha. Infact there's a restaurant in USA named Skinny Legs. It was discovered by Kak Syu herself. Haha.

So it wasn't totally mine after all but I stuck with it. During that time, I had lots of people viewing my profile. Cam glemer lah kan. Haha. Who is this Skinny legs? Everyone was swaying their way in. Well, almost everyone. Yet, I liked it though. The nick not my leg. I'm not really a fan of my legs. Unless it was Gisele Bunchen like, I'll be a total knockout but sadly I'm not. *Sigh*. I'm thankful. That's basically where I got the nick. Cool eh?

Oh yeah, I had a lot of nicks based on my physical. Papan, tulang, Penyapu, Olive and the list goes on. The best one was given by mom... Kain Buruk. Leh x?

Goodies

Adek just got back from Jordan last two Saturday (warning: this entry is waaaaay expired...heeee). Boy, it was a long wait. I was counting each and everyday hoping for that day to come as quickly as possible. Yeah, it sure did as time these days are running fast. So fast that you don't have much time to do things. Like updating the blog :P. Anyway, her flight was estimated to arrive around 0930 Malaysian Time. We waited for her at the arrival gate...and waited...and waited some more. Shiishhh, what's taking her so long?

Apparently, she showed up an hour later. I didn't mind waiting because I got to feast my eyes on those foreigners. All delicious looking. *Smugging* Adek showed up looking pretty much the same. Yeah, because we were skype-ing each other now and then, so I didn't see much of a differences in her. Although she did looked a bit different with those braces. Yep, definitely different. She did looked a lil skinny though. Our reunion with her was somewhat unemotional. Yelah, setiap hari dok skype-ing and yahoo-ing je so xde perasaan yang beria-ia sangat. But I was excited.

As always, one goes on a trip, one bring back home goodies. She certainly did. She bought us goodies which you can wear, eat and so on. She bought me these two beautiful jubahs which was neat except the size didn't fit me well the fact that the Arabians are bigger in size. I had to alter it to fit my skinny figure which sometimes can be a challenge. Who says skinny people doesn't have problem with fitting? I obviously have that problem.

Anyway, my sister bought these chocolates which looks like rocks. You know, rocks. The ones you get in the aquarium. Those colorful little rocks. The chocolates looked exactly like them. No kidding. It's really chocolates and delicious too. I brought them to work. My colleagues seems to be astonished and amazed (jakun OK). They were playing with them too. Haha.

Adek bought a lot actually. Not just for my fam, but also for our cousins. The special ones got special things but the not-so-special was not to be left behind. So Adek bought them key-chains which they had their names on them. I got one too, except mine was cool. It too has my named written on it. It was written on spaghetti which means it was small in size. Syazwani Alone what was written on the spaghetti. Adek didn't realized that Alone when she got home. She told the Arabian guy to spell Along, but instead ended up with Alone. OK OK. I know that I am alone, dateless and all, but does it have to be spelled out to tell them that I'm alone? Hahaha. Funny Arab.

Unpacking suitcases can be one exciting and a suspensions moments. It's like opening up a treasure chest that unlocks to precious treasures. In this case, a jubah, chocolates rocks and Syazwani Alone. Still, I enjoyed unpacking her suitcase, I enjoyed looking at her unpacking her suitcase. Who wouldn't be? I wonder when it's my turn? Hmmm.....

P.S Yesterday, Atul called me Wanu. Wanu??? Hahaha. Typo OK.

Have you ever...hmmm...

Lied
Does white lies count as lying? If not then I never lied...tipu! there...I lied :p

Smoked
Oh N000000...never

Broke someone's heart
You cannot break a heart, you can only squish it.

Had your heart broken
Yes...I had my heart squished.

Wish you were a prince/princess
Princess ain't cool...too bossy

Liked someone who was taken
Isam Bachiri...*sigh*...I want him *sigh*

Shaved your head
Why would I want to shave my head?

Been in love
What is love really?

Used chopsticks
Failed

Sang in the mirror to yourself
Er...like 247... :D

Peers at work

It has been almost two years since I started working. So many things happened in that almost two years. There are those who fled away in search of a better place while others are still hanging on, tight. Despite we are under some major hazard moments, yet we managed to loosen up a little. Just to remember ourselves that it's not the end of the world. Well, I constantly telling myself this all the time.

I have to admit I enjoyed my stay with these folks even though my job is cranky me up big time. There are only 3 who has been the longest people who are staying strong in this project including me ;-). The other two is my seniors. I salute them for holding on for so long. My head is under water right now. Drowning like any moment. Huhu.

There's Kak Ina, fragile and soft. She deals with people as soft as she can even that person is bringing her a hell of a time. She's small in size yet she's big in the brain. Oh yeah. She's the developer in this project. The only developer and she is handling it all by herself. How on earth does she handles that? A person with a lot of patient and I'm so impress she managed to keep it the same tone even when she's mad.

Kak Siti, aggressive and witty. This lady has the stare as though she wanted to swallow you and slit your throat. She can be serious at times where if approaching her can gives you the stir but she's a sport. She blends well with people younger than her and she sure can act as one too. Her signature laugh could be recognize anywhere. A Hindustani die-hard fan, she's definitely fun to hang out with.

Kak Long or Kak Am we refer her to, adorable and opened, she's the eldest. A mother of four and like the mother to us too. Almost. She smiles even during her wits end moment. She talks about anything which makes her approachable and she doesn't mind sharing her flaws. She just joined this project for only 3 months so and so but its like I've known her forever.

The rest is the juniors even though they are all older than me ;-). All with their heads. There's Ann, a perky gal with a perky dressings to match who laughs her stomach out and speaks her mind. Someone who is all about having a good time. Shud, the Kedahrian who has this thick Kedah accent where she expresses her words assertively. Krie who seems a little timid but seems to be enjoying herself...hmmm...I think. Then there's the guy, all beautiful with white fair skin but the moment he opens his mouth....Go figure.

Last but not least, me, the independent chick around. Haha. I'm being boastful. It supposed to be me, the late one arriving to work everyday. Guilty. Above all, this one experience working with them its something I won't get anywhere else. And not forgetting the past people plus those who aren't with the project anymore that I've worked with. Kak shu, Kak Lyn, Atul and a few bunch to be named. All different.

crazy/beautiful

I'm crazy for him and he's soooooo beautfiful....

Pathethic eh?

This is what happens when you don't have that someone in your life. =D

PS~ Adek...get me one Isam pleassseeeeeee, I'm begging you ... heeee

What is in the inside it not what is on the outside...

I was working on Saturday. I didn't know why I was so eager to go to work, maybe I wanted to get out of the clot that I've caused last few days. That's not the whole point. Anyway, I went to work with my other two senior staff. It was cloudy and misty in the air that morning but it wasn't raining heavily, so I thought it was not going to be such a sun-tastic day.

We are working in a closed spaced room with no view of what so ever. It's like you're in a cell except its bigger and brighter and has no bars. Its just an idea of what our environment was like. Therefore, we have no inkling of what is going on outside especially when it comes to the weather. Besides it doesn't really matter if it were to rain or to be crispy hot outside, we were stuck inside frozen stiff. Picture Alaska.

That afternoon, the air-conditioner was somewhat cold and the air that was coming out from that what-you-call-it, cerobong? was loud as though it was raining cats and dogs outside. Kak long said..."Yep, hujan. Lebat kat luar tuh" she said with a serious tone based on the sound and that it was shivering cold. I was hmmm...didn't want to believe because I know that it has nothing to do with it. Unless we were at the very top and the rain hits the roof top, that, I might buy.
"Tadi masa akak datang tuh pon da hujan" she continued. OK. I bought that.

Kak Long husband rang her to see whether she has finished what she was doing.
"Da boleh amek ke?"
"Tak boleh tubik lagi neh. Huje lebatt kat luaer neh"
*I don't know how to translate kelantanese here*
Her husband was at Alamanda, so he thought it was what she claimed.
10 minutes later
"Ibu, da nak sampai da neh" as I heard he daughter at the other end of the line.
"Ibu tak boleh keluar lagi neh. Hujan lebat lagi neh"
"Hah? Hujan???" continued her daughter and it was cut off. Mungkin dia keheranan.
"Korang macam mana? Nak akak amek payung ke pinjam?" she asked.
"Takpe. Kiteorang parking xlah jauh sangat"
"OK, kalau camtu akak balik dulu" And she whisked away.

We followed behind 5 minutes later. To our surprised it was not raining at all. It was hot as ever and the sky was clear. "Eh, hujan lebat ke tadi?" Kak Siti exclaimed.
Then Kak Long words of exclamation of it was raining heavy came to mind. You guys should see her face when she was telling her husband that it was raining...lawak lawak.

The Rahmans in my life

AT 3 points of my life, i have met with 3 different types of Rahman. The first encounter was during my internship year at Sapura Defence near Wangsa Maju. He was assigned to be my supervisor. There he was all polish with a blue black blazer. A look of a nice and a religious middle aged man. I have to admit, he didn't look that bad. To be honest he was handsome for his age even though he was bald.

Do not be fooled by his charming looks. First impression doesn't always last. He had history to have had high fantasies of women. Hmm, he was fond of a sensual relationship on every women he came across with. Including me. Now, for the record I was a teenage girl who has no sixth sense. Well a young adult still in her teenage body to be precise. I have no idea what he was doing. Don't go there yet, OK. He started sms'es me one late nite asking about what I was doing. Hold on, what on earth was my supervisor doing at that hour of time texting me? Hmm, I was a little suspicious but I kept good thoughts. Maybe he just wanted to say Hi. OK. Done.

I kept receiving messages more often during late nights. Wait a minute, isn't this guy married? Doesn't he plays with his wife? Huhu. I was just being nice. He was outstation one day when he told me he was at a bar. At a bar? He was asking me things which was weird. What the...? I tried ending the conversation by saying that it was late and he ended up saying "Goodnite Honey" What the.....???????

I was uncomfortable. I had to tell someone. Luckily Kak Nurul was available. A senior staff there. She went "You too huh?" What the...??? It seems like I wasn't the only one. Kak Nurul told me everything. She was always "harassed" by him but in a friendly kinda manner. He is always sending horny messages to Kak Nurul. Since Kak Nurul is married he couldn't please his way in. Duh! Which makes me a good victim. Good thing I discovered his filthy habits before he can do any damage. After I finished my practical, I thought that was it but he kept texting me but I gave him a clear message that got him sent away. The funny thing that bothers me till now is, orang cam haku pon dia nak kaco yang masa tuh kampung gile. That was Rahman number 1.

The next Rahman I met was during my training at Cosmopoint two years back. Actually I've known this Rahman in UKM, but I only knew how he looked. Not his name. We were closed during our training. I had a little crush on him. He does look sweet and nice and charming. It was just a crush for I know he was soooooo in love with his x-girlfriend. Girlfriend back then. Ex-girlfriend - present. I always picked on him the fact he was a quiet guy. You know, those average Joe kinda like. He was sooo in love and little did I know he fancied me. That started to spilled after we finished our course.

It was one night he called me all of the sudden, twice. His girlfriend was caught in the act. Too dramatic. He caught his girlfriend with some other guy. He didn't know where to go so he seek me for some therapy session. Bajet aku ni shrink lah. After some therapy session, we did message quite a bit. We were very closed. Messaging each other day and night. As though we were best friends.

It wasn't at month yet the day he broke up with his ex, he confessed, he liked me. He said he liked me since we were studying together. Hold on, he had feelings for me when he was soooo in love with his ex??? Yeah I was flattered, but come on. How can you do that? This is so lame. I just could not handle this type of people. So I stepped out little by little. Beside, I didn't fancied him that much. He wasn't my type. The type who always clinged to a girl. Lame. End of Rahman number 2.

Now, I'm dealing with the third Rahman in my life. This one is beyond annoying than the word annoying itself. This Rahman is a client for our company project. I just can't stand him the fact that he's so obnoxious, self-absorb and God knows what else. With his tussle hair and the way he speaks, I feel like getting him back like the way he did to us. Who does he thinks he is??? He is constantly throwing rude remarks at us in his most disturbing tone ever. I think I have to forgive him someday the fact that he's old. Maybe his system is turning off slowly. Maybe that explains why he's soooo sarcastic in the first place. I hope I don't run by one of these Rahman or one of these people for better.

Every where I go, I seem to be bumping into Rahman. These so popular names are every where. But above all, it belongs to Allah. One of His name. The Most Merciful. I hope the next time I bump into a Rahman, he resemble the meaning of a Rahman.

I hate pink even more

The sight of the colour pink from head to toe and not forgetting the bag, is a big NO-NO for me. It sores the eyes badly, well me eyes. It's candy floss pink from top to bottom. Eeeeuwww. My eyes can still handle smokey pink even though it's PINK. I just can't stand such sightings. I wonder how on earth did she managed to pull that?

Pink tudung, pink T, pink skirt, pink bag???

*Brow raised*

Damn...my retainer is pink...

Tagged

I've been tagged for the very first time eventhough I don't exactly know how it goes. I only know tag on the playground. Hehe. Here it goes...

1 minit yang lalu, apa anda buat.
On what to write here :P

1 hari yang lalu, apa anda buat.
Went to work, work, work, chatting, work some more, got home from work, lay down in bed, maghrib lambat, lay down somemore in my telekung, performed Isyak, went to nite market and sat in front of the tv.

1 hari lagi apa anda akan buat.
Maybe the same thing like I did a day before except there won't be a pasar malam.

1 orang yang terakhir menelefon kamu.
Caq called me 4 in the morning to help her with her public speaking topic. Ozone layers. And I couldn't sleep after that coz teringat my friend told me that ghost are active during that time. Leh x?

1 makanan yang baru dibeli.
I bought a banana muffin from a friend at work times 3...so it wasn't one and I'm not answering the question :D

1 barang yang baru hilang.
I will know when it is missing. :P

1 cerita yang baru ditonton.
Prison break Season 3. It's so last season so it's not new.

1 hal terakhir yang digossipkan.
With my office mate about another office mate. Evil!

1 kata yang ingin diluahkan.
"Can you please stop staring? It's really annoying."

1 buku yang sudah dibaca.
Shopaholic and Sister. Hmm, can't remember. But it took me 4 months to finish it. But its the very 1st book I managed to finish since 4 years :D

1 penyakit yang sering datang.
Constipation + laziness.

1 keinginan.
To visit Tokyo, Jordan, and New York. InsyaAllah.

Thanks to kak shu, I have to tag someone...TAG...your it...ANN + FADH + WAN!!!! (ntah bile mereka2 neh nak bukak blog gue)

My shoes don't fit!

I hate buying shoes. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE SHOESSS so much. Doesn't my page tells it all? ;-) The thing is, I always end up buying the wrong ones in terms of the size. I'm always confused if I'm a size 5 or a size 6.

Last Friday, I bought this one Amanda flats from this one fancy shoe store which I seldom entered before (sbbnye kedai class gitu), I spotted it on top of a rack and fell in love with it completely. Just my taste and just perfect. It's black and looks like my every other shoes. Boring.

Anyhow I just got to have it regardless how much it cost. Yeah, it did cost me RMXXX. I'd never bought something that pricey in my life just for a pair of shoes. I was determined to buy it though. So I couldn't care less of how much it cost, I just got to have and I did. I tried the display shoes on and it did fit well but it was a size 6. Then I remembered that I used to buy a 6 size shoes and end up having it
slipping out of my feet constantly caused it became loose. I asked for a size 5. It was tight at the front but it did fit in well. I was excited when I bought them until...

I wore them on Saturday and I was soooooo unhappy. I was whining all day to my sister (I'm so bless to have her). Despite I was whining, she listened and told me to relax. "The shoes will soon fit well later on" says caq. But oh no, I just have to brag about my pain. "Caq pon biasa je macam tuh, lagi lah kasut boot" she continued. Ok. I took it maturely (tipu!) and stop complaining even though my foot was crying in pain.

Still I wasn't satisfied the fact that I bought it for RMxxx, it will be a waste if it is not used. So I went googling like always and came across a few tips on how to enlarge shoes. Hmmm. The first was to get a shoe stretcher which I don't know where to get them and it might cost me some more. So scribble the first tip out. Finally I found a few tips done in a conventional way. It says to mould your shoe with water by putting groceries bag in your shoes and pour water in it. Then let it freeze in the freezer. As it turns to ice, it will hopefully to enlarge it. Cool eh? And I tried it. It sort of works.

Of course, I still have to stand the scrutinizing pain of the flats. Plus it makes a loud squeaky sound as I walk in it. Sounds like a cricket. My friends at work told me I was like the transformer and that if I came they know its me. Oh wait, was it I'm lost. Anyway, I just have to abide with it for the rest of my life. Well, before I find a new soles mate. ;-)

Lame guys

I'm always the place where people goes to splur out their broken feelings, to be more specific, the male species. I hate that, eventhough of course I will say something calm to soothe their claimed wounded hearts and wat-so-ever. Huhu. The annoying part was that in the beginning they told you how they fell about you and suddenly brought up their stories about how they are hurt by their exes or being ignored by the person they loved since 12???? What am I? A Shrink...? Huhu. Good thing I didn't mustered my feelings for them otherwise I don't know how to handle it. I'm not a rebound gurl. If he wants me, he has to be in love with me. Not a place to heal his broken hearts. Lame~

Ramblings

I feel tense in the air. Don't you? My past entry is somewhat emotional. Excuse me though. Just got to get it out of my chest. I'll come around. Hmm, I've got tons to share, but really I'm out of ideas. Hehe. How can you have tons to share but running out of ideas at the same time? X logik langsung!

My life these days is OK I guess. Not much of a thing. Not that bad, not that good either. Yeah, I've been pretty down lately but I'm alrite. I hope so. It's not that big a deal. Enuf of this sappy moment will you Skinny. Hehe.

Right now, I'm listening to Always be my Baby sang by David Cook. Man, he's sooooooo SEXY. I'm captivated by his amazing voice. He looks cute too. My type of guy. Hehe. I'm touched by the lyrics. You hoping for things to be exactly you wanted it but yeah, people change. This song is conveying that situation. I think I can relate to it. My play list consists of slow rhythm songs. I got the blues. ;-)

Last night I had a dream. Super funny dream. Normally I'm the superhero in all of it. Even though I don't posses super quality powers in all my heroic action. Like I always fall when I fly, but I did managed to save the day. Hehe. Last night dream I get to be the victim. Hmmm, not the write word. Heroin? Hahaha. Too expressive. Let's just say I wasn't playing the lead role.

There was Superman. Funny thing was, it was me saving the Superman, not Superman saving me. Haha. Tadi kata x save dunia for the day, pe cite lak neh? Hehe. Ok ok. Superman was weak. He was wrapped in some sheet from out of nowhere. I can't remember the detail but I was helping him to his feet. Maybe he was krypton-ite. Sebab tuh lah kot.

Then we were attacked by some giants Cats and Dogs. Haha. There was no monster. Weird. Usually I'm fighting those squid like monster in my dream, but this time Cats and Dogs. Aneh2 je mimpi. All of the sudden, Superman turned into a cat. Bengong ke hape mimpi neh? Haha. We were grasping of where about is Superman. I was disappointed because he just left like that. A cat. Later on, Superman came. But he didn't came to rescue us but he took me away. Only me. Hahaha. Ok. Harus ke begitu? He flown and took me away in his arms to I don't exactly know. That was that. Subuh da waktu tuh. Huhu. I'm wondering what I might be dreaming tonight. Can anyone interpret dreams? I really like to know to what is going on in my slumber.

DPLI test is on Saturday. I better make it this time as I've screwed my first opportunity 2 years back. Like they always say, good opportunities don't always come at you but having a second chance is possible too. I'm praying though. Hoping to have a second chance at this. Amin. So good luck to me and the rest of the DPLIAN-soon-to-be. InsyaAllah.

I've got my new retainer yesterday. My, it's been month since I had my teeth tied to some metal. I'm feeling pain and trying to adjust myself to it. This time I'm taking precautions step as to not lose my retainer out of sight. Don't want risking going to the dentist and lying all over again. Hehe. Ashamed you Skinny.

Well, that's ramblings for now. I always end up with too much of ramblings. Not good not good.

Later~

When you feel like letting go...

I remembered Che'Nelle telling the whole nation on Hitz.fm that to just feel good about yourself and don't feel stress out about what others are saying on having someone in your life. It is somewhat motivates me. She added we have to be happy first with ourselves and if that someone is in your life, he or she must add that happiness. Alhamdulillah, I'm happy with me being on my own. Of course, it's not like I'm hoping to be single for the rest of my life, it's just that I've not found the right guy yet. I don't know. Maybe I'm anxious bout this whole thing and just don't want to go there. It really freaks me out. All I know I'm enjoying my moment. You guys may think that I'm just saying that to feel good. True but not exactly true.

I've once watched Little Black Book. The story has its good lesson. Life doesn't always go the way we plan. That's the storyline. We are always told that you'll be complete when you have that other significant half and that you have achieved everything. Rite? Well not exactly. This Stacy (Brittany Murphy) came across her boyfriend's 'little black book' only to discover that her boyfriend kept pictures and phone numbers of his several ex-girlfriends. She then decides to meet one of the ex's in attempt to get closer to Derek's past life and ends up becoming friends with one of the ex.

Things then became pretty harsh as Stacy colleague, Barb (Holly Hunter) a producer on a TV talk show, Kippie Kann, unravel what was going on with Stacy. She kept track of this activity Stacy was doing with the 'Little Black Book' and stages her on a live performance of the talk and ends up losing Derek to the ex she became friends with. So she moved on and lastly she got a new, better job and meeting her idol Carly Simon.

You see, sometimes bad things happen in your life, but its not a sign like its over. It's a learning experience. You experienced the downs in the early stage, but Allah replace that with something better. I might not find the guy of my dreams, who knows I'm having my dream carrier in the future. InsyaAllah. All due to keeping positive in life. It doesn't mean that I have to hold back tears. Tears is a part of us. A friend to a sorrow soul. It's good to let go once in a while. Take away the misery inside.

Blues

What had happened, I'll remind myself that everything is going to be OK. InsyaAllah. And if it doesn't, I'll tell myself that Allah is testing me. It might turn out bad but I will deal with it with all the strength that I have. Life is a loom.

This day shall pass...InsyaAllah.

Bored stiff

I'm not in the mood...

Need air...need space...

Need new enviroment...

This ain't working for me...

I want something new...something chilling...

Anyone?

18SX

Last Saturday, my Pak Lang from my dads side, invited us for a Doa Selamat Kenduri at Rawang. All of our family came including those in the north. It has been quite sometimes we haven't gathered like this. Last time I recalled was during Raya. Huhu. Anyway, my favourite cousins was there. Kak Hidayah and Syuhada. Husna was not around as she's in boarding school. So missing out one. There are very cool and adorable. Despite they are from quite a pious family with tudung labuh and all, but they are totally open. Especially with us. Heee.

Kak Hidayah is coming almost a year in her wedding but she ain't at all like a married person. No offense Kak Dayah, but she's just totally her. Like the way before she got married. There's something so goody-goody-two-shoes bout her that makes me laugh all the time. She's so good to be around with. I love me cousin.

After our eating session, we always gather round and have a lil chit chat. Well, no matter where we are, or no matter what we are doing, we are always seems to be talking. Sesi luahan perasaan shall I say. OK. So we sat down, and Kak Dayah opened up some stories which I can't remember what. But what I did remember was one hilarious chat we had. Actually it was some hilarious line Kak Dayah spat out.

Kak Dayah: Along satgi nak pi beli tiket ka?
Me: Aah.
Kak Dayah: Oooo...nak pi beli kat payu dara hah???? *Hahahahahaha*
Me *Due to some ear problem, I wasn't able to get that*
Kak Dayah: Ishh...Kak Dayah cakap mende tak patut tadi. Kak Dayah nak habaq Pudu Raya, pi habaq Payu Dara lak.
Me: HAHAHAHAHAHA! *Kelembapan tadi disebabkan tak dengar ye*

And then she told me that wasn't her first time. She's a teacher in a primary school. Teaching Arabic. One day...

Kak Dayah: Sekali tuh kan Kak Dayah dok terkeluaq menda tak patot. Kak dayah kan ngajaq arab "............(I can't remember the arabic sentence)" Dalam bahasa melayu..."Kamu tinggal kat mana?" So Kak Dayah soh lah depa sambung ayat tuh...Kak Dayah cakap lah "Saya tinggal dekat Taman Bangsat!"
Me: Hahahahahahahahaaha!!!!!!!
Kak Dayah: Kak Dayah nak habaq Taman Langsat, terkeluaq plak Taman Bangsat!!!!
Kami: Hahahahahaha...Kak Dayah nehhh....!!!

Sempoi je. Haha. The fact that she was in tudung labuh, yet she managed to suprise us. I'm wondering what else is in store for us next?

Mood swing

"You Squidward! As a senior of Krusty Krab you should be more responsible. Not surf the Internet, chatting and reading the freaking forum. They pay you a whole freaking lot, and this is what you do??? Damn! Go finish your patties! And s*** you Plankton for giving me a hard time $%^&#*"

Enuf said...

Ketinggalan

I'm so outdated. I'm always left behind. When everyone is on the latest news or gigs or whatever it is, it be new for me like 3months ++ later. Haha. Talk about ketinggalan! I mean, really. I'm always left behind. Huhu. Like when Evanescene first single came out Bring Me to Life, I only discovered it after more than 5 months it hits the radio. Then I went crazy about it when the song is almost rotten aka basi! Haha.

It happened again to me when my sis introduced me to Outlandish. I was...what??? Out...what??? She gave me a link from youtube of this band singing a song called Aisha. At that time, I was like...yeah whatever. It didn't caught my attention at all. After like 8 months (kot), my brother played the song. Then baru I tertarik perhatian. There was something catchy about it. So I asked him who sang it and imediately I went to youtube. I downloaded it and completely fell in love. =>. Seriously I'm still in love with them. I told my sister about it and she was like "Whattt...da lama dah lah" Haha. Ketinggalan lagi.

History repeats again. => This time I'm into Marie Digby. OK. My sis did send me a copy of Umbrella sang by Marie Digby like ages ago. Of course, I listened to it and I liked it, but it was just good to the ear. I wasn't crazy about it. So it was kept hidden for a while. It wasn't on my favourite song list. Then all the sudden, I went you tubing it for no reason. Maybe because I have no idea what to Google out. I've Googled out images of food, art, celebrity etc. *Cem bengong* Was running out of idea. Out of no where, Marie Digby came to mind. So I search her image on Google.

Stunning!

Boy, she's so pretty. I fell in love. Not that I'm gay, OK, but I was astonished by her beauty. She definitely caught my eyes. Then I remember her acoustic version of Umbrella, went straight to you tube and watch almost every song she made. She takes my breath away. Haha. She is damn beautiful, has a tremendous voice and she plays the guitar and the piano. She has to rock! Definitely.

I'll be downloading all her acoustic songs. Just got to work the ares. *Sigh*

See...people must knew her like forever, I've just known her like 20 minutes ago. Haha. Sangat ketinggalan!

Which heroes character would you like to be?

Hmmm...let me see. All heroes are super fab. Minus that Sylar, but he's kindda cute though. Haha. Well, if I were to be a hero, which heroes character would I be? Claire's power is quite cool. Not quite but really cool. With the ability like that, I'm indestructible. Who wouldn't want to be in her shoes? I can heal myself from any injuries but healing from broken heart doesn't
work OK. Haha. It has to be physical. Yet, it's not like I get run by bus everyday where my limb stuck out and my neck is twisted every time I jump off a cliff just to prove how magnificence I am. It just won't work. Plus, if people caught me healing myself, they will freak out. Totally. Which makes me a complete freak. See what happened to Claire???

Matt, to be able to hear other people's thought. Now, we always tell our self wouldn't it be great to be able to hear what other People is thinking? I would. I get to dig in people juices detail
that's lurking inside their head. Really dramatic I would say. Then again I would have to deal with negative comments. Like, for instance, we are dealing with people who happens to say nice thing in front of us just to cover their 'behind' or something or just being polite, but deep down they are not sincere. Sincere is one thing, but what if that person happens to give us nasty comments inside their mind? Take when she was trying to please you by saying "Eh, canteklah baju neh" tapi inside she was saying this "Dem, hodoh giler!" Oh man, I can't deal with that. Haha. Lets just say some truth are better untold.

Hiro Nakamura. AAA...yes. Travelling through time. Now that's a catch. With this power I can conquer the world. Pretty much. I can go back in history without having to read the history itself. I can turn back time and change the course of the world. I can see places without having to board a plane and its free. Of course I would have to change the currency everywhere I go but wouldn't it be great? Wait. This is the power of that jumper guy from that Jumpers flick. Oops, my mistake. Heeee. Bottom line, with this ability, I'll be free. Free to do what I want. Change my life and mend the things that I've done wrong. Get a second chance at things. Cool eh? Then if I did that, I'll be against fate. I won't learn because I can fix time when ever I want. Doesn't sound rite. Only Allah decides what will happen. So I leave it to Him to decide whats best for me. Still, its cool to be Hiro Nakamura.

Hmm...after some thoughts and some observation *Smug*, if I were to be a Hero, which Heroes character would I like to be? Definitely...(pause) Micah. Haha. Why Micah? You see, I work in a
stress environment where you have to stare nothing else but the computer screen. Stare is easy but what you are staring at, can be a nightmare and daunting too. So, with Micah's gifted ability, I can easily finish my job. Haha. Ok. Cheating is involve here. I rather do that than having to crack my not-so-intelligent-brain. Every time I run across some coding error, all I need to do is put my hand on the machine and make it do what it wants. In my case, fix the bugs. Genius! All my hectic problems solved with my brilliant genius hands functioned by my intelligent brain without me having the slightest inkling ever. Haha. I can rob banks with this ultimate possession. Muahaha. Awesome eh?

Yes, I would definitely be Micah without me having to be a genius. *Smirk*

I would like to be Peter too, but I don't need all in one. Haha. Micah would do just rite. Ahaks!
After all there's no harm in dreaming. Is there???

PCU

Caq: Along, PCU tuh berpa?
Me: Hah, PCU?
Caq: Aaaaa...PCU...PCU...
Me: Pe kemende PCU???
Caq: Alaa...PCU lah...
Me *bLUR*
Caq: Alaa...yang letak cd pe sema tuh.
Me: Hahahahahahaahha...CPU lah makcik...aiyak...
Caq: Laaaa...

And we laughed histerically together...my brother also included...

My First Popiah Ever

Hehe...ada bakat x???

At last, I managed myself through the kitchen and made my first popiah. Kindda proud of myself. Heee. Well, I have to say it wasn't that bad. I mean, not that bad. The preparation of course was kindda tedious and all, but really, it wasn't that bad. I liked it really. For the fillings, my mode of cooking was hentam-sajalah.

I did followed the recipies which I took from http://www.rasamalaysia.com/ but add a bit from my friends' recipies. It turned out nice indeed which was verified by my family members of course. =p. I used jicama, bean sprouts, carrot and some shrimp. Dats about it. Then we started to fill in the popiah skin. This part was fun. I was assisted by my two cousin who did a great job in the wrapping department. Since it was our first time, we had different sizes of popiah. Not all accurate. Heee.

While they were busy wrapping, I heat the pan. Boy, as soon as I throw in the popiah, it was looking tastier than ever. Hehe. All of the sudden, some of the popiah got torn apart. So all the fillings spilled out. Not good. We had to wrap a second layer to avoid it from spilling. Problem solved :D. After frying them all, we served them and munched them not leaving a single piece. I have to admit, it was damn good. Heee. Angkat bakul sendiri. Yelah, sapa lagi nak ngaku kan? Huhu. Anyway, I'm looking forward to do more popiah in the future. I do owe my co-workers them, well, this one particular person. Haha.

InsyaAllah I'll be making more of them. ;-)