Rants and Doodles

Paranormal activity?

2010-05-02T01:19:00.003+08:00

Mom came in to turn off the light last night because I was dead asleep since 8pm after swallowing the flu pills. I sort of woke up by her 'presence' and was still in the amidst of sleep. I got out of bed grabbing my watch at the desk and it was showing 10.30pm. I thought I should get out of bed since I slept for two hours. I turned on the light, and went to look at the watch again. Suddenly it was 3.30am. Blood rush through my veins and I thought, did mom really entered my room to turn off the lights that morning?

I stood still, then went outside my room and saw that their room was dark. I thought again, mom couldn't have switch off the lights at 3.30am. No, that could not have been her. She goes to sleep before 12! Right that instant, I went back to bed. Switch off the lights in case 'mom' comes in to turn it off. I tried dozing off but couldn't because of that little incident there. As usual I recited some Surah and closed my eyes but I kept opening my eyelids looking at the corner of the room wondering if 'mom' was there. All I know, I woke up to a sunny morning.

I asked mom later today, if she came in my room that night. She answered yes, it was her. It was hard to believe. Really it was. I still don't believe her. Maybe she was covering the 'mom' up so I would not freak out. Still. Thankfully, even if it wasn't her, I'm glad it turned out to be 'her' not some other form. You know how that is like.

I'm not the only one

2010-04-04T08:55:00.001+08:00

Me: Aku balik ni nak pergi jumpa Doktor Haiwan.

Nik: Oh, apesal?

Me: Anak kucing aku sakit.

Nik: Oh...hah? Kencing sakit?

Me: Kucing aku sakit, apehal lak kencing sakit?

Nik: Laaaa, aku ingat ko yang kencing sakit? Kucing ko yang sakit.

Me: Ha'lah. Apehal pulak aku kencing sakit?

Nik: Tadi aku dengar ko yang kencing sakit sebab aku dengar ko kata ko nak pergi jumpa doktor Taiwan, aku terpikir, peh, pergi jumpa pakar tuh.

Me: Hahahahahahahahaha!Pekak ke apa ko neh? Hahahahahahaah!

Nik: Hahahahahahahaha...

It was so damn funny, we both cried laughing and I laughed like an insane person all the way home. This scene happens a lot of time like it happened here. See, I'm not the only one :D

That was better than April's Fool prank!

Reading Room

2010-03-23T21:37:00.007+08:00

I was in pain last night because of this thing call menstruation and it is one of my big nemesis. I could not eat because of this gas that is residing in my belly and every 2 minutes I feel like vomiting. Luckily a cup of Milo and a tube of Mustajab lotion did the trick.

In between all that pain, I can only manage to lie down and watch TV. I was flipping through channels and I turned to Hallmark. Hey Hallmark has lots of good inspiring movie and I happened to watch one last night. Reading Room. Have you seen it? If you haven't, please do so. I'm not gonna go into detail about it, but the storyline is beautiful and inspiring. It made me cry. I'm quite sensitive these days.

It's a story about giving back to the society that is more than what money can give. A widower wants to fulfill his late wife wishes by opening a reading room in a ghetto neighborhood where he came from. He is regarded as an unwelcome outsider by many elements within his old neighborhood but that didn't stop him one bit. Mr William played by James Earl Jones is a one good example of how a rich man should be. His character is lovable and strongly human. His persistence and motivation to change the course of some lives are uplifting.

The message was simple; Importance of reading, giving back to the society and each other out. If I got my dad to watch this movie till the end, it is definitely a good watch. OK, movie's over and I got the message maybe I should go pick up my book that I bought a year ago and read it. Gosh I got tons of them.

Picture credits to greendaizer13

Goodbye 2009, Hello 2010

2010-03-21T23:37:00.013+08:00

Courtesy of Johanerik

OK, that was 3 months ago.

Oh HELLO! OK, I know, I'm 3 months late but I've been gone since the last year and I haven't introduce the year 2010 here yet :D I miss ranting in this mundane site of mine and I miss spilling out my lame thoughts which doesn't make sense sometimes eh? Plus I miss getting new templates. Haha. See, I got myself a new one. A new look for a new year. I so love it. Do you?

I've been MIA because of this sin that is running through my veins which is called SLOTH! You know. It's a one deadly sin and makes you go idle on everything. Almost everything. It's hard trying to get rid of it. Believe me. Darn it Skinny! You're always giving excuses! Teehee. Well, I got lots of things I want to spill and I don't know if anyone is reading it but who cares. Now that April is around the corner should I hello it instead?

Watever~

2009-10-23T22:38:00.008+08:00

Blog sphere is a world full of fitna and crap. I was tested today. I was accused of copying someone Else's artwork. OK, why I am making a big issue out of this? Well, people are making me look bad in this so-call-Internet world and yes I'm here to justify.

I designed a wedding card for my best friend a while ago based on cartoons. She posted her wedding card on her blog and out of nowhere, this so-called-anonymous-reader, who's pretty much a chicken to reveal her/his name in my BFF's blog, accused me of copying someones artwork she/he saw on some other blog who's probably not even her/his friend.

I do not like to reveal name, because I'm not the bad-mouth a person type, so I'm gonna give a name myself. Lets put the A as the person that the so-called-anonymous-reader accused me of copying. Easy!

Now, what right does the so-called-anonymous-reader has to say that what I drew belongs to A? Or on what reason I did has to be credited to A? I don't have to put pictures here just to make the comparison to prove my point because I know I didn't commit a crime of copying/stealing someones artwork. What I drew purely came from my mind. In fact I had a few samples I drew for my besties, and she liked that particular drawing and chose it to be on her wedding card.

It's funny because the-so-called-anonymous-reader see A as though A was a God of art and that I had to submit everything I did to A. It was a simple design that any retarded person can do. Yes, the concept was the same, simple and clean. The differences was simply on the cartoon that we both draw. You have to be completely blind to say that it was the same or look alike.

If the next time someone ask me a favor to draw for them for their wedding card, and the drawing I draw came straight from my freaking brain, I have to credit A when A doesn't own the drawing? How bout crediting A for the idea? The-so-called-anonymous reader probably would say that I 'copied' it. Like A was the first to design that. There's tons of card with the same idea. Like I've said, it was simple. Anyone can do it. Actually it was a blank background with a drawing of a groom and the bride. Wow, so much for an idea huh?

What tickles me is I don't know how the-so-called-anonymous-reader could claimed that it was similar to A's and that I changed it by putting hijab on the cartoon? Come on, I'm sure you have the most sharpest eyes. Can't you see the difference???????? A was simply mad at someone who did actually stole her/his work and made them theirs. OK, if I was in A's place, I'll be fume myself and I know that if A were to look at my drawing, A's gonna say it's totally different. A's probably doesn't have an issue with it. Yet, the-so-called-anonymous-reader are making such fitna on such matters!

I was only helping out a friend and it sickens me that someone has the guts to say what they said. Obviously they have nothing better to do but spreading fitna around. Well, I'm not gonna let that stop me from drawing and make my life miserable. I'm no fool or an idiot who doesn't know the meaning of stealing/copying someone else work for my own benefit.

At the end of the day I can only smile and laugh at these funny humans. I have to remind myself that in this world, they are nut heads, bolt heads, screw heads who just love to make a misery out of people. I'm going to keep the record on play. I've got much bigger issues to deal with. Thank you.

Experimenting

2009-08-28T00:47:00.002+08:00

I'm experimenting drawing on my tablet. Oh boy, I'm psyched. It looks ugly the fact that I was just doodling around loool. Hmmm, will get serius the next time, insyaAllah.

Blah

2009-08-27T16:59:00.007+08:00

A few days ago I decided that I want to quit blogging. I wrote a post about it then suddenly I changed my mine ^^. The reason? Well, it will be such a waste of letting go something so good. Not that I'm important or anything, but I see there's a lot of good things you can do with a blog. I tend to use it to the fullest. Then again, I'm having a hard time updating. Now, you can't be a blogger if you procrastinate a lot. True?

The thing is I've been pretty occupied with other things. I'm getting hooked with photography. It's funny because I tend to do what other people are doing. Take this blog for example. I made it because everyone else did. LOL. Nevertheless, I've always fancied artsy stuff. Oh why didn't I get into art school? ^^' I signed with every social network that is available, well almost every social network and its hard to keep up. I've been actively on Twitter ever since I was introduced to it by my sister. At first I was pretty clueless and now I'm a twitter junkie as you can see on my twitter tots ^^. The best thing about it, is, I can write random thoughts that's lurking in my brain without having to elaborate. Easy huh?

I got so much things that I want to do like updating my art page on Deviantart. I've been blocked these. Can't seem to get my hand on pencils. Plus I'm starting to learn Photoshop and there is so much I don't know about. I don't know if I have the time ^^'. If only I got into this earlier. My life would be so much easier. I regret that so much. Anyhow, no point of regretting the past. Got to look into the future and start on it hoping I will feel better about it, insyaAllah.

I'm thinking of getting myself a Photog. A photo blog. Sounds interesting. Hmmm...we'll see.

Salam Ramadhan Mubarak and have a nice day ahead.

Salam

Me in the Tweet World

2009-07-22T01:08:00.004+08:00

My grade in the Twitter world =D

Gotta love these genius tablet pen lol.

Something to Ponder

2009-07-16T11:27:00.011+08:00

Salam peeps, how are you all doing? Hope you are all in the best of shape, insyaAllah. I don't have the best title for this entry but just go along with it, will you? =) I pretty much abandoned my site due to some other distractions that caught me =D. Plus, I don't really have much to say and it won't be that big a deal. What I say might not matter remember? Haha. Whatever. Hmmm, over the past few days I am somewhat happy and I don't even know why. Despite work is like boring as usual and it's not like I'm excited to go to work every morning, but with this brand new mood (almost brand new), I tossed to side all that hate-of-dealing-with-work feeling. It's like I didn't care having to deal with crap. I just played along. Strange and true but I'm happy with it. Alhamdulillah.

No 1 reason that I'm somewhat happy is maybe I made friends with a lot of Muslim sisters and brothers throughout the globe. Mostly are reverted and I am so pleased and blessed to have met them in the first place. Alhamdulillah. I learned so much from them. One thing I know is that they are better Muslims than I am. Living Islam to the fullest. Always reciting and quoting ayat from the Holy Quran, learning Arabic, wearing niqab (yeah, sisters wearing hijab the proper way), always praising our Lord, Allah in every conversations they made. They have been very inspiring to me.

Every time I speak with them, it made me realized of how jahil I am. How little knowledge that I possessed in the aspect of being a Muslim. They came to Islam knowing little, but grew to become the best of Muslim that they can. Yeah, I feel ashamed of myself and yet still remains doing sins each and everyday like still sticking to my bad habits which are hard to wear off. With surrounding yourself with these people, it always gives us a wake up call. A reminder to do something good/to change for the better as long as we breathe. The Prophet Muhammad SAW once told that, we must surround ourselves with good people as they will benefit us in so many good ways. This is very true indeed. Whom you hang around can influence you be it good or bad.

I really like having them as a company. They always sharing thoughts from their everyday obstacles. I can relate myself to them. I think we all can. They reverted to Islam but from what I see, they are an example of good Muslims. Not like some of the Muslims who tosses the Deen out of their life. I'm not being judgemental. I am no better, but this is what happening these days. I'm praying we all will get back to the right path. The path of Iman and Faith. InsyaAllah.

I met sister Umm Travis who's an expat from Canada and living in Egypt, always sharing her everyday life us. Her becoming a muslimah and all that, it's really fascinating. Then I met sister Maria, a Spanish origin who's from US who's passionate and artistry with her poems. I also met brother Yusuf from Morocco who always tells me to make dua, and reminding me of the Quran and sharing Islamic thoughts. We've known eachother since last Monday! They are like sisters and brother I never had. It's incredible. I feel like I don't only belong to my community here, but to the world as well. It's like I am a part of it. Thanks to technology =D. Alhamdulillah indeed.

This is where my inner energy comes from these days. From people around the world. It's really great getting to know people from every corner of the globe. It opens up your mind and you realize you are one tiny person and that you are not the only one who has problem LOL. That's why I didn't mind having to deal with crap these days since I know I have friends to take my mind off it. Even if I didn't meet them in the first place, I know Allah has always been around and always will be around for me. That is one thing for sure. Allah is Great.

When you have only yourself to hold on to

2009-06-22T00:05:00.004+08:00

Taraaa. I've finished another piece of art. This came through my imagination. Thanks to the crappy moment that I've been dealing with =D. This is the edit version. I'm still getting around with Photoshop. Boy, it's not easy. I only managed to use the features that's available which was piece of cake. Maybe I should try coloring this later on in the future when I have the time. InsyaAllah.

Do check out the original here

P.S I just noticed I gave u the wrong link. ^^. Corrected! Check it out OK.

In-Laws

2009-06-18T23:49:00.006+08:00

Even though the work stress is taking its toll on me, yeah, I did a stress test at a clinic and I'm two points away of going depress because of this breathing difficulty that I'm having. Phew. Good thing I'm not. An evening chat with my colleagues managed to amuse me and keep me cool and sane. Pretty much. I don't exactly remember how the topic came up even though it took place like two days ago (Blame the slow processor XD). We were talking about in-laws. More precisely, they. Since of course I don't know how married life is, but what I've heard the other day sums it all up. Marriage is not easy. Especially if it involves fussy, nosey, selfish, stuck up in-laws.

I can't imagine if I had to deal with one of them. People says that when you marry, you are not marrying the guy himself, but the whole entire family. Now that can be a nightmare. Unless your future-spouse-to-be family members are like angel, case settled. If not, it can be a total agony. The type of in-laws I don't think I can handle would be the type who are sarcastic right in front or behind my face. Well, obviously these goes out to the mothers since mothers are known to be the fussy species. "Aih, macam tak berperisa je masakan ni, mak masak lagi sedap kan Ahmad"/"This cooking is so tasteless. I can cook better than this. Right Ahmad?" and would tell the whole damn thing to the whole kampung. If a friend did this to me, I would completely ignore and just tell to back off. Can you do that to your mother-in-law? Huhu. I don't think so.

The other type would be those who doesn't know how to talk. I mean, she's probably the shy type but having to start a conversation with an old lady who lives in her own world could be very challenging. I'm lacking that. I'm lacking that I-know-how-to-impress-people personality. Yes, I am quite a chatter box with friends my age or a little bit older, but having to impress an old citizen with my-so-called-brain, won't do much help. I had to play childish trying to get my mom attention XD. She is the serious type. I can't act that way. Then my mother-in-law will think her son married a chimpanzee. Wait, my mom did smirk up a little seeing me being all dumb. Hey, maybe I'll try that. Naa, too risky. Unless the mother-in-law is the type who likes to talk, talk good stuff, then I will make the best listener ever even though I do have a bit of a sound trouble XD.

My colleagues shared stories from their family members and I'm quite freaked out about this whole marriage thing. Well, I'll be lying if I say I didn't want to get married(who wouldn't want to get married?) but I might change my requirement to whom I should marry and add new ones. Either the guy doesn't have a parent(prime evil) or who doesn't speak Malay or English at all! That way I'll just smile even though she might be saying how stupid I am for not stirring up the soup. Haha.

*Ahmad has nothing to do with my life. He is just acting out XD.

The Secret

2009-06-14T22:54:00.005+08:00

I was cleaning my room the other day and I stumbled across this piece of plastic bag.

The Secret. Everyone has it.

Do you have a secret? I do XD. I wonder what do they sell and who on earth bought them? Surely it has to be one family members of mine. Hmm...

Top 10 Signs That You Need a New Job

2009-06-04T09:39:00.004+08:00

10. Your outgo exceeds your income. Damn

9. The most rewarding thing you did this week was sharpen all twelve of your pencils to the same length.

8. You’re reluctant to be a Career Day speaker at your kid’s fourth-grade class.

7. Everyone in your work group got a raise except you.

6. Your friends all have jobs that sound more interesting than yours.

5. You were late for work three times this week, but you just don’t care. XD

4. There’s a meeting at 3:00 to talk about the upcoming reorganization, and you’re not invited.

3. Your boss keeps forgetting your name. *Sigh*

2. You constantly daydream about being a forest ranger. --> more or less

1. Your company was recently acquired, and you spent two weeks worrying that you’d be laid off. After that you worried that you wouldn’t be. Exactly

OK, I so need a new job!!!!

Any Given Time

2009-06-03T10:47:00.002+08:00

Mmm any given time He'll be there
I don't really have to say no more
Mmm any given time He's right here
Embedded in my living soul - oh for sure
Oh any given time I see
The beauty that has always been
In any given time

I swear by The Lord of the moon split in 2
5 o'clock in the morning, I be calling You

I'm totally lost with out Your light
I'm finding my self on the strive all the time
Not a single day goes by

I'm out to fight the devil but never fought myself
Read a thousand books but never read myself
My souls starving it needs to be fed lord I need your help
Hell with the devil my biggest enemy's myself
It makes me wonder am I doing this for the right reasons
I mean the money the fame and game all sounds appealing
Instead of entertaining I prefer to enlighten
But then again who am I to be in a position
To represent a whole generation of kids and to make them believe
When till this day I still struggle to uphold my deen
I read a 100 God is great in less then a minute
And though my tongue is fast like twista
My hearts not in it

Mmm any given time He'll be there
I don't really have to say no more
Mmm any given time He's right here
Embedded in my living soul - oh for sure
Oh any given time I see
The beauty that has always been
In any given time

By the one in whose hands my soul is there is no match
To think a spider couldn't? weave a curtain just like that (break)

I wouldn't be here without Your light
I'm finding my self on the strive all the time
Not a single day goes by

Sí que tengo fervor, devoción para dar mi granito de arena
Y mi aspiración mantenerla serena
Yo Tengo buen criterio aunque a veces esta difuso
Yo Tengo mi firmeza de la cual a veces abuso
Yo trato de ser justo, me sobra lealtad
Coraje valentía, me falta sobriedad
Diferentes situaciónes,diferentes actitudes
Afectan mi progreso y todas mis virtudes

[Translation]
Sure I have fervour to give my grain of sand
And my aspirations keep them serene
My perception is sound even though it sometimes gets fuzzy
I have my resolution even though I sometimes abuse it
I try to be righteous, I abound in devotion
Courageous irascibility, I lack moderation
Different situations, different attitudes
Hamper my development and all of my virtues

Mmm any given time He'll be there
I don't really have to say no more
Mmm any given time He's right here
Embedded in my living soul - oh for sure
Oh any given time I see
The beauty that has always been
In any given time

Mercy with out boasting
Gifts with out terms
Goodness with out anger
Forgive with out reason
Any given time
I do my best to strive
In Your name I rise
The apple of my eye

Even when I'm not alone
You are closer than the veins in my neck
Even when I'm all alone

Even when I'm in sleep
You are closer than the veins in my neck
Even when I'm in it so deep

Even when I'm all gone
You are closer than the veins in my neck
Even as I'm singin' this song

Even when I'm on a high
You are closer than the veins in my neck
Even when I try to touch the sky

Mmm any given time He'll be there
I don't really have to say no more
Mmm any given time He's right here
Embedded in my living soul - oh for sure
Oh any given time I see
The beauty that has always been
In any given time

Outlandish

The Terminal

2009-05-28T11:03:00.002+08:00

“The Terminal” tells the story of Viktor Navorski (Tom Hanks), a visitor to New York City from Eastern Europe, whose homeland erupts in a fiery coup while he is in the air en route to America. Stranded at John F. Kennedy International Airport with a passport from nowhere, he is unauthorized to actually enter the United States and must improvise his days and nights in the terminal’s international transit lounge until the war at home is over.

As the weeks and months stretch on, Viktor finds the compressed universe of the terminal to be a richly complex world of absurdity, generosity, ambition, amusement, status, serendipity and even romance with a beautiful flight attendant named Amelia (Catherine Zeta-Jones). But Viktor has long worn out his welcome with airport official Frank Dixon, who considers him a bureaucratic glitch, a problem he cannot control but wants desperately to erase.

(Courtesy of cinema.com)

Starring: Tom Hanks & Catherine Zeta Jones and some other bunch of actors
Director: Steven Speilberg

Scene:
Enrique an Italian guy asking Victor Navorski what's the status of the girl he had a crush on.

Enrique: She had a boyfriend? For how long?

Victor was eating and stuck up 2 fingers.

Enrique: Two years? What happened?

Victor: He chit.

Enrique: What?

Victor: He chit.

Enrique: Eat shit?

Victor: He chit. He chit. He chit.

Enrique: Repeat exactly what she said.

Victor: He chit. She catch him. So...

Enrique: He cheats.

Victor: Yes. What we call krushkach. We say krushkach. One man, two womans. So. Mm. Crowded, you know.

Enrique: OK. He cheats. You say "cheats".

Victor: He chit.

Enrique: No, "cheat".

Victor: Enrique, You, no chit.

Enrique: No, cheat. No chit. No. I won't cheat.

Victor: She's a nice girl. She won't take your chitting.

Hahahaha...I laughed my patula out last night while watching this. This is one funny and valuable movie. You guys should grab one.

What is happening to me?

2009-05-25T21:40:00.008+08:00

I don't know what is happening to me lately, but I think I'm falling in love. Awwww(Some of you think that it is time, isn't it) haha...Yes I think I am falling in love. I'm falling in love with Pink. MasyaAllah, I can't believe I said that! Ann, don't you dare laugh at me. Curse you Ann if you did :P

OK, love is a big word, let's just say LIKE. OK? Yes, I don't know why I see pink is very nice indeed. Before this I hated it so much. Remember the post I hate pink even more. Hehe. Every time I see someone wearing pink, I curse that person. Haha. She did nothing wrong. Hehe. To me pink is too feminine. It resemble extreme femininity which I think is rather uncool. I'm a cool person(haha) I mean, I like mysterious and exotic thing, pink doesn't say all that. Black and red does. How does pink fits that? Pink spells high-maintenance chic which I am not.

Like they say, what goes around comes around. What you hate, you will ~~love~~ like. I've come across beautiful pinky stuff lately especially in the clothes department and I complementing on how pretty they were. Opps (grin). There are some shades of pink that I like. Not those too pinky like The Pink Ladies from Grease or Pink Panther, or those candy floss pink like Patrick. Really, there are certain pink color that I'm awed at especially smokey pink which I think is sexy. Can I say that? XD

My colleagues noticed my interest in pink too. Every time we came across some clothing bazaar, I would hand out to them to try pink out or at least say that this pink is pretty. Is this really me? Or is this some curse or spell someone has put on me? Which ever it is, Red remains my No.1 favourite color.

This pink looks cool XD

Beauty regimes around the world...well...some parts of it

2009-05-25T12:11:00.004+08:00

Last Friday, caught Oprah at 8pm since I can't perform my prayers so I sat in front of the TV instead while having dinner. The talk that night was very intriguing. It was about women beauty regimes from around the globe. I didn't sat from the beginning of the show. It's very fascinating how women would go to the extreme in the name of beauty. Like the Japanese women, who consume bird poop (I don't exactly recall what type of bird) to get beautiful and maintaining youthful skin. Would you eat birds poop for that?

How about women in I can't remember which country, where they put brass of necklaces around their neck and piling it up as they get older. As a result, they will have long neck and it is very essential within that country. A sign of pure beauty. Hmmm...then there's the Brazilian, where plastic surgery is nothing extravagant and it is seen as something usual in everyday life. Staying fit and keeping a good body size is a must for a Brazilian. If they are not able to obtain the desirable body shape or boobs or butts, then going under the knife is a must do. Sometimes well most of the times, they will spend half of their salary on making them look totally good. Imagine that! I, myself have problem buying a RM20 lotion. Huh!

Women in Oman, a country southern of Arabia, keeps it all traditional by using traditional stuff like miswak. They use it as a tooth brush. Dried petal roses for bathing to get good aroma and the rest I was not able to capture. Most of the women from different countries are trying to stay thin. From France to Indonesia and from the rest of the globe, keeping slim is every women dreams. However in Mauritania, it doesn't work this way. It's the other way around.

While many are trying to lose weight, women in Mauritania have to gain weight since the age of young. This is so that they have a high chance of getting married. Being chubby and rounded are seen as sexy and desirable there. Even having a cellulite too! If I were to shift off to Mauritania, I think they would force food down my throat because I look totally the opposite. Blame on my metabolism. XD. I don't think I can handle that. Still, there is a downside to living the Mauritania way. You will get health issues. Diabetes, high blood pressure etc. Not good.

There is another country that caught my attention. It is rather controversial because it involves an Islamic country. To my utter surprise, the women there being totally conservative, well some parts of the women there, are having their nose done. Yes, they are having nose jobs and it is very common there. How can someone, a Muslim do all this? Isn't it forbidden to change what was created for you? We are not even allowed to shape our eyebrows, let alone do a nose jobs or what ever that requires surgery. Unless under some certain condition, surgery is permissible like if your nose is cracked in half, maybe it's OK to have your nose done. Funny thing was that, if that women from that country couldn't afford it, they would put bandages on their nose as though they had the surgery and people would think she did. They would leave it on for like a year just so to have people think she had a surgery! So I guess having bandages on your nose is more pleasant than having to display your real nose! Funny humans.

Overall, beauty is subjective. Only the individual can interpret what beauty is. To whatever extent, we must always be thankful for what we have and for what we don't have. After all what we have is a loan from Allah, no matter how beautiful you are, or no matter how beautiful you are trying to be, it will sure go away. Life in this Dunya is only for a while. Then again, it doesn't mean you have to look frumpy and ugly! =)

Pingu on the loose

2009-05-14T15:30:00.004+08:00

This came through the mail box from Anne. Totally hilarious!

Drawing is forbidden in Islam?

2009-05-13T18:58:00.007+08:00

I'm disturbed. Totally disturbed. I ran across a site saying that drawing is unlawful. As a person who loves drawing this can be upsetting. Who wouldn't? Yes, I was once told by dad that we are not allowed to draw humans because the 'people' (which I don't know whom he was referring to) said they might come alive and that we have to mark an X on their neck so they won't come alive. Oh dad, you didn't fall for that one, did you? I certainly did not. I guess he was trying to be funny. XD

Ibn ``Abbâs relates that the Prophet (peace be upon him) said: “Every image maker is in
the Fire. For each image he made, a being will be fashioned to torment him in Hell.” [Sahîh al-Bukhârî (2225) and Sahîh Muslim (2110) – The wording accords with al-Bukhârî]

This really gives me the spook. Really, if she is doing her best as a Muslimah, living the ways Islam tells her and she just happens to love drawing, she is not going to hell just because of this. Is she? I'm sure our Prophet (peace be upon him) said them out of a reason. He can't be saying it out for no reason. I'm not saying this hadith is wrong. My knowledge is too little, but sometimes, you really need a logical explanation to this.

I've been googling around all day, because I really need a firm answer and I found this site HERE. Alhamdulillah. I am a bit relief. The explanation satisfy my needs.

We find in the texts mention of many other major sins that are certainly worse that the making of images – like adultery, taking usury, and abusing parents – without it being declared that the perpetrators of those sins are consigned to the Fire, like we find in “Every image maker is in the Fire”. This should make it even clearer to us that those who make images without the intention of aspiring to create like Allah are not included in the generality of the hadîth’s meaning. Rather, the hadîth applies to all of those who have the intention of aspiring to create like Allah.

When I draw, I can never draw as beautifully as what Allah has created. Nothing can be compared to His creations. My drawing is never perfect, even if it were, to me, they are just drawings. A lifeless piece of drawing. Nothing more. I do it out of pleasure and for the sake of sanity. Drawing helps me to relax my thoughts. I do tend to draw when I'm crazy as well. Oh well...

Drawing is a way for me to express my feelings. Like when I stumble across a cloudy day, it's so much easier to see that in drawing. Rite? People will know instantly through a drawing. What I draw captures the beauty that Allah created within this world. I love to draw eyes because it's truly beautiful and captivating and I love translating it on paper. Does this mean I'm creating something aspiring to create like Allah? I love to draw cartoon as well. I'm not trying to create something bigger from Allah. I can never create something bigger from Allah. I am one of His creations. It never crossed my mind. May Allah protect me from arrogance. I just like to draw, like a kid who loves lollipop. Allah knows best, that's for sure.

Never have I in a million years thought that what I have drawn could be given life or to challenge Allah. Astagfirullah. I know for sure that what I draw is just a piece of drawing, an appreciation to what Allah has blessed me with these hands, something I enjoy doing. Isn't it a sign of His Majesty? That what He gave us is a sign He created us. Nothing can be compared to that. This talent that I have is all from Him. Without Him, can I draw? Without Him, I might not even have these hands.

Bottom line is, I guess it all goes down to what your intentions is. It all goes down to your heart.

May Allah forgive me for all the wrong things I've said. The good things comes from Allah, the not-so-good things comes from my own weaknesses.

Salam

Some people don't get it

2009-05-12T13:47:00.004+08:00

I need intelligent conversations. Conversations that stimulates my brain. Conversations that will help me develop a better me. Not like those telling me to have fun with a friend if you know what I mean? I don't mean to be cruel but Hello, there are better things to talk about rather than your distasteful acts. To them, having 'fun' is the ultimate-must-do.

I feel sorry for these people. Really I do. I guess this is what differentiate us from them. I'm not saying we are better. What I'm saying is, Islam is beautiful. There's a reason why Islam forbids talking indecent and all that. We live accordingly to what Allah has prescribe us. If we follow the rules, we are safe. If we lost track, we will still have a chance by doing it right. Doing it for the right reason. Not trying to please yourself all the time especially if it involves the letter L.U.S.T. Of course, it doesn't mean you have to throw it out the window. One without lust is not human, but use it the right way. The Islamic way. Not by talking to stranger telling them if you are feeling hot or not when they tell you what they are doing down there. Pretty much disgusting.

So the next time if you happens to come across these bunch of people (to those who chats in YM, Skype, etc) just terminate them. They're not doing you any good. I don't even know why I chat up with them in the first place.

Photoshop Newbie

2009-05-03T23:17:00.012+08:00

At last, I got my hands on Adobe Photoshop. Yeah, I know I'm a little left behind, but it's not too late to learn right? Thanks to Atul, she made it work for me. Well since she and I were working on my friend's wedding card, she had no choice but to teach me how to use this popular tool even though she was having a hard time explaining to me. Hihi. No offense OK.

With that, I've created my first ever graphic editing with Photoshop. Don't laugh OK. I know it's not superb, still getting there but I'm ecstatic coz' I get to do a lot with it. I'm now officially an adobe newbie. Hoping one day to be a Sifu of this magnificent, one-hell-of-a-cool-tool on Earth. InsyaAllah.

I drew this picture a few days back, snap tons of photos of it to get a good lighting and edit it in Photoshop and I found this easy to use feature. Very cool indeed. What do you think? =D

Check out the original at http://skinnylegs16.deviantart.com/

P.S - I've only used Picasa my whole life. It's a bit easier for an amateur like me and still using it to add border and stuff. Heee...

Your Call

2009-04-23T13:43:00.006+08:00

I dreamt of you last night. It was the first time I ever saw you in my dreams ever since we've known each other. The first time I could see your face. I came to your house and I didn't know for what reason. The atmosphere was rather gloomy. The day waiting to end. I knocked on the door but there was silence. I waited and suddenly out of nowhere I was greeted by a family
member of yours. It was your mother, I guessed. She smiled and welcomed me and dad.

We stepped into your house. Your house is not what it seems in reality. It was not as lavishing as in real life but little yet cozy and warm. We laid our bums on your sofa while waiting for you. Your mother called out to you and there you were, standing right before my eyes. All beautiful with that curly black hair of yours and the eyes that I fell in love with. The most beautiful eyes I ever seen. The eyes that I wished I would see everyday of my life. You were standing and you didn't seem excited to see me.

You came and sit with us. We talked and then talked and you told us how you wanted to come and see me but you said that I was too serious. Even now I didn't really quite catch what you meant. It ended when we left your home and you followed right behind us with your car. I reached some place and I turned to look at you for the final time. You opened up the window, I thought you wanted to stop me, instead you fled away without any kind of reaction across your face. You are gone. Forever gone.

I woke up with Your Call by Secondhand Serenade reciting in my mind. A melody that I yearn to tell you but I'm awake in reality. I realized now I can never have you even in my dreams.

I need

2009-04-20T17:31:00.004+08:00

Someone exciting to talk to.

Someone who doesn't mind saying Hi all the time and initiate interesting topic to talk about.

Someone who is full of ideas...be it crazy or absurd.

Someone who is there 247.

Someone who is a bit of a nut cracker and sharing each others laugh.

Someone who is anything but ordinary...please!

Gender: Doesn't matter
Age:
If you are around my age ~ awesome
If you are around 30 plus ~ I might consider
If you are 40 above ~ get lost bcoz you're a phony...I know (This applies only to gentlemen)

Yeah, I am picky.

Note: This is not one romance-scheme. Just searching for a BFF.

Someone like Amanda and Betty is an advantage.

Anyone who meets the requirement can contact me at skinny_legs@eaturheartout.com

How about I start my own show like Paris...Skinny New BFF...how's that sound?

*Me on one Monday evening

Life Is A Teacher

2009-04-17T00:09:00.000+08:00

This life is so beautiful that one might at times wish to possess all the good things in it. However, at times life might seem frustrating and difficult. It is only through these lessons that we learn the true lessons of life.

It brightens our knowledge about people and relationship, as each person that enters our life has a unique lesson to teach us.

When someone lies to you, it teaches you that things are not always what they seem to be. The truth is often far beneath the surface. Look beyond the mask people wear, and if you really want to know what is in their hearts, remove your own mask to let people know who you really are.

When someone steals from you, it teaches you that nothing is forever, always appreciate what you have, you never know when you might lose it, never take your friend or family for granted.

When someone inflicts injury on you, it teaches you that the human state is a very fragile one, always protect and take care of yourself as best as you can.

When someone harbours any grudge against you, it teaches you that everyone make mistakes, when you are wronged, the most virtuous thing you can do is to forgive the offender without pretence. Forgiving those who might have hurt us in one way or the other is often the most difficult and the challenging task of life’s experience, but it is also the most courageous thing a person can do.

When someone mocks you, it teaches you that no two people are alike, when you encounter others, do not judge them based on their physical appearance.

When someone ridicules you, it teaches you that nobody is perfect, accept people for their merits and be tolerant of their flaws. Don’t ever reject someone for imperfection for which they have no control.

When someone cheats you, it teaches you that greed is the root of evil, aspire to make your dreams come true, no matter how lofty they may be. But never let an obsession with achieving your goals lead you to engage in malevolent activities.

When someone loves you, it teaches you that love, kindness, charity, humility, forgiveness and acceptance can counteract all the evil deeds in the world. Man has the power to control the balance between good and evil, but because the lessons of love are not taught often enough, the power is often abused.

When a loved one is unfaithful to you, it teaches you that resisting temptation is man’s greatest challenge, be vigilant in your resistance against all temptations, by so doing, you will be rewarded with enduring sense of satisfaction far greater than the pressure by which you were tempted.

When someone breaks your heart, it teaches you that loving someone does not always mean that, it is the same person that will reciprocate your love, when you find the right person the joy that the person brings, will make up for all your past hurts.

When you enter someone’s life whether by plan or chance, consider the lesson that you will teach, always bearing in mind that life is a small world.

Written By My Friend From Nigeria
Anongo Eric Oryina

=)

2009-04-10T10:49:00.003+08:00

Wow, I left my page stranded for a while now. Ok, not gonna comment further.

Anyway, I've got some major stuff that I have to finish up and start up too. Seriously, I need time. I need like 24 hour solid so I can basically do anything I want. Huh! I want to be able to draw the whole day and finish up my little project. Peter Petrelli is still in the making. Sorry for the delay Adek. Peter will be on his way to you. Huhu.

I got a new project too. My besties is asking me to design her, her wedding card. I'm ecstatic because she gave me the privilege to do that even though I have no skill at all! Ok, maybe I do have the pencil skills because she wants me to draw something for her card, but in order to create the wedding vision, someone has to be good at computer skills. This is where my X-Office mate buddy, Atul comes in the picture. We'll be joining forces. We are like going to war aren't we? Hehe. This is huge, given this chance. I still can't believe my besties asked me to do it. Really, I can't wait. I already have the idea slit in my brain. Hope we can deliver and that she will like it. Amin. This is one business opportunity. Cool eh?

Later~

Pencil and Paper

2009-02-23T23:17:00.007+08:00

I'm starting my own art collection in deviantart.com since I don't have the money to start up a gallery. Plus I don't think I have what it takes to be an artist. You know like that notorious painting of Mona Lisa done by Leonardo DaVinci. Until today, I don't know what is so great about that painting. Really I don't. It's just so spooky. Imagine having her on your wall looking at you smiling. Erk, I don't think so. Anyway, here's a part of my drawing I've done. This original copy was from an artist named Zindy from Denmark. I was so inspired I had to do mine and make it my own. Hope she doesn't mind. ;-) Once I'm done uploading all of them, I'll let you guys know. Still got a lot to do, I only have a few. Anyway, looking forward to it. Cheers.

What do you think? =)

Hanya sekadar bebelan semata-mata

2009-02-18T13:31:00.003+08:00

Pagi-pagi lagi saya dapat idea nak mengarang sampai saya tolak tepi lah kerja saya. Gila tak amanah saya kan tapi selagi saya tak tulis, selagi tuh saya tak boleh buat kerja. Hehe. Jadi jangan jadi seperti saya. Huhu.

Harini saya nak mengarang dalam Bahasa Melayu. Bahasa ibunda saya. Macam best. Lagipun bahasa ni sahaja lah yg saya terer. Yang saya dok cakap omputih selama neh pon kira trial and
error, dalam bahasa melayunya, cuba dan salah. Haha. Gila fail kalau saya nak translate-translate neh. Saya punya English tak terer mana pon, grammer tunggang langgang, ayat tak best langsung. Kalau orang yang terer omputih tersinggah kat blog saya mesti dia kata "WHAT THE HECK IS SHE TALKING ABOUT? I CANT UNDERSTAND A THING" Most probably lah kan. Ekekeke. Saya ber-English pun sekadar nak baiki English saya yang masih lemah bukan hendak menunjuk-nunjuk. Saya memang jeles dengan mereka yang blog dalam English, dengan ayat-ayat yang bombastic, saya jeles lah tapi in a good way.

Saya hanya terer Bahasa Malaysia sebab tu satu-satunya paper yang saya dapat A1 masa SPM. Haha. Kira terer lah tuh kan. Bukan saya nak riak dengan A1 saya tuh, ape sangat lah maksud
A1 tuh dalam kehidupan saya. Takde makne pon. Huh. Orang lain yang tak dapat A1 dalam Bahasa Malaysia pon, terer je cakap melayu. Malah fasih lagi dari saya. Kan? Tapi saya kagum lah yang saya dapat A1. Yang saya target A1, dapat A2 lak. Disitu sudah membuktikan bahawa saya hanya terer dalam Bahasa Malaysia. Dahlah masa tu era start sastera yang mana saya cukup anti gila dengan mende-mende puitis ni. Saya tak study habes pon sastera-sastera ni walaupon nak SPM. Mengarut je semua tuh. Sajak, Gurindam dan macam-macam lagi yang ntah hapa-hapa. Masa tuh lah kan. Saya ingat lagi soalan-soalan dia. Taklah berpa nak ingat sebab sudah 7 tahun saya tinggalkan sekolah. Uih, saya rasa diri sudah tua. Ok, sambung, saya ingat lagi soalan-soalan sastera dia yang karut-marut. Cite pasal burung gagak hitam ke monyet ntah yang kalau baca balik memang...ish...stress lah nak paham kan jalan cite dia.

Sampai sekarang saya tak paham apa relevennya cerita monyet tersebut. Masa itu pula saya dapat cikgu BM yang sangat sopan. Dalam ertikata lain, baik lah. Kecik molek tudung besar gitu. Saya tak ingat nama dia. Puan Siti Hajar kot, tapi saya ingat Puan Siti Hajar cikgu BM masa saya F3. Gila garang OK walaupon kecik and cun. Dia antara cikgu yang saya anti. Haha. Berbalik pada cikgu BM saya yang saya tak ingat nama, dia jenis tak strict sangat lah so akibatnya saya tak heran sangat lah nak ambil tahu hal-hal sastera ni. Bleh tak camtuh? Hehe.

Lepas tu naik F5, dapat cikgu ala-ala sporting. Saya pon tak ingat nama dia tapi dia suruh panggil dia Mama. Macam geli pon ada tapi saya layankan je. Dia pulak time mengajar memang
semangat. Cerita yang tak ada kaitan dengan sastera melayu pon dia ceritakan. Time tuh hangat dengan Maria Mercedes ke Rosalinda ntah, dimana satu babak yang dia cerita tuh saya
langsung tak tahu. Tapi kelas saya beria dengar cerita Mama tuh. Ape-apelah. Yang saya nak highlight kat sini, silibus sastera time tuh kena baca buku novel.

Sekolah saya kena baca buku berjudul Konserto Terakhir. Saya sampai sudah abes SPM pon tak habis pon baca buku tu. Macam mana saya boleh pergi periksa dengan tidak habis baca pun buku tuh? Saya pun tidak tahu tapi memang ajaib lah. Haha. Tapi tak mungkin lah saya dapat jawab tanpa bantuan cikgu-cikgu kan. Dalam kelas memang kita membincangkan setiap bab-bab tuh. Walaupon begitu, saya memang tak amek peduli. Haha. Memang saya tak tahu jalan cerita bila sudah sampai bab-bab dekat belakang. Saya tak tahu mengapa saya begini. Tapi saya dapat A1. Magic kan? Hehe.

Tidak kira lah kita nak mengarang atau nak bercakap dalam bahasa apapun, asalkan orang lain paham. Jangan kita nak cakap bahasa best-best tapi sorang pun tak paham. Contoh lah kan saya nak tunjuk saya tau bahasa Jepun (contoh je), tapi kawan saya orang Melayu, pehal lak saya nak ber-Jepun lak kan. Haha. Melainkan kita jadikan tempat untuk kongsi ilmu ke ape, mungkin
tidak menjadi masalah. Komunikasi disini amat penting. Kadang-kadang saya heran, bila orang nak cuba speaking Mat Salleh, orang lain tengok macam poyo je orang tu sedangkan dia
sedang berusaha dan mahu belajar. Bila dia terguna dialect Mat Salleh ala-ala American ke London ke mereka akan mengata. Penah lalui? Huhu.

Bahasa memang best. Saya suka bahasa. BM, English, Jepun, Perancis, Arab kalau boleh saya nak belajar. Mungkin dijadikan karier. Bukan hendak tunjuk kita terer ke apa tapi sebagai jambatan antara dua dunia yang berlainan. Eceh. Saya pernah berkawan dengan orang berbangsa Turkey melalui satu website saya pun tidak ingat dah, saya bukan nak kata tapi susah jugak lah kalau tidak tahu English. Malay of course orang belah Middle East tidak tahu dan kita pula manalah tahu bahasa mereka, jadi English lah jadi bahasa perantara. Saya ingat lagi perbualan dia, kami bercakap tentang kematian agaknya, lepas tuh dia cakap something like "It was dead in my dog". Saya gelak besar lah sebab kelakar kan ayat tuh tapi saya paham maksud dia apa. Dia nak cakap yang anjing dia mati tapi "It was dead in my dog". Memang kelakar. Macam-macam orang saya jumpa online. Mungkin akan dijadikan entry akan datang. Watch out.

Entry ini sekadar bebelan aja, tidak lebih dari itu. Harap tiada siapa yang tersinggung.
Sekian, terima kasih.

*Gile skema entry neh. Haha.

I Don't Know

2009-02-13T14:30:00.010+08:00

I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANT BUT I KNOW IT'S NOT THIS crossed my mind today. Well, actually it's been haunting me like forever. Really I don't know what I want. I don't want to do reporting for the rest of my life. Certainly not. One thing I know, if I don't start or plan to change it right now or at least in the next couple of months, I might as well rot here at J**P all miserable. What's the point of complaining yet not a single steps to change it for good? Eh skinny? Skinny has been having some low self-esteem because she can't figure out what she wants in life. She seems pretty lost. But no worry skinny, everything will be fine. InsyaAllah.

Have you ever felt this way? All lost and confused as though you come to the edge of a cliff and you don't know what to do but to let fate run its course? Of course you just can't jump off it and expect Superman to come to the rescue. No, it doesn't happen that way here on earth. Even if Superman exist, I don't think jumping off a cliff is an option to get rid of your problems. It's totally stupid OK. Unless you're trying to escape danger from some mountain lion...well...yeah...maybe.

OK, I'm so lost.

With the economics going sour where thousand are indeed going jobless, I don't think it's the right time for me to babble and act as though I'm the only victim. No, that isn't right. Other
suffered greater than what I'm dealing with. The war in Gaza, economics meltdown, poverty and so many more.It's really creepy what is happening in this world these days. I hope and pray it doesn't happen to me or anyone else. For a start, I should be grateful for what I have. I think we
should all do, regardless of what circumstances we are going through. Still, we are not obligate to act as though we are Superhuman. Pretending that everything is OK. Yeah, we break and we bleed but I guess that's part and parcel of life. That's when we seek refuge in Allah. Pray that He will guide us all the way. InsyaAllah. My sister taught me that. She is more of a Kak Long to me than I am. ;) Thanks adek. InsyaAllah, everything will be alright.

I know I sound ridiculously optimistic as though things will fall into place very soon, but I'm keeping my hopes high because I believe if you believe in things, you will start to see them coming no matter how long you have to wait for them. Brian Kim taught me that too. I've been subscribing his newsletter and it is very inspiring. You should try it out yourself.

No matter how hard the wave might hit you, you are gonna keep on going. I want to be one of those people who sees that tomorrow is always brand new even though I feel like breaking apart from reality but a little dream never kills. Rite? You can dream but you got to put effort into it to make it come true.

I sound pretty corny...don't you think? Teehee...

Oh yeah, what do you think of this new layout? I had some problem with the previous one so I found this...neat eh?

I like to tag it - tag it

2009-01-15T23:31:00.007+08:00

1. Do u think u are HOT?
Does Aneroxia, ribs, skinny legs looks hot? I don't think so. Huhu.

2. Upload a fav pic of you

3. Why do u like this picture?
Coz it seems like me, my sis(in white) and my fav cousins all time are having a blast at that hanging-thingy. Don't you think? Nyaman je suasana kampung. Ekekeke.

4. When was the last time u ate pizza?
On my birthday. It was my treat and I ate like a pig. Huh. I only ate a slice since I had spagetti and those platters.

5. The last song u listen too?
Still on my Brain by Justin Timberlake. I just love sappy love songs. It knows how I feel. Haha.

6. What are u doing right now besides this.
Waiting for dinner. Hold on, I've help mom prepared ok. Just ran upstairs and waiting for dad to come home from surau.

7. What name u prefer besides yours?
Syaz is just fine *smirk*

8. People to tag:

1. Wan (I still owe u ur tag...heee)

2. Anne

3. Kak Hanim if she happens to run across this.

4. Kak Lyn but I think she has been tagged too...hmmm...change it to justnid

5. Fikri a.k.a Angah

9. Who is no.1
My high-school bestie and still am. She's getting married by the end of the year, insyaAllah and wants me to be her maid of honor. How cool is dat?...and I'll be wearing gold. Haha.

10. No.3 is having relationship with?
Yeah, I'm pretty curious kak nim...meeting someone? hmmm...*wink*

11. Say something about no.5
He looks like Lah V.E. Seriously no kidding man. And seriously, jangan kembang lak angah... =p

12. How about no.4?
She is so busy with her life, doesn't have a blog and I don't know why I'm tagging her...Haha.

13. Who is no.2?
Pink mafia. Everything she owns...is pink. Pink henset, pink patrick, pink that moving head-thingy in her car, pink bedroom eventhough i have not seen it...pink God knows what else...huh!

The Sound of Reason

2009-01-10T21:13:00.005+08:00

"They said: In Allah we put trust. Our Lord! Oh, make us not a lure for the wrongdoing folk; (85) And, of Thy mercy, save us from the folk that disbelieve. (86) And We inspired Moses and his brother, (saying): Appoint houses for your people in Egypt and make your houses oratories, and establish worship. And give good news to the believers. (87) And Moses said: Our Lord! Lo! Thou hast given Pharaoh and his chiefs splendour and riches in the life of the world, Our Lord! that they may lead men astray from Thy way. Our Lord! Destroy their riches and harden their hearts so that they believe not till they see the painful doom. (88)"

Yunus(85-88)

This is for you Palestine.

What do you think?

2009-01-09T00:10:00.003+08:00

Taraaa...what do u think? Pretty neat eh? I have to admit it, it is nice to get out of the dark. Haha. Since most of my mates have been switching templates which looks totally awesome, I decided to do the same. The fact that it's new year, I should get myself a new look. At first I was thinking of just changing the header but it would have been just the same. Black and sumore black. Then I bumped into Kak Lyn's site and her new layout was better. At that time, I didn't have the urge to do what she was doing. Busy. Haha. Ok. Whatever.

Later, I went to drop by at Ann's if she had updated her page. It turned out she did. Pink as always which was pretty cool. FYI, I don't normally say pink is cool. Then it hit me that I need to makeover blank404 myself. I did. Well it was a struggle at first. I did tried the one that both Kak Lyn and Ann had, from Gisele-Beu-something, a page with a soothing green color. Somehow it didn't got me. Of course it's cute but cute doesn't describe me even though I am. Haha.

After googling around, I fell completely in love with this masterpiece. It's like it was made for me although about 17,000 earthlings had downloaded it. Still, I'm proud to be one of them. Hehe. Anyway, I got to touch up a bit because it does look like a bit all over the place. Doesn't it?

Not too late to wish Happy New Year...is it?

2 4

2008-12-16T00:00:00.000+08:00

To me...

I'm 24 now, but never felt like it. Hehe. My bad. I don't look like one either. Oh well...

Math Talk

2008-12-11T12:38:00.005+08:00

atulnoor: wani... remainder apa eh ?

me: remainder tuh hmmm...cam peninggalan saki baki

atulnoor: klu dlm math tahu x ?

me: Mathematics. the difference between a function or a number and an approximation to it. heee. Arithmetic. a. the quantity that remains after subtraction. b. the portion of the dividend that is not evenly divisible by the divisor.

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 5 minutes

atulnoor: ish..x pahe la.. hee

me: heee...mskdnye kira baki bile sesuatu ditolak tuh, cam 5-3=2, 2 tuh ada remainder tp yg 2 lagik tuh pon cam xberpa phm...ekeke

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 12 minutes

atulnoor: heee...i pun x paham fening

me: nk wtpe

atulnoor: nk check calculation. jap ni dah tanye n td mod igt x

me: mod tuh no yg terbesar kan antt jujukan no yg ada

atulnoor: n pun kata camtu hee tp mod org ni lain kot...hee...pening ah kt buat query mod(23,5) jwpn die 3...paham x ? hee

me: kat sini dier ckp...no yg dibahagi by 2 given no then bile dier bhg tuh dpt sama baki nye... ekekeke...kena tnya org maths lah

atulnoor: mod returns the remainder of m divided by n m=25 n=5 m=23 bkn 25...phm x?

me: 25/5

atulnoor: heee...hahaha

me: 3 lah kn...eh 5...klu cmtuh 25/5 = 5

atulnoor: 23/5, m=23, n=5 pastu mod(23,5) =3, ktrgnn di die mod returns the remainder of m divided by n

me: ok2 cmni, btol lah mod 3, kan kite bhgn 23/5 kan, ptot nye 4. something tp kan 5 x 4 = 20 23-20 = 3 3 tuh mod lh kena lukis lah... hahaha. Phm x neh? 5 x 4 tuh closest tu 23 phm x neh?

me: slh keterangan 3 tuh ada remainder hasil dr mod (23,5) phm?

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atulnoor: dl kt ade blaja ke ni ms blaja math cam x leh recall lah huu

me: blaja kan huhu

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atulnoor: heee x leh recall tgh berserabut ni heee

me: yg td wani cerita tuh xphm lah? alaa...da lukis tp xleh send lak

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atulnoor: haha emel leh x bg kat cni

me: hihi ok

atulnoor: ~~sahidattul@tellowpages.com.my~~ yellow bkn t hik2 silap ~~sahidattul@yellowpages.com.my~~ bg dua2 la gmail skali thnks a lot

me: ok

atulnoor: hee

me: tp buruks lah sbb pkai paint kan ekekek

atulnoor: heee x pela

me: ok da send

atulnoor: x smpt la nak skodeng2 kat tenet ok thanks

me: :)

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atulnoor: hahahah wani biar betik cam budak tadika je ekekeke

me: hahahah...tp btol kan penerangan tuh heeee

atulnoor: hahahah... phm2 hik2 klako2

me: hehehhe... sbb xreti nak tulis pkai mouse ekekek

This is what I drew in order for atul to understand...ekekeke...do u guys understand Mod and Remainder now? Hehe

Hi, I'm Ariel

2008-12-03T19:06:00.003+08:00

Headstrong and fiesty. You have a mind of your own that's full of romantic dreams about the world around you. Exploring exotic places is your ultimate dream, and although you can be a little naive you'll realize that there is something to be gained from your family's wisdom.

Yip, I am.

Which Disney Princess Are You?

May 23, 2004

2008-12-02T15:52:00.005+08:00

I was cleaning out my inbox since I had to wait like forever for this to run and I came across this particular email from a very dear friend of mine...

Date: 23 May 2004
From: wordsmithleo@hotmail.com

assalamualaikum...

wei wani...ko mmg amek lesen motor skali ngan kete ke... wah wah... lawan tokeh nmpk...aku mana ader pakwe baru...pakwe lama pon takder...ko buat lawak ker...siapa la nk kt aku nih...lagipun mmg malang saper yg dpt aku...hehehe...drop dat.....
aku mmg tgh terpikir psl ko tadi...terasa nk tanya amacam ko ngan dier... aku agak2 cam ok cos ko senyap jer... tak sangka tengah bernanah lagi...(power tak ayat aku?)...sesungguhnya part last email ko tu mmg mengharukan ulu hati aku...ko tau after aku baca email ko terus aku buka winamp dgr lagu my immortal(rock version) ngan evribody's fool(adik aku m'download-menghabihkan duit mak bapak...hehehe cam aku skang)... ...yelah nk tau gak aper yg menyayat jantung ko...aku bkan tau sgt psl korang w/pun ko pnah story kt aku...after aku dgr tuh, br aku dpt hint sket ar...maksud aku...ko mmg giler emosi lah nih sampai msk dlm lagu...sampai terheret aku skali...hehehe...wani, time cam gini, tak yah la dgr lagu cam gini...buat bengkak jer...sbnrnya aku pun tak der pengalaman frust cintan al maklum lah tak nah btol2 fall inlove...ntah2 if dh experience nnti, tunggang terbalik dunia...

aku xtau nk ckp cam ner... ko kt ko tgh konfius kan...cos apa yg dier dh buat kat ko... aku rs masa jer yg boleh menyelesaikan masalah ko nie...(but if ko dlm dilema saama ada ko nk lagi kat dier, tu lain citer plak kot)...lama2 ko akan luper semua ni... maksud aku, maybe you wont get over dis thing but you'll get used to it....if u know wat i mean...maybe biler dah naik sem, dh cbuk, ko tak pk sgt psl dier kan...skang nih, time cuti...padan la asyik pk mende2 tuh...adik aku pinjam dvd winter sonata mem dier...best... aku pon tgh melayan blues ngan adik n mak aku skali... satu family tgk, tak tahan...(ayah aku outstation seminggu, g chini, pahang)...dulu aku miss tgk part awal... aku bkn galakkan ko tgk... kang emosi berlebihan plak nanti...=)aku plak yg bersalah...terkejut gak aku tang ko ckp cam leopard tuh... ko biar tol wani... tol ker cos pk mende2 tu, leh jadi teruk cam tu...

sbnrnya maybe if aku kt tmpat ko pun, maybe aku ter percaya gak kat laki tak guna tuh... maklum je lah... long distance relationship nih mmg payah sket...tambah2 tak nah jumpa... maybe next time ko kena becareful ngan relationship cam nih... laki ni mmg susah sket...dah la makin pupus... nk dapat yg baik tu lagi ar payah...tol x? hehe...

kelmarin aku mimpi psl ko...sbnrnya mimpi jumpa kwn2 kat sek. rendah n bebdk2 matrik... tetiba aku t'nmpk ko sorang2 tgh order kt kaunter mc donald...ko tau tak... ko x pakai tudung... rambut ko pjg -hampir pinggang, siap buat curls cam dalam iklan pantene hijau tu,(byk tgk tv sampai bw dlm mimpi)...terkesima aku...aku tinggal kwn2 aku yg lain...cos nk tegur ko...nk tanya naper ko buka tudung...bila aku tanya, ko kata cam ni- sumthing bout penyakit ko- dh b'nanah- so kena buka tudung..."tiba2 aku terjaga dr tidur"...nasib baik bkn real...cos dlm mimpi ko cam serius nk mampus...air muka ko pun serius...tapi lua mimpi aku tau ko takkan bukak tudung kan...giler sial punye mimpi...takkan kulupakan...dulu aku mimpi nangih2 n b'pelukan ngan sorang kwn aku kat asasi...rupe2nya bila aku call dier, dia kata mmg dier nangis sepanjang minggu cos fail sume paper medic(dier kt hukm ngan primus)...member aku ni scorer but xtau naper leh jadi cam tuh(mcm ader masalah ngan pakwe)...tak taulah citer sebenar... hrp 2 ko tak fail paper dsebabkan lelaki tak guna ni in the future k...

sorry ar aku citer byk sangat...aku ni bkn pakar bab2 ni...harap leh sooth the pain...lets just time decides ok...
okla bubbye...take care...
chow...

I can't help laughing...hahaha...seriously...

P.S I had a boyfriend? Hahaha

No worries

2008-12-02T12:16:00.001+08:00

Oh well, I didn't make the cut. I might as well start to fall in love with my job again. *Sigh*. Anyhow it's not the end of the world, so I guess there's lot of hidden opportunities out there waiting to be discover. Just got to discover it patiently. To drain away all the misery (yeah, I'm kinda frustrated OK), I was thinking of doing something fabulous in life. Like...hmmmm...which I don't really know what.

Thinking...
thinking...
Hah...YES...
Got it...

I want to take up Japanese class. Sounds great eh? Or maybe French class. Totally wicked. I've got 'teachers' online just got to find the time to mingle with them. At least I'll be looking forward for something like this each week. Or if it didn't go the way that I wanted it to be, I want to start up my hobby again. Drawing. Ah yes. Experimenting with pencils, learn new techniques and scribbling my sketch pads. I've always loved it. In fact there's so much that I want to do in life, I just don't know whether if I have the time for it. I let Allah decides then. InsyaAllah, things will work out.

Life may be dull, but you can still color it. It is never a dull moment.

Momhood

2008-11-23T23:49:00.005+08:00

Last Saturday, I went out for lunch at Mines. While waiting for mom to pray, I laid my bottom on a bench near the corridor. People were passing by in and out of the toilet. I scrutinized
every one that passes me by. From bizarre outfits they were wearing to pretty shoes they had on, I comment every detail inside my brain as though I was talking to someone.

After about 10 minutes sitting there particularly doing nothing, a Chinese mom came to sit on the benches with her son in the stroller. I watched her from afar. We were separated by a bench. I was awe-strucked (is that even a word?) with how she handled her toddler. He was weeping and crying slowly which I have no idea why. The mom took out some stuff from the basket in the stroller. I saw her took out a flask and a bowl. Right, the kid is hungry. She managed to mix baby food if I'm not mistaken and fed her son. She patiently fed him spoon by spoon and he opened his mouth like a hungry bird waiting his mom to put food in his mouth. He's so cute. He looks like a shoalin baby with his bald head. Adorable. While watching the mom-feeding-her-kid-scene, it occurred to me, being a mom is one tough job.

I'm really amazed of what these moms had gone through life to raise us kids. From the day she got the big news to the day she brought us to the world, to the day we learned our ABCs and stumbled in our attempts to walk and so many other things. What really touches me is how she has gone through such torments in bringing us to the world. Yesterday I went to visit an old colleague, Kak syu dear, who just gave birth 6 days ago. She told her side of her story. Every bits. To hear her stories, made me have a second thoughts of being a mom. Really, it freaks me out. Big time.

First thing first, I don't have that mom material and I'm sure most of you people out there would agree. Second, I don't know if I'm capable of being a mom. Having to deal with babies, toddlers, kids, gosh, I sucked at it. I can't even handle my 4 and 6 years old cousins. Not with a calm attitude. Only to have me gone bonkers. Truth be told. I can't stand them. Really. They're little devils but cute ones though. Dealing with them is no easy task. Really challenging and it gives me an insight of what mom hood is like. Definitely not easy.

Me and my mom doesn't have that cool bond between us like Lorelai and Rory. We have different views and opinions, always bickering with one another, yet at the end of the day, she is still my mom till the end. Even though I give her hell most of my life, I love her even if I might not say it. I've always been nonchalant about my feelings. I'm not the type who spills everything to her parents especially it if involves tears. Hehe. I xreti OK. I will try my best to be a good daughter. InsyaAllah. Mom bear with me ok.

A mother is everything in our life. She would sacrifice herself for her children, spends her money to buy clothes even though she can't afford it and try to fulfill her children's need even if they give her a hard time. Maybe I would do the same under what circumstances I might go through. Everyone has that mother instincts. Right? Still, I can't picture myself being a mom. Can you?

New things on the shelf

2008-11-11T00:07:00.004+08:00

Got these on Saturday. So excited indeed. They are still wrapped very nicely. Cam sayang nak bukak. Leh x? *Giggles* But I don't know which ones to read first. Tee heee....

Wallflower

2008-11-07T12:17:00.000+08:00

I came acrossed the word Wallflower in CLEO November issues yesterday under the article 'Which high school student were you?'

I've only heard of

Sunflower
Moonflower
Flower flower

But...

Wallflower???

=/

America Voted

2008-11-06T00:11:00.005+08:00

"I know you didn't do this just to win an election and I know you didn't do it for me. You did it because you understand the enormity of the task that lies ahead. For even as we celebrate tonight, we know the challenges that tomorrow will bring are the greatest of our lifetime - two wars, a planet in peril, the worst financial crisis in a century."

A part of Obama speech, a look of a very humble man whom I've known little of concerning his background, but I do know he was running for presidency. I was never a fan of politics, Democratic, Republican and everything that goes with it but after today, I was inspired and overwhelmed. I never experienced something like this my whole entire life even though I'm merely a citizen of the United States. What I witnessed today was mesmerizing.

I only got to experienced this through the screen of my bulky TV turning on CNN, BBC and Al-Jazeera back and forth which I seldom do. I certainly can feel the joy and spirits the Americans are feeling. As I glued myself to the television, I can't help myself but giving full concentration on Obama as he gives his acceptance speech. The message he sent out was captivating. I listened to every word and almost came to tears. Almost. Each sentences that came out of his mouth is so meaningful, so powerful and so sincere.

Obama scored votes a lot from the Black, Hispanic and the young generation and those who's wanting a change towards something better in the future. He brings hope in all of us by bringing all of us together no matter the age, sex, skin color and race. He's not only hoping to change America but also the world. He has made history by becoming the first Black President ever. Something to be proud of. He represent each and everyone of us whether you are African, Asian, Native America and he's there to represent us.

I see him as the next Malcolm X. A role model we should look up to despite what the world is going through. Still, he has a long journey ahead. Full of trials and tribulations. Let this be an inspiration for us all. A mark for a change. Change has come to America and change will come to us. May Allah guide him like He guided people before him and that the world can come to a peace. God bless America. God bless us all.

Today marks the history of the United States. I wonder, when will Malaysia experience something like this? =\

Skinny is talking politics ;-)

Glad that's over

2008-11-03T00:30:00.001+08:00

My my my...what a week. I just got back home from off site visit in Bangi. It wasn't that bad as I thought. Thanks for my office buddies who were around helping me out. In fact it was rather interesting really. Meeting with new people. Users to be exact. All from different location and different looks. Of course, they are definitely senior by age but they were a cool bunch. As I thought. Yeah, it wasn't that bad.

The accommodation was great. The apartment we stayed in was way beyond my expectation although we were warned that the place was somewhat 'keras' but Alhamdulillah none of us got hurt. We were too tired to bother about it. We did remember about what our old colleague told us about their 'incident' there. I tried not to think about it even though it slipped through my mind before going to bed, but because we were too exhausted, we slept peacefully unaware of what was going on around. Except that one night, Ann was disturbed by me talking in my sleep. Hehe. How embarrassing! By the way, nothing creepy happened. Thank goodness.

The food, not bad either. I had a plateful of food all the time. Shoveling it down my guts. Overall, it's something I'm looking forward to do in the future. I mean going off-site which will gives us an opportunity to meet the world. Still, I dread going to work.

I'm wiped and I'm hitting the sheets even though my bed is sheet-less. I didn't have the time to do my bed since I was busy outside. Huh. Alasan.

The Moment of Truth

2008-10-22T23:52:00.001+08:00

Would you spill your personal details, dirty little secrets, confessions etc etc on national TV for half of million dollars?

Mark Warlberg: Do you have a crush on your male colleagues?

Skinny: Hell No

Mark Warlberg: Are you sure? There's no turning back.

Skinny: Positive. 100%.

Mark Warlberg: Here it goes, the moment of truth and your way to winning 25 grand.

The answer is...

....

....

....

FALSE!

Skinny: Whattttt? That machine is lying.

What kind of reality show is this?

See, I can't even get to the second question.

Watch it on Star World Channel 711 every Wednesday at 10pm ;-)

The new me...soon...hopefully

2008-10-19T23:25:00.000+08:00

It's not even new years yet, but I'm jotting down my to-do-list or specifically, my new resolution. Actually, it's not new, it has always been on my list before. This time, I'm determine. I'm determine to gain weight. Not just that, I want to start living healthy. Leh percaya ke neh? Yes, I need this. I'm always complaining, people always complaining of how absolutely thin I am and I'm done listening to it. So I'm gonna do something about it. For good. I want to look like a babe. You know, babe. Haha. well, I don't have to be a total knockout, fine will just do. At least I'll fit perfectly well in my clothes rather than having them loose all about. Still, tight clothing isn't an option.

First thing I have to do is stop being lazy. Yes, this is my ultimate sin. Ever since I was born I guess. Who to blame? Being definitely lazy won't get me anyway. Right? First step to achieve this is, I have to wake up really early in the morning. Like at 6.30am. Haha. Well, I can't make resolution if I'm not opt for it, can I? Waking up early is the first thing, next I MUST NOT sleep after subuh. Lame huh, but I can'ttttttttt help it. I love the feeling of being in bed in the morning. Who wouldn't? ;-) Still, I'm not sure if 'm qualified to be call a grown up, because I feel like 17, but at 24, I should start to act like one. =D

Second, I have to diet. Whoaaaa, I'll be insane if I go on a diet. I meant, eating properly with proper food and eating at a proper time. My eating habits these days is way out of hands. I tend to have breakfast late and having lunch like 4 hours later then have dinner way late at night. Around 10pm sometimes. Not good. As they say that food finish processing the guts every 4 hours. My stomach for sure will be crying for food in between lunch and dinner. So yeah, I have to fix my eating habits. Plus, making sure I eat in balance. Taking fruits and a lot of veggies. I was thinking of living the way like white people does. Salad, roast chicken, foods doesn't involve using too much oil, you know, English stuff. Like I can live with that. Haha. Still, I have to eat rice. Without rice, I'll shiver like a junkie who need his drugs. Imagine that!

Third, exercise. Ooohh, how I hate exercise so much. I always thought that skinny people don't need to exercise. You don't have the fat to excess off. Whats the point? You will end up being more skinny. I was indeed wrong. Exercise helps you gain your stamina. Good stamina gives good impression. Of course I'm thankful for this skinny frame, but if being skinny and people think you are an anorexic freak, its not really that pleasant. So that's why I have to re-shape my whole self. In and out. Do workouts daily like sits up, squats or whatever exercise available that I can do, at least for 5 mins, will do. Build the muscle, strengthen the heart and feeling good about it. I so have to get myself an exercise mat. =D

Lastly, think positive and stick to the plan. When there's a will, there's always a way. I'm trying to project good thoughts in my brain these days to stimulate it. Everything is possible if you believe in it. Well this is my mission. I better work it otherwise I'll just end up a big loser around. It's almost 11.30pm. I better hit the sheets then. Sleeping early is a must do too. Getting enuf sleep is essential. ;-) Wish me luck you guys so that I don't screw up. =D

I need a Shoulder to Lean on

2008-10-17T00:48:00.000+08:00

Most times I’m the most strong I’m the rock the spot you get support from
Mostly cope with hopes that’s been rolled on
And when you’re low you know that you can hold on me
In a heartbeat I can be there the fears and tears you cry I’m by your side so dry your eyes
And let me provide peace of mind in time I know you’ll be fine
And if it’s heartbreak I can take some off your plate replace the lies and hate with smiles of faith
You fall deep I could fall with you. The dark is a familiar place you’re lost I can help you escape
It was my fate (pain) so that I can relate
Now when I can’t even stand I can handle the weight
I’ll be your shoulder for as long as I can but where’s the shoulder for my shoulder when I can’t

I will be the one you can count on the most
When the road is dark you know I’ll bare the load
You never see the days when I fall down to my knees
None of you will know that sometimes I need a shoulder to lean on

Sometimes it’s really hard to be this invincible figure you figure me to be
Cause I can feel the pain and when I’m cut I bleed mostly inside but lord knows I cry
I don’t lie I just keep it bottled inside I meet your eyes with a smile and you think I’m lion but I’m alive cause I can feel like you can feel with emotions still though it don’t show it’s real.
Conceal when my heart cries fall apart in the dark at the spot where my thoughts lie
I thought I was as strong as they come, I thought I was numb my thoughts send my heart over run as I wonder
Can I make it through and is the one coming soon that’s gonna hold me console me
Or was this something meant to be and a shoulder for a shoulder wasn’t meant for me

I will be the one you can count on the most
When the road is dark you know I’ll bare the load
You never see the days when I fall down to my knees
None of you will know that sometimes I need a shoulder to lean on

The Sound of Reason

Salam Eid Mubarak

2008-10-07T00:48:00.000+08:00

Raya this year... a blissful moment, so I claimed. It wasn't terrific like in the past years. It was more of an OK. Just plain OK. Nothing fabulous. Still, I had a good time with my cousins during raya. I don't have much to tell. My mind's bogging me and I just don't have any feelings of what-so-ever. Maybe I'm feeling lonely at home with no one to nag to since all of my siblings left for class *sigh*. 5 days off from work is not enough. I just started my holiday and all of the sudden its the end of it. *Sigh* I'm still in my holiday mood and I think everyone is. Anyhow I'm not letting that get in my way of having a great time.

hhhhmmm...

err...

mmmmm...

Frankly speaking, I'm a little uninspired right now. Can't think of what to write even though there's plenty.BTW, I never got the chance to wish you guys. Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir & Batin. Hope that the last Ramadhan won't be our last. InsyaAllah. Let me get this clutter out of my head and will write something better than this. Hopefully.

Inspired by Lat's Cartoon =)

Confessions of a Shopaholic

2008-09-19T15:19:00.000+08:00

OMG, Becky Bloomwood is coming to theatre soon. I have no idea that they are making a flick on this eye-catchy, glamorous novel by Sophie Kinsella. I've only read Shopaholic and Sister and it's totally hilarious. Isla Fisher plays Becky whom I've known in Definitely Maybe playing along side Ryan Renolds. You guys should catch it. It's totally adorable. My sister made me watch it so I'm making you guys. Hmmm, Hugh Dancy will be playing Luke Brandon. The husband-to-be. He starred in Ella Enchanted playing as Char, the Prince. Weird name huh? Anyhow, I'm thrilled and I can't wait to see Becky Bloomwood in action.

Rantings

2008-09-18T17:26:00.000+08:00

Hi. It's quarter past 3 and I can't put my mind to work. 2 more hours to go and I'll be heading straight home like always. Today seems like crap. Well actually most of my days are crap. Work is crap really. I know I should be more patience and just deal with it like an adult,
but the thing is I'm tired. It's like I'm coming to an end where all I want to do is nothing. N.O.T.H.I.N.G. Well in that case I rather be stone. All rock stiff. Doing nothing. Doing nothing ain't getting me nowhere. Duh! Anyway just hear me rant.

I've just learned that one of my colleagues is leaving us...soon. Following the footsteps of many before her. That must be a relief for her to be getting out of this rut. If only I could get out of here sooner not later, I would, but my folks won't allow me. Not unless I secured a job somewhere else. Yeah, I know they are concerned and they have every right to express their worries, but I'm 24 now. Isn't it time for me to make my own decision? To ease that up, I always tell myself, parents know best. I hope they do in my case.

It's always the same for me and I'm sure for everyone else. Waking up in the morning which I dread the most and coming to office, turning on the notebook and continuing yesterdays work which never seems to finish, coming home and repeating it all over again. What can be more boring than that? Maybe this is work. I have to get that through my skull. If I gone out soon, maybe I'll have to deal with bigger new problems. Maybe much worse. Crap. I hate the thought of that. What if new colleagues or new user or new work at new workplace is 10 times more terrible than what I'm dealing with? Who knows what the future holds. Human beings are complicated. So complicated indeed. That's a fact.

All I know now is that I'm thirsty for something new, something which I like to do every time I get out of bed every morning, which I love doing over and over again, something that grabs my heart. Still, life ain't easy. It never was, it never is, it never will be. I believe that when you go through an ordeal that can turn your world upside down, that time teaches us to be more appreciative of what life had offered us. Allah knows best. Just believe in Him totally.

Here's a beautiful quote I've found on the net.

"When God leads you to a cliff,Trust Him fully;

Only one of the two things will happen:

Either He will catch you when you fall Or teach you how to fly"

A little tazkirah for the day...hehe!

Haritu or Hantu?

2008-09-04T01:04:00.000+08:00

Me: Aku nak pakai pensil ko xde dakwat plak (pensil fabel caster berwarna purple).
N: Aah.
Me: Nak pakai yang ni lak tapi ko kata xde dakwat.
--(sambil tuh ann amek pensil tersebut and petik) *xberpa ingat situasi*--
N: Eh ada lah *clicking the pencil* Ntah2 haritu x isik?
Me: Ada ke hantu ?
N: Ade...
Me: Hah? Ada ke hantu bulan pose??? *blur*
N: Hahahaha...
Me: Hahahahaha...
N: Aku cakap haritu tapi aku ingat ko cakap haritu.
Me: Aku dengar hantu, aku ingat ko cakap hantu.

Either I'm totally deaf or we both are. Hahaha...

This dialog is not that accurate due to some memory loss =D

3 days and counting

2008-09-04T00:50:00.000+08:00

Ramadhan this year is pretty much the same. Well, not really. First of all, traffic jam from Putrajaya to Kajang sucks big time. I have not gone through such traffic jam since the last time I remembered. It has been only two days of fasting and the traffic is bad. Really, really bad. Imagine after all this time working in Putrajaya, you don't get much cars around. It will only take me approximately 30 mins to arrive home with the speed of 80kmph so and so. Suddenly I have to hit the break more often for every meters. You do the math. Since oil price is way expensive and not forgetting that I am driving my dads' Volvo 970 (Big car means big gas). So if I'm in a stream of vehicles, it won't do much help. Plus I'm getting cramps around my hips, my spine and my knee which is not good due to my P.

The breaking of fast this year to me is not as merrier as before. We have indulged ourselves for less and simple foods to avoid waste. I have not hit any bazaar yet because I don't see the necessary to do so since I have my mom. Hee. Maybe my appetite these days is not big as before. I used to eat like a pig you know. This year, I want to follow the sunnah of the Prophet SAW by stop eating before you go full. Konon. I don't know. Seem to be losing appetite these days. Is that some sort of a sign? Ke sebab da keciwa nak tambah berat badan tapi xtertambah-tambah pon. Hmmm...

Tarawikh. I don't know about you, but I think that tarawikh this year is so quick that I don't have time to feel sleepy. Not that I'm complaining of how fast its going, but yeah its fast. During my teeny years, going to tarawikh felt like miles away. Always getting lost of what rakaah we were on even though we only performed 8! These 4 days of performing tarawikh, happened so fast. Maybe its the Imam or maybe I got too lost in my mind during prayers. There's a saying that goes, if you felt time was running fast, there is something wrong with our Iman. Those who are pious will only see time at a normal pace. Therefore, we have to ask ourselves, are we there yet?

Me? I'm still me. Still all cranky and pretty much the same. I have not changed a bit.
Whatever reasons or whatever happens, hope that this Ramadhan will give us blessings and that we are commit to become a better Muslims in the future. InsyaAllah.

One Step At A Time

2008-09-01T23:48:00.000+08:00

I'm so glad I got it out of my chest. Right now this is what's playing in my head to keep me inspired and keep me going by Jordin Sparks - One Step at a Time

Hurry up and wait
So close, but so far away
Everything that you've always dreamed of
Close enough for you to taste
But you just can't touch

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

[Chorus:]
We live and we learn to take
One step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen and it's
Supposed to happen that we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time

You believe and you doubt
You're confused, you got it all figured out
Everything that you always wished for
Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours
If they only knew

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet
Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it
You know you can if you get the chance
In your face as the door keeps slamming
Now you're feeling more and more frustrated
And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

[Chorus]

When you can't wait any longer
But there's no end in sight
when you need to find the strength
It's the faith that makes you stronger
The only way you get there
Is one step at a time

Where did I got the name Skinny legs?

2008-08-27T16:31:00.000+08:00

No where...

It was destined to be mine. => . It happened to pop up just like that one day which I obviously don't remember. No wait. I do. I was editing my profile in friendster some ages ago and I happened to have a picture of my legs. My profiles before was somewhat uninspired and lack of that cool factor. Haha. I wanted Something different and what was uniquely me. Skinny legs was perfect and it resembles me totally even though there are a lot of skinny legs out there. Haha. Infact there's a restaurant in USA named Skinny Legs. It was discovered by Kak Syu herself. Haha.

So it wasn't totally mine after all but I stuck with it. During that time, I had lots of people viewing my profile. Cam glemer lah kan. Haha. Who is this Skinny legs? Everyone was swaying their way in. Well, almost everyone. Yet, I liked it though. The nick not my leg. I'm not really a fan of my legs. Unless it was Gisele Bunchen like, I'll be a total knockout but sadly I'm not. *Sigh*. I'm thankful. That's basically where I got the nick. Cool eh?

Oh yeah, I had a lot of nicks based on my physical. Papan, tulang, Penyapu, Olive and the list goes on. The best one was given by mom... Kain Buruk. Leh x?

Goodies

2008-08-27T01:15:00.000+08:00

Adek just got back from Jordan last two Saturday (warning: this entry is waaaaay expired...heeee). Boy, it was a long wait. I was counting each and everyday hoping for that day to come as quickly as possible. Yeah, it sure did as time these days are running fast. So fast that you don't have much time to do things. Like updating the blog :P. Anyway, her flight was estimated to arrive around 0930 Malaysian Time. We waited for her at the arrival gate...and waited...and waited some more. Shiishhh, what's taking her so long?

Apparently, she showed up an hour later. I didn't mind waiting because I got to feast my eyes on those foreigners. All delicious looking. *Smugging* Adek showed up looking pretty much the same. Yeah, because we were skype-ing each other now and then, so I didn't see much of a differences in her. Although she did looked a bit different with those braces. Yep, definitely different. She did looked a lil skinny though. Our reunion with her was somewhat unemotional. Yelah, setiap hari dok skype-ing and yahoo-ing je so xde perasaan yang beria-ia sangat. But I was excited.

As always, one goes on a trip, one bring back home goodies. She certainly did. She bought us goodies which you can wear, eat and so on. She bought me these two beautiful jubahs which was neat except the size didn't fit me well the fact that the Arabians are bigger in size. I had to alter it to fit my skinny figure which sometimes can be a challenge. Who says skinny people doesn't have problem with fitting? I obviously have that problem.

Anyway, my sister bought these chocolates which looks like rocks. You know, rocks. The ones you get in the aquarium. Those colorful little rocks. The chocolates looked exactly like them. No kidding. It's really chocolates and delicious too. I brought them to work. My colleagues seems to be astonished and amazed (jakun OK). They were playing with them too. Haha.

Adek bought a lot actually. Not just for my fam, but also for our cousins. The special ones got special things but the not-so-special was not to be left behind. So Adek bought them key-chains which they had their names on them. I got one too, except mine was cool. It too has my named written on it. It was written on spaghetti which means it was small in size. Syazwani Alone what was written on the spaghetti. Adek didn't realized that Alone when she got home. She told the Arabian guy to spell Along, but instead ended up with Alone. OK OK. I know that I am alone, dateless and all, but does it have to be spelled out to tell them that I'm alone? Hahaha. Funny Arab.

Unpacking suitcases can be one exciting and a suspensions moments. It's like opening up a treasure chest that unlocks to precious treasures. In this case, a jubah, chocolates rocks and Syazwani Alone. Still, ~~I enjoyed unpacking her suitcase~~, I enjoyed looking at her unpacking her suitcase. Who wouldn't be? I wonder when it's my turn? Hmmm.....

P.S Yesterday, Atul called me Wanu. Wanu??? Hahaha. Typo OK.

Have you ever...hmmm...

2008-08-14T23:04:00.000+08:00

Lied
Does white lies count as lying? If not then I never lied...tipu! there...I lied :p

Smoked
Oh N000000...never

Broke someone's heart
You cannot break a heart, you can only squish it.

Had your heart broken
Yes...I had my heart squished.

Wish you were a prince/princess
Princess ain't cool...too bossy

Liked someone who was taken
Isam Bachiri...*sigh*...I want him *sigh*

Shaved your head
Why would I want to shave my head?

Been in love
What is love really?

Used chopsticks
Failed

Sang in the mirror to yourself
Er...like 247... :D

Peers at work

2008-08-11T00:48:00.000+08:00

It has been almost two years since I started working. So many things happened in that almost two years. There are those who fled away in search of a better place while others are still hanging on, tight. Despite we are under some major hazard moments, yet we managed to loosen up a little. Just to remember ourselves that it's not the end of the world. Well, I constantly telling myself this all the time.

I have to admit I enjoyed my stay with these folks even though my job is cranky me up big time. There are only 3 who has been the longest people who are staying strong in this project including me ;-). The other two is my seniors. I salute them for holding on for so long. My head is under water right now. Drowning like any moment. Huhu.

There's Kak Ina, fragile and soft. She deals with people as soft as she can even that person is bringing her a hell of a time. She's small in size yet she's big in the brain. Oh yeah. She's the developer in this project. The only developer and she is handling it all by herself. How on earth does she handles that? A person with a lot of patient and I'm so impress she managed to keep it the same tone even when she's mad.

Kak Siti, aggressive and witty. This lady has the stare as though she wanted to swallow you and slit your throat. She can be serious at times where if approaching her can gives you the stir but she's a sport. She blends well with people younger than her and she sure can act as one too. Her signature laugh could be recognize anywhere. A Hindustani die-hard fan, she's definitely fun to hang out with.

Kak Long or Kak Am we refer her to, adorable and opened, she's the eldest. A mother of four and like the mother to us too. Almost. She smiles even during her wits end moment. She talks about anything which makes her approachable and she doesn't mind sharing her flaws. She just joined this project for only 3 months so and so but its like I've known her forever.

The rest is the juniors even though they are all older than me ;-). All with their heads. There's Ann, a perky gal with a perky dressings to match who laughs her stomach out and speaks her mind. Someone who is all about having a good time. Shud, the Kedahrian who has this thick Kedah accent where she expresses her words assertively. Krie who seems a little timid but seems to be enjoying herself...hmmm...I think. Then there's the guy, all beautiful with white fair skin but the moment he opens his mouth....Go figure.

Last but not least, me, the independent chick around. Haha. I'm being boastful. It supposed to be me, the late one arriving to work everyday. Guilty. Above all, this one experience working with them its something I won't get anywhere else. And not forgetting the past people plus those who aren't with the project anymore that I've worked with. Kak shu, Kak Lyn, Atul and a few bunch to be named. All different.

crazy/beautiful

2008-07-29T23:42:00.000+08:00

I'm crazy for him and he's soooooo beautfiful....

Pathethic eh?

This is what happens when you don't have that someone in your life. =D

PS~ Adek...get me one Isam pleassseeeeeee, I'm begging you ... heeee

What is in the inside it not what is on the outside...

2008-07-20T22:28:00.000+08:00

I was working on Saturday. I didn't know why I was so eager to go to work, maybe I wanted to get out of the clot that I've caused last few days. That's not the whole point. Anyway, I went to work with my other two senior staff. It was cloudy and misty in the air that morning but it wasn't raining heavily, so I thought it was not going to be such a sun-tastic day.

We are working in a closed spaced room with no view of what so ever. It's like you're in a cell except its bigger and brighter and has no bars. Its just an idea of what our environment was like. Therefore, we have no inkling of what is going on outside especially when it comes to the weather. Besides it doesn't really matter if it were to rain or to be crispy hot outside, we were stuck inside frozen stiff. Picture Alaska.

That afternoon, the air-conditioner was somewhat cold and the air that was coming out from that what-you-call-it, cerobong? was loud as though it was raining cats and dogs outside. Kak long said..."Yep, hujan. Lebat kat luar tuh" she said with a serious tone based on the sound and that it was shivering cold. I was hmmm...didn't want to believe because I know that it has nothing to do with it. Unless we were at the very top and the rain hits the roof top, that, I might buy.
"Tadi masa akak datang tuh pon da hujan" she continued. OK. I bought that.

Kak Long husband rang her to see whether she has finished what she was doing.
"Da boleh amek ke?"
"Tak boleh tubik lagi neh. Huje lebatt kat luaer neh"
*I don't know how to translate kelantanese here*
Her husband was at Alamanda, so he thought it was what she claimed.
10 minutes later
"Ibu, da nak sampai da neh" as I heard he daughter at the other end of the line.
"Ibu tak boleh keluar lagi neh. Hujan lebat lagi neh"
"Hah? Hujan???" continued her daughter and it was cut off. Mungkin dia keheranan.
"Korang macam mana? Nak akak amek payung ke pinjam?" she asked.
"Takpe. Kiteorang parking xlah jauh sangat"
"OK, kalau camtu akak balik dulu" And she whisked away.

We followed behind 5 minutes later. To our surprised it was not raining at all. It was hot as ever and the sky was clear. "Eh, hujan lebat ke tadi?" Kak Siti exclaimed.
Then Kak Long words of exclamation of it was raining heavy came to mind. You guys should see her face when she was telling her husband that it was raining...lawak lawak.

The Rahmans in my life

2008-07-16T19:13:00.001+08:00

AT 3 points of my life, i have met with 3 different types of Rahman. The first encounter was during my internship year at Sapura Defence near Wangsa Maju. He was assigned to be my supervisor. There he was all polish with a blue black blazer. A look of a nice and a religious middle aged man. I have to admit, he didn't look that bad. To be honest he was handsome for his age even though he was bald.

Do not be fooled by his charming looks. First impression doesn't always last. He had history to have had high fantasies of women. Hmm, he was fond of a sensual relationship on every women he came across with. Including me. Now, for the record I was a teenage girl who has no sixth sense. Well a young adult still in her teenage body to be precise. I have no idea what he was doing. Don't go there yet, OK. He started sms'es me one late nite asking about what I was doing. Hold on, what on earth was my supervisor doing at that hour of time texting me? Hmm, I was a little suspicious but I kept good thoughts. Maybe he just wanted to say Hi. OK. Done.

I kept receiving messages more often during late nights. Wait a minute, isn't this guy married? Doesn't he plays with his wife? Huhu. I was just being nice. He was outstation one day when he told me he was at a bar. At a bar? He was asking me things which was weird. What the...? I tried ending the conversation by saying that it was late and he ended up saying "Goodnite Honey" What the.....???????

I was uncomfortable. I had to tell someone. Luckily Kak Nurul was available. A senior staff there. She went "You too huh?" What the...??? It seems like I wasn't the only one. Kak Nurul told me everything. She was always "harassed" by him but in a friendly kinda manner. He is always sending horny messages to Kak Nurul. Since Kak Nurul is married he couldn't please his way in. Duh! Which makes me a good victim. Good thing I discovered his filthy habits before he can do any damage. After I finished my practical, I thought that was it but he kept texting me but I gave him a clear message that got him sent away. The funny thing that bothers me till now is, orang cam haku pon dia nak kaco yang masa tuh kampung gile. That was Rahman number 1.

The next Rahman I met was during my training at Cosmopoint two years back. Actually I've known this Rahman in UKM, but I only knew how he looked. Not his name. We were closed during our training. I had a little crush on him. He does look sweet and nice and charming. It was just a crush for I know he was soooooo in love with his x-girlfriend. Girlfriend back then. Ex-girlfriend - present. I always picked on him the fact he was a quiet guy. You know, those average Joe kinda like. He was sooo in love and little did I know he fancied me. That started to spilled after we finished our course.

It was one night he called me all of the sudden, twice. His girlfriend was caught in the act. Too dramatic. He caught his girlfriend with some other guy. He didn't know where to go so he seek me for some therapy session. Bajet aku ni shrink lah. After some therapy session, we did message quite a bit. We were very closed. Messaging each other day and night. As though we were best friends.

It wasn't at month yet the day he broke up with his ex, he confessed, he liked me. He said he liked me since we were studying together. Hold on, he had feelings for me when he was soooo in love with his ex??? Yeah I was flattered, but come on. How can you do that? This is so lame. I just could not handle this type of people. So I stepped out little by little. Beside, I didn't fancied him that much. He wasn't my type. The type who always clinged to a girl. Lame. End of Rahman number 2.

Now, I'm dealing with the third Rahman in my life. This one is beyond annoying than the word annoying itself. This Rahman is a client for our company project. I just can't stand him the fact that he's so obnoxious, self-absorb and God knows what else. With his tussle hair and the way he speaks, I feel like getting him back like the way he did to us. Who does he thinks he is??? He is constantly throwing rude remarks at us in his most disturbing tone ever. I think I have to forgive him someday the fact that he's old. Maybe his system is turning off slowly. Maybe that explains why he's soooo sarcastic in the first place. I hope I don't run by one of these Rahman or one of these people for better.

Every where I go, I seem to be bumping into Rahman. These so popular names are every where. But above all, it belongs to Allah. One of His name. The Most Merciful. I hope the next time I bump into a Rahman, he resemble the meaning of a Rahman.

I hate pink even more

2008-07-13T14:14:00.000+08:00

The sight of the colour pink from head to toe and not forgetting the bag, is a big NO-NO for me. It sores the eyes badly, well me eyes. It's candy floss pink from top to bottom. Eeeeuwww. My eyes can still handle smokey pink even though it's PINK. I just can't stand such sightings. I wonder how on earth did she managed to pull that?

Pink tudung, pink T, pink skirt, pink bag???

*Brow raised*

Damn...my retainer is pink...

Tagged

2008-07-10T19:27:00.000+08:00

I've been tagged for the very first time eventhough I don't exactly know how it goes. I only know tag on the playground. Hehe. Here it goes...

1 minit yang lalu, apa anda buat.
On what to write here :P

1 hari yang lalu, apa anda buat.
Went to work, work, work, chatting, work some more, got home from work, lay down in bed, maghrib lambat, lay down somemore in my telekung, performed Isyak, went to nite market and sat in front of the tv.

1 hari lagi apa anda akan buat.
Maybe the same thing like I did a day before except there won't be a pasar malam.

1 orang yang terakhir menelefon kamu.
Caq called me 4 in the morning to help her with her public speaking topic. Ozone layers. And I couldn't sleep after that coz teringat my friend told me that ghost are active during that time. Leh x?

1 makanan yang baru dibeli.
I bought a banana muffin from a friend at work times 3...so it wasn't one and I'm not answering the question :D

1 barang yang baru hilang.
I will know when it is missing. :P

1 cerita yang baru ditonton.
Prison break Season 3. It's so last season so it's not new.

1 hal terakhir yang digossipkan.
With my office mate about another office mate. Evil!

1 kata yang ingin diluahkan.
"Can you please stop staring? It's really annoying."

1 buku yang sudah dibaca.
Shopaholic and Sister. Hmm, can't remember. But it took me 4 months to finish it. But its the very 1st book I managed to finish since 4 years :D

1 penyakit yang sering datang.
Constipation + laziness.

1 keinginan.
To visit Tokyo, Jordan, and New York. InsyaAllah.

Thanks to kak shu, I have to tag someone...TAG...your it...ANN + FADH + WAN!!!! (ntah bile mereka2 neh nak bukak blog gue)

My shoes don't fit!

2008-07-09T13:07:00.000+08:00

I hate buying shoes. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE SHOESSS so much. Doesn't my page tells it all? ;-) The thing is, I always end up buying the wrong ones in terms of the size. I'm always confused if I'm a size 5 or a size 6.

Last Friday, I bought this one Amanda flats from this one fancy shoe store which I seldom entered before (sbbnye kedai class gitu), I spotted it on top of a rack and fell in love with it completely. Just my taste and just perfect. It's black and looks like my every other shoes. Boring.

Anyhow I just got to have it regardless how much it cost. Yeah, it did cost me RMXXX. I'd never bought something that pricey in my life just for a pair of shoes. I was determined to buy it though. So I couldn't care less of how much it cost, I just got to have and I did. I tried the display shoes on and it did fit well but it was a size 6. Then I remembered that I used to buy a 6 size shoes and end up having it
slipping out of my feet constantly caused it became loose. I asked for a size 5. It was tight at the front but it did fit in well. I was excited when I bought them until...

I wore them on Saturday and I was soooooo unhappy. I was whining all day to my sister (I'm so bless to have her). Despite I was whining, she listened and told me to relax. "The shoes will soon fit well later on" says caq. But oh no, I just have to brag about my pain. "Caq pon biasa je macam tuh, lagi lah kasut boot" she continued. Ok. I took it maturely (tipu!) and stop complaining even though my foot was crying in pain.

Still I wasn't satisfied the fact that I bought it for RMxxx, it will be a waste if it is not used. So I went googling like always and came across a few tips on how to enlarge shoes. Hmmm. The first was to get a shoe stretcher which I don't know where to get them and it might cost me some more. So scribble the first tip out. Finally I found a few tips done in a conventional way. It says to mould your shoe with water by putting groceries bag in your shoes and pour water in it. Then let it freeze in the freezer. As it turns to ice, it will hopefully to enlarge it. Cool eh? And I tried it. It sort of works.

Of course, I still have to stand the scrutinizing pain of the flats. Plus it makes a loud squeaky sound as I walk in it. Sounds like a cricket. My friends at work told me I was like the transformer and that if I came they know its me. Oh wait, was it I'm lost. Anyway, I just have to abide with it for the rest of my life. Well, before I find a new soles mate. ;-)

Lame guys

2008-06-23T00:02:00.000+08:00

I'm always the place where people goes to splur out their broken feelings, to be more specific, the male species. I hate that, eventhough of course I will say something calm to soothe their claimed wounded hearts and wat-so-ever. Huhu. The annoying part was that in the beginning they told you how they fell about you and suddenly brought up their stories about how they are hurt by their exes or being ignored by the person they loved since 12???? What am I? A Shrink...? Huhu. Good thing I didn't mustered my feelings for them otherwise I don't know how to handle it. I'm not a rebound gurl. If he wants me, he has to be in love with me. Not a place to heal his broken hearts. Lame~

Ramblings

2008-06-18T00:39:00.000+08:00

I feel tense in the air. Don't you? My past entry is somewhat emotional. Excuse me though. Just got to get it out of my chest. I'll come around. Hmm, I've got tons to share, but really I'm out of ideas. Hehe. How can you have tons to share but running out of ideas at the same time? X logik langsung!

My life these days is OK I guess. Not much of a thing. Not that bad, not that good either. Yeah, I've been pretty down lately but I'm alrite. I hope so. It's not that big a deal. Enuf of this sappy moment will you Skinny. Hehe.

Right now, I'm listening to Always be my Baby sang by David Cook. Man, he's sooooooo SEXY. I'm captivated by his amazing voice. He looks cute too. My type of guy. Hehe. I'm touched by the lyrics. You hoping for things to be exactly you wanted it but yeah, people change. This song is conveying that situation. I think I can relate to it. My play list consists of slow rhythm songs. I got the blues. ;-)

Last night I had a dream. Super funny dream. Normally I'm the superhero in all of it. Even though I don't posses super quality powers in all my heroic action. Like I always fall when I fly, but I did managed to save the day. Hehe. Last night dream I get to be the victim. Hmmm, not the write word. Heroin? Hahaha. Too expressive. Let's just say I wasn't playing the lead role.

There was Superman. Funny thing was, it was me saving the Superman, not Superman saving me. Haha. Tadi kata x save dunia for the day, pe cite lak neh? Hehe. Ok ok. Superman was weak. He was wrapped in some sheet from out of nowhere. I can't remember the detail but I was helping him to his feet. Maybe he was krypton-ite. Sebab tuh lah kot.

Then we were attacked by some giants Cats and Dogs. Haha. There was no monster. Weird. Usually I'm fighting those squid like monster in my dream, but this time Cats and Dogs. Aneh2 je mimpi. All of the sudden, Superman turned into a cat. Bengong ke hape mimpi neh? Haha. We were grasping of where about is Superman. I was disappointed because he just left like that. A cat. Later on, Superman came. But he didn't came to rescue us but he took me away. Only me. Hahaha. Ok. Harus ke begitu? He flown and took me away in his arms to I don't exactly know. That was that. Subuh da waktu tuh. Huhu. I'm wondering what I might be dreaming tonight. Can anyone interpret dreams? I really like to know to what is going on in my slumber.

DPLI test is on Saturday. I better make it this time as I've screwed my first opportunity 2 years back. Like they always say, good opportunities don't always come at you but having a second chance is possible too. I'm praying though. Hoping to have a second chance at this. Amin. So good luck to me and the rest of the DPLIAN-soon-to-be. InsyaAllah.

I've got my new retainer yesterday. My, it's been month since I had my teeth tied to some metal. I'm feeling pain and trying to adjust myself to it. This time I'm taking precautions step as to not lose my retainer out of sight. Don't want risking going to the dentist and lying all over again. Hehe. Ashamed you Skinny.

Well, that's ramblings for now. I always end up with too much of ramblings. Not good not good.

Later~

When you feel like letting go...

2008-06-15T15:27:00.000+08:00

I remembered Che'Nelle telling the whole nation on Hitz.fm that to just feel good about yourself and don't feel stress out about what others are saying on having someone in your life. It is somewhat motivates me. She added we have to be happy first with ourselves and if that someone is in your life, he or she must add that happiness. Alhamdulillah, I'm happy with me being on my own. Of course, it's not like I'm hoping to be single for the rest of my life, it's just that I've not found the right guy yet. I don't know. Maybe I'm anxious bout this whole thing and just don't want to go there. It really freaks me out. All I know I'm enjoying my moment. You guys may think that I'm just saying that to feel good. True but not exactly true.

I've once watched Little Black Book. The story has its good lesson. Life doesn't always go the way we plan. That's the storyline. We are always told that you'll be complete when you have that other significant half and that you have achieved everything. Rite? Well not exactly. This Stacy (Brittany Murphy) came across her boyfriend's 'little black book' only to discover that her boyfriend kept pictures and phone numbers of his several ex-girlfriends. She then decides to meet one of the ex's in attempt to get closer to Derek's past life and ends up becoming friends with one of the ex.

Things then became pretty harsh as Stacy colleague, Barb (Holly Hunter) a producer on a TV talk show, Kippie Kann, unravel what was going on with Stacy. She kept track of this activity Stacy was doing with the 'Little Black Book' and stages her on a live performance of the talk and ends up losing Derek to the ex she became friends with. So she moved on and lastly she got a new, better job and meeting her idol Carly Simon.

You see, sometimes bad things happen in your life, but its not a sign like its over. It's a learning experience. You experienced the downs in the early stage, but Allah replace that with something better. I might not find the guy of my dreams, who knows I'm having my dream carrier in the future. InsyaAllah. All due to keeping positive in life. It doesn't mean that I have to hold back tears. Tears is a part of us. A friend to a sorrow soul. It's good to let go once in a while. Take away the misery inside.

Blues

2008-05-28T13:46:00.000+08:00

What had happened, I'll remind myself that everything is going to be OK. InsyaAllah. And if it doesn't, I'll tell myself that Allah is testing me. It might turn out bad but I will deal with it with all the strength that I have. Life is a loom.

This day shall pass...InsyaAllah.

Bored stiff

2008-05-20T11:53:00.000+08:00

I'm not in the mood...

Need air...need space...

Need new enviroment...

This ain't working for me...

I want something new...something chilling...

Anyone?

18SX

2008-05-11T22:44:00.000+08:00

Last Saturday, my Pak Lang from my dads side, invited us for a Doa Selamat Kenduri at Rawang. All of our family came including those in the north. It has been quite sometimes we haven't gathered like this. Last time I recalled was during Raya. Huhu. Anyway, my favourite cousins was there. Kak Hidayah and Syuhada. Husna was not around as she's in boarding school. So missing out one. There are very cool and adorable. Despite they are from quite a pious family with tudung labuh and all, but they are totally open. Especially with us. Heee.

Kak Hidayah is coming almost a year in her wedding but she ain't at all like a married person. No offense Kak Dayah, but she's just totally her. Like the way before she got married. There's something so goody-goody-two-shoes bout her that makes me laugh all the time. She's so good to be around with. I love me cousin.

After our eating session, we always gather round and have a lil chit chat. Well, no matter where we are, or no matter what we are doing, we are always seems to be talking. Sesi luahan perasaan shall I say. OK. So we sat down, and Kak Dayah opened up some stories which I can't remember what. But what I did remember was one hilarious chat we had. Actually it was some hilarious line Kak Dayah spat out.

Kak Dayah: Along satgi nak pi beli tiket ka?
Me: Aah.
Kak Dayah: Oooo...nak pi beli kat payu dara hah???? *Hahahahahaha*
Me *Due to some ear problem, I wasn't able to get that*
Kak Dayah: Ishh...Kak Dayah cakap mende tak patut tadi. Kak Dayah nak habaq Pudu Raya, pi habaq Payu Dara lak.
Me: HAHAHAHAHAHA! *Kelembapan tadi disebabkan tak dengar ye*

And then she told me that wasn't her first time. She's a teacher in a primary school. Teaching Arabic. One day...

Kak Dayah: Sekali tuh kan Kak Dayah dok terkeluaq menda tak patot. Kak dayah kan ngajaq arab "............(I can't remember the arabic sentence)" Dalam bahasa melayu..."Kamu tinggal kat mana?" So Kak Dayah soh lah depa sambung ayat tuh...Kak Dayah cakap lah "Saya tinggal dekat Taman Bangsat!"
Me: Hahahahahahahahaaha!!!!!!!
Kak Dayah: Kak Dayah nak habaq Taman Langsat, terkeluaq plak Taman Bangsat!!!!
Kami: Hahahahahaha...Kak Dayah nehhh....!!!

Sempoi je. Haha. The fact that she was in tudung labuh, yet she managed to suprise us. I'm wondering what else is in store for us next?

Mood swing

2008-05-09T00:15:00.000+08:00

"You Squidward! As a senior of Krusty Krab you should be more responsible. Not surf the Internet, chatting and reading the freaking forum. They pay you a whole freaking lot, and this is what you do??? Damn! Go finish your patties! And s*** you Plankton for giving me a hard time $%^&#*"

Enuf said...

Ketinggalan

2008-05-08T00:15:00.000+08:00

I'm so outdated. I'm always left behind. When everyone is on the latest news or gigs or whatever it is, it be new for me like 3months ++ later. Haha. Talk about ketinggalan! I mean, really. I'm always left behind. Huhu. Like when Evanescene first single came out Bring Me to Life, I only discovered it after more than 5 months it hits the radio. Then I went crazy about it when the song is almost rotten aka basi! Haha.

It happened again to me when my sis introduced me to Outlandish. I was...what??? Out...what??? She gave me a link from youtube of this band singing a song called Aisha. At that time, I was like...yeah whatever. It didn't caught my attention at all. After like 8 months (kot), my brother played the song. Then baru I tertarik perhatian. There was something catchy about it. So I asked him who sang it and imediately I went to youtube. I downloaded it and completely fell in love. =>. Seriously I'm still in love with them. I told my sister about it and she was like "Whattt...da lama dah lah" Haha. Ketinggalan lagi.

History repeats again. => This time I'm into Marie Digby. OK. My sis did send me a copy of Umbrella sang by Marie Digby like ages ago. Of course, I listened to it and I liked it, but it was just good to the ear. I wasn't crazy about it. So it was kept hidden for a while. It wasn't on my favourite song list. Then all the sudden, I went you tubing it for no reason. Maybe because I have no idea what to Google out. I've Googled out images of food, art, celebrity etc. *Cem bengong* Was running out of idea. Out of no where, Marie Digby came to mind. So I search her image on Google.

Stunning!

Boy, she's so pretty. I fell in love. Not that I'm gay, OK, but I was astonished by her beauty. She definitely caught my eyes. Then I remember her acoustic version of Umbrella, went straight to you tube and watch almost every song she made. She takes my breath away. Haha. She is damn beautiful, has a tremendous voice and she plays the guitar and the piano. She has to rock! Definitely.

I'll be downloading all her acoustic songs. Just got to work the ares. *Sigh*

See...people must knew her like forever, I've just known her like 20 minutes ago. Haha. Sangat ketinggalan!

Which heroes character would you like to be?

2008-04-25T14:07:00.000+08:00

Hmmm...let me see. All heroes are super fab. Minus that Sylar, but he's kindda cute though. Haha. Well, if I were to be a hero, which heroes character would I be? Claire's power is quite cool. Not quite but really cool. With the ability like that, I'm indestructible. Who wouldn't want to be in her shoes? I can heal myself from any injuries but healing from broken heart doesn't
work OK. Haha. It has to be physical. Yet, it's not like I get run by bus everyday where my limb stuck out and my neck is twisted every time I jump off a cliff just to prove how magnificence I am. It just won't work. Plus, if people caught me healing myself, they will freak out. Totally. Which makes me a complete freak. See what happened to Claire???

Matt, to be able to hear other people's thought. Now, we always tell our self wouldn't it be great to be able to hear what other People is thinking? I would. I get to dig in people juices detail
that's lurking inside their head. Really dramatic I would say. Then again I would have to deal with negative comments. Like, for instance, we are dealing with people who happens to say nice thing in front of us just to cover their 'behind' or something or just being polite, but deep down they are not sincere. Sincere is one thing, but what if that person happens to give us nasty comments inside their mind? Take when she was trying to please you by saying "Eh, canteklah baju neh" tapi inside she was saying this "Dem, hodoh giler!" Oh man, I can't deal with that. Haha. Lets just say some truth are better untold.

Hiro Nakamura. AAA...yes. Travelling through time. Now that's a catch. With this power I can conquer the world. Pretty much. I can go back in history without having to read the history itself. I can turn back time and change the course of the world. I can see places without having to board a plane and its free. Of course I would have to change the currency everywhere I go but wouldn't it be great? Wait. This is the power of that jumper guy from that Jumpers flick. Oops, my mistake. Heeee. Bottom line, with this ability, I'll be free. Free to do what I want. Change my life and mend the things that I've done wrong. Get a second chance at things. Cool eh? Then if I did that, I'll be against fate. I won't learn because I can fix time when ever I want. Doesn't sound rite. Only Allah decides what will happen. So I leave it to Him to decide whats best for me. Still, its cool to be Hiro Nakamura.

Hmm...after some thoughts and some observation *Smug*, if I were to be a Hero, which Heroes character would I like to be? Definitely...(pause) Micah. Haha. Why Micah? You see, I work in a
stress environment where you have to stare nothing else but the computer screen. Stare is easy but what you are staring at, can be a nightmare and daunting too. So, with Micah's gifted ability, I can easily finish my job. Haha. Ok. Cheating is involve here. I rather do that than having to crack my not-so-intelligent-brain. Every time I run across some coding error, all I need to do is put my hand on the machine and make it do what it wants. In my case, fix the bugs. Genius! All my hectic problems solved with my brilliant genius hands functioned by my intelligent brain without me having the slightest inkling ever. Haha. I can rob banks with this ultimate possession. Muahaha. Awesome eh?

Yes, I would definitely be Micah without me having to be a genius. *Smirk*

I would like to be Peter too, but I don't need all in one. Haha. Micah would do just rite. Ahaks!
After all there's no harm in dreaming. Is there???

PCU

2008-04-21T09:16:00.000+08:00

Caq: Along, PCU tuh berpa?
Me: Hah, PCU?
Caq: Aaaaa...PCU...PCU...
Me: Pe kemende PCU???
Caq: Alaa...PCU lah...
Me *bLUR*
Caq: Alaa...yang letak cd pe sema tuh.
Me: Hahahahahahaahha...CPU lah makcik...aiyak...
Caq: Laaaa...

And we laughed histerically together...my brother also included...

My First Popiah Ever

2008-04-17T00:21:00.000+08:00

Hehe...ada bakat x???

At last, I managed myself through the kitchen and made my first popiah. Kindda proud of myself. Heee. Well, I have to say it wasn't that bad. I mean, not that bad. The preparation of course was kindda tedious and all, but really, it wasn't that bad. I liked it really. For the fillings, my mode of cooking was hentam-sajalah.

I did followed the recipies which I took from http://www.rasamalaysia.com/ but add a bit from my friends' recipies. It turned out nice indeed which was verified by my family members of course. =p. I used jicama, bean sprouts, carrot and some shrimp. Dats about it. Then we started to fill in the popiah skin. This part was fun. I was assisted by my two cousin who did a great job in the wrapping department. Since it was our first time, we had different sizes of popiah. Not all accurate. Heee.

While they were busy wrapping, I heat the pan. Boy, as soon as I throw in the popiah, it was looking tastier than ever. Hehe. All of the sudden, some of the popiah got torn apart. So all the fillings spilled out. Not good. We had to wrap a second layer to avoid it from spilling. Problem solved :D. After frying them all, we served them and munched them not leaving a single piece. I have to admit, it was damn good. Heee. Angkat bakul sendiri. Yelah, sapa lagi nak ngaku kan? Huhu. Anyway, I'm looking forward to do more popiah in the future. I do owe my co-workers them, well, this one particular person. Haha.

InsyaAllah I'll be making more of them. ;-)

Learn from our mistake

2008-04-07T15:46:00.000+08:00

It is very sad to learn that such genius would do such thing. With a brain like that, she can conquer the world...well almost. What has pledged her into this sin? Surely, she can't blame all on her father or family or environment. I'm sure with an intelligence probably matches up to Albert Einstein...she surely can do a lot of good. Sell her brain, not herself. The sad detail was that she's a Muslim. Well who to blame? And who I am to say, I'm no saint.

All I'm saying is we are responsible for our actions. Sure, you want to be a prostitute, go ahead. But as a fellow Muslims we are obliged to tell other fellow Muslims of what is right and what is wrong. That is what Islam taught us all along. Imagine if the society didn't cared too much, there will be a lot of 'Sufiahs' out there. In fact they are. Maybe not by being a prostitute, but giving yourself to your claimed 'loved' ones, is the same thing. Think about it.

Let it be a reminder. Let us remind our self that what we do today will effect us tomorrow. We are watched, we are heard, we are judged every walks of our life by our Creator, the Al-Mighty. He knows everything. He see everything. He hears everything. Yet, we still live in sins much of our lives. Why?

Our God after all is the most Merciful, the most Gracious. He'll spare us. It is never too late to change. InsyaAllah.

Peringatan khas untuk saya =)

I lost my retainer

2008-04-03T14:03:00.001+08:00

I can't focus today. Why? I'm constantly worrying about my teeth plus I don't what object expected means. Huhu. My teeth has shifted radically. Huhuhu. Serves me right. Always take things for granted. Somebody slap me in the face.

I lost my retainer and I'm worried sick to go meet the dentist. I've been worried sick ever since. I've lost it like ages ago. I should have called my dentist but I didn't because I thought that the retainer is not that important. Now after like 4 months without them, my teeth got a gap and is slightly moving upwards. Damn! My sis be laughing out her guts coz she had told me sooooooooo many times to go to the dentist. Ok.

I had to make a phone call to set appointment first. Rite? I did, but it was unreacheable. So I thought "Ok, the line is busy, I get to you later" which turns out to be weeks and weeks. Still can't be reached. Due to the fact I was busy at work..eceh...I never did bother to call until recently my teeth was like before I wore the braces...I feel like weeping now. Huhu. Now I am really scared to go meet my dentist. So to ease with this anxiety, I went out googling like I always do. I found out that I'm not the only one. Haha. I typed in "Lost my retainer" and to my suprise, there was even a book about it called "I lost my retainer". Hahaha. *Relief*

Read this...

This is exactly what happened to me...No joke...Hahaha...I had it tossed in the rubbish and had to search it inside the trash with food oowing and drooling and smelling. Good thing I found it at that time but lost it later. Huhu. OK, starting to worry now.

Well, I have to go to my dentist. I'm afraid I'm might be yell at or not attended at all. Even worst, he might say I might have to wear braces again. I got it from the government like
they want to give me a second one. *Weeping*

I need moral support. Anyone???

XX vs XY

2008-04-01T13:13:00.000+08:00

1. Tests have shown that women rate 3% higher in general intelligence than men although their brain size is smaller. Most women act dumb to make their mates look good.

2. Women are walking radar detectors, that is why men have difficulty lying to women. Their brains have the ability to integrate and decipher verbal, visual and other signals of body language.

3. Women want lots of sex with the man she loves. Men just want lots of sex.

4. When men flirt, they will lower their pitch of voice. Women will raise theirs.

5. Women talk and think aloud while men do them silently. As a result, men think women talk too much and are nags.

6. Women talk about their problems as a way of relieving stress. She wants to be heard, not fixed being offered advice and solutions.

7. Speech and words are not a specific brain skill for men. They find it hard to express themselves. That's why they often choose greeting cards with plenty of words inside. That way, there's less space for them to write.

8. Women leave men, not because they are unhappy with what he can provide, but because they are emotionally unfulfilled.

9. Women uses an average of 20,000 communication words, sounds, and gestures a day. Men only use about 7,000.

10. So if a woman is talking to you a lot, she likes you. But if she's not talking, you're in trouble.

11. Men are more thick-skined than women. Literally. Which explains why women have more wrinkles than men. Boys lose their sensitivity to touch by the time they reach puberty. So where does all that sensitivity go? It all goes to just one area.

12. If a woman is unhappy in her relationship, she can't concentrate on her work. If a man is unhappy at work, he can't focus on his relationship.

13. Men can only do one thing at a time. When they stop their car to read a street directory, they have to turn down the radio. Women's brains are configured for multi- tasking performance. They can talk on the phone, watch the TV and cook at the same time.

14. Most men get a brain hemorrhage after 20 minutes of clothes shopping.

15. When it comes to sex, women need a reason; men need a place.

16. 15% to 20% of men have feminised brains. About 10% of women have masculinised brains. So there are more gays than lesbians in the world.

True eh??? ...

Desperate for more...

2008-03-24T23:37:00.000+08:00

Yay! Desperate housewives is BACK...on 8TV of course. I have to catch them since I've been having problem downloading these days. *sigh* Oooo...can't wait...

Alve's home

2008-03-24T00:21:00.000+08:00

Let me introduce you to ALVE...hehehe...I'm not quite done yet with him but I will eventually. So excuse the mess...heeeee...

p.s ~ Chumey x?

Well, dats basically it. Nothing spectacular. I had to post pics of him by demands. ;-P

Alve

2008-03-17T16:45:00.000+08:00

I failed my weekend. Why? All of the checklist that I've made, flushed down the Toilet. Haha. Yeah, I can never stick to schedule. Well at least I managed to tick one of the things on the list. Got myself the bookshelf. Yipee. I'm so excited eventhough I wasn't at first. I've been longing this particular bookshelf at IKEA for quite sometimes.

Since IKEA was on the last day of their sale, I desperately begged dad to take me there. *Bleh je nak pegi sendiri tapi for a fact x tahu jalan plus not enuf cash* heee...Once we reached IKEA I was damn excited. *Jakun* Even worst, it was my second visit there, so being Jakun the second time aint good. Haha. I'm so in love with IKEA. Just me. Just my thing.

Ok2. Skip it. Everyone knows IKEA. No need for introduction. Unless you never heard of it, welcome to browse at http://www.ikea.com.my/. =p

As we passed the entrance, I immediately saw the Billy bookcase that I wanted sooooo bad. It's so simple. Just plain simple. And I like that. Plus it was cheap too. Quite a bargain. Anyone can afford that Billy. It only cost RM165. I was on a budget. That's why. Huhu. Anyway, I jotted down the information needed so that I won't get lost when I need to go pick em' up.

When we went to pick up our item, there was an Indian salesman. Man, he's cute. Ahaks!

"Yes, can I help"

"Ooo...we are looking for...erm..." I was trying to figure out what on earth did I wrote. "Oh, erm...we are looking for Billy bookcase on...aisle 1A." I murmured still trying to figure out what exactly I scribbled. Hehe.

"Eh, wait...saya xnak color tuh. Saya nak color beige." My dad had to convinced me to take the beige color so it matches my bedroom furniture which I had to add RM60 extras. Huhu.

"Ok...di aisle berpa?"

"Alamak...saya xpaham lah tulisan saya. IW...kot" I added as I trotted with them with the trolley.

He tooked us to aisle IW and to my dissapointment...it was out of stock. Damn. I came all the way and it was sold out. Huhu. My heart was broken. I came all the way for nothing. Huhu. The salesman however told us that if we wanted it, we could order it but it will arrive not until next month. Lambatnye and me kicewa. Huhu.

I wasn't about to give up. I don't mind waiting as long as I get them. So we decided, we will get it in April. *Keciwa* As we approached the cashier, my dad spotted this bookshelf. Ok, it was a bookshelf, but it wasn't love at first sight. I didn't had the feeling like I did with Billy. Haha. Ada nama plak perabut2 neh. My dad loved it. He said it looks fabalous in my room. It's tall and solid wood. Yeah, and it looks like an antique piece too. Highlights. I hate antiques. I was like...I don't know. Anyway, it wasn't that bad. It didn't look antiques as my moms jati. Huhu. It just had an antique stain. Like a natural touch too it.

My dad again had to convinced me into buying it. I was reluctant at first because 1. It was RM399...way beyond my budget but dad was willing to pay half. So I was ok with it. 2. It has drawers at the bottom. The design didn't got me that thrilled, but dad said it was functional since I had lots of rubbish, I can easily hide them in the drawers. Clever one dad! Why did I not think of that??? 3. And the color wasn't beige which won't match with my room. Huhu. After some thoughts, I decided to take Alve. Yeah, his name is Alve alrite. Haha. My dad also bought himself a rack of CD. His name his Benno. A black Benno. Looks so cool. While my mom bought herself pots of plants...like always...

So Alve and Benno will be coming home to us this Thursday and will have a nice place to stay. Haha. I'm so thrilled and damn excited.

Oooo...can't wait! =D

What? Whom?

2008-03-14T09:37:00.000+08:00

What to do?

1. My laundry
2. Clean up the room, or entirely the whole house...Impossible!
3. Hang up my new curtain sewn by Wan's mom which I got it for free of charge. I'm flattered. Heeee. Thanks again.

What to get?

1. Bookshelves..it's been like forever. I want it so much the fact
my room needs some organizing.
2. A tunic...if I have some money left. Heee.
3. Pressie for my 3rd sis. She asked me for a BATMAN bedsheet.
Boleh x? Huhu.

Whom to wait?

1. My online friend is coming home from Cali. Hehe.

What to try out?

1. Popia. Been wanting to try them for ages.

I feel...

2008-03-10T20:59:00.000+08:00

The election has finished and even though I don't know that much of a thing, I have to say I kinda regret by not participating in this one important events. I'm 24 well not yet, but I felt I have not done my part as a citizen. Yeah, I have to wait another 4 years. I felt left out. My dad had his exciting moments in this year election. He was very pleased with the result. Saya bukannye paham erti keseronokan dalam pilihan raya pon. Blank.

To see my dad soar ecstatically caught my attention of what was going on. Every time he roar joyfully to the announcement of the votes, I would come running downstairs..."Ayah...napa ayah?" Like a kid who's eager to know what was going on, where at my age I should be present-minded of the country. Darn me. Huhu. Yep, feel pathetic right now. Even my 3rd sister who's in Jordan, too was so excited about this election. She would ask me for updates where I don't exactly know how to answer. Heeee. Yelah, orang tak tau politik. Huhu. Siap soh letakkan microphone di speaker TV. Huhu. My 2nd sis also participate in voting. Eeee...now I feel embarrassed!!!

Yet still, no point of looking back. Got to move on and do things right. I have to strive better for the future. My country depends on me. Hahahahahahahahaha.

Ok now I feel so lame.... huhuhuh

4.3.86

2008-03-08T00:55:00.000+08:00

My sis, Ruzanna's sacred day. She has turned 22. I used to be 22. I didn't felt like 22. I didn't looked 22. Even till today. It's not bout me. It's bout her.

Well, I didn't get her anything this year. Not yet.
Don't have the time to buy cards these days. Pity.

So, I decided to write about her instead.

What can I say about her? Hmm, a lot. If I don't limit myself to 1500++ words,

I can produce a copy of an autobiography of her. Haha.

Tapi sapa sangatlah nak beli kan? Huhu.

Anyway, the name we call her is Caq. I don't know how she landed with that nick, but I did remember my mom mentioned that she liked to stare at the ceilings for slamander aka 'cicak' when she was months old. So that's how she got her nick. Logic!

She's the 2nd in the row. People always confused us as being twins during our childhood years. Yeah, we do look alike. Skinny frame, dark color skin and teeth to match. We are like a mirror of ourselves. I have a mole on the upper brow on my right eye, she has the same on the left eye. Something like that.

Caq is the coolest member of the family. She has my dads genes. I don't know how she managed stress, pain and all the other crap but she managed it good. I guess. She's always keeping it calm all the time. Eh, tak jugak. Mengamuk pon mengamuk jugak minah neh. Had too because she was fighting with me. Can't just leave it like that, rite? Haha.

Yeah, we used to fight a lot in our period of growing up. I remember we used to fight in our nursery's bathroom. I was in year 6, she was in year 4. I can't remember what on earth we were fighting for, but we fought with our fist, pulling eachothers hair, bitting each others skin...naked!(I had knickers on ok!) Hahaha. The funny thing was, we fought with no sounds. Like a scene where you turned off the volume. Leh bayangkan lah macam mana. See, gado2 pon we still have manners. Haha.

Also there is this one time where she got mad and she hit me with my barbie recorder. For the record, my barbie recorder is pink and I brought in England! Hehe. She hit me with it and broke in into two. Damn. Marahnya saya waktu. Tapi saya berlakun kesakitan lah sebab dia pukul saya kat belakang. She got panic. One, she hit me. Two, my recorder patah. Maybe she got panicked because she broke my recorder. Haha. We made up after dat a few days later. Air dicincang takkan putus. Haha. Childhood is never perfect if you didn't go thru these things
with your siblings. Agree?

Like father like daughter...that's her!

Despite we have bad records in the fighting department (we fight like cats and dogs), we do have good records too. We get along very well. We tell eachother everything. From all the juicy things that happened to the boring ever. People say that teenage tends to copy what's surrounding them. This was what exactly happened to caq. Infact it happens to everyone. Yeah, she liked to imitate alrite. I remember she had fringes because she was into this one Chinese drama. Just because the actress had one, she got herself one too. Talk about influences. Huh. And she copied
many more years too come.

Out of the four of us, she was kindda lambat pickup. (Zaman jahil dia). She didn't know how to work the mobile phones back then. She didn't even know the internet. Guess she wasn't into technologies. Now she knows them, she can't stop using it.

She's funny too. Not because of her lines she make, but of how she respons or answer or ask and the way she thinks.

Escalator kat LRT station

Me: Ok...pasneh kena naik Monorail.
Her: Monorail tuh sapa??

Erkk...

After I was on the phone while driving

Her: Along, antara stering dengan engine mana lagi penting???
Me: Hah! Pe nye soklan lah neh...kompem lah engine. Xde engine macam mana nak jalan? Adus.
Her: Salah! Stering lah.
Me: Hah??? (Pemende lah dier merepek)
Her: Sebab kalau macam along nak kena angkat tipon tadi tuh, mesti tangan sebelah along da terangkat. Stering tuh kan macam xterpegang, so orang kat sebelah tuh leh tolong pegang kan and control stering tuh.
Me: T_T

Overall, she's got everything. Yet she still needs to polish up the lady inside her. Bajet cool sangat lah dier neh. Haha. Well I don't care much about what she did as long as she knows how to take care of herself. Yup, that's our caq. I miss her though. We don't communicate frequently as she is busy with training. She's hoping to fly soon this April. Oh yeah, did I mentioned she is soon-to-be pilot? Cool eh? Her dreams came true. I envy her so much but in a good way. I'm so freaking proud of her. Adek, along proud of you too k. Haha. I'm writing these for the pleasure of others coz I know she won't read it. I guarantee you, she doesn't know what a blog is. Hahaha.

Wow, leh jadi novel. I told you, I would take me more than 1500++ words just to write about her. Still, I had to cut out the storyline. Hehe.

Big Apple Donut

2008-03-04T10:19:00.000+08:00

Scrumptious

I'm cravings for one of these cute munchkins...so desirable that I'm drooling everytime I see them. It's not that I come across these cute delicacies everyday. I have to make all the way to KL to get one of them. Well I hope they will open up a branch in Kajang soon. I mean real soon coz I'm really into them. We all do...

P.S~The photo I took literally from sumone's blog... :)

Last two nights...

2008-02-27T14:38:00.000+08:00

Last night I had a dreamed. Well, i dream every night. Nightmare, fantasy, to being a superhero. You name it. Nothing new really.

Last night dream made me blossomed all day. Haha. I can't exactly remember how the 'jalan cerita' of that dream was, but there was a guy. Yeah, a guy.
I only remembered that it was some kind of a race or something. Competing to the finish line. That's what I thought. Then this guy, I saw him wearing a white t-shirt with some prints at the front. *I love guys in white T. =D* and a brown khakis with the hair like the character of Claire's new bf in heroes second season. He looked beautiful though. Haha. So I thought. This guy was in the race. I was in the dream also. I don't why I was there. Just happened to be in the dream.

I was at the scene the race took place. Its like I was the viewer, not a
contestant in it. As I was watching this so-called-race, I was curious to why this guy was racing alone. I mean without a partner. The scene was, he was about to climb something which I'm not clear off. He seemed kindda relax, while others raced vigarously. (Saya ada nampak 2 orang perempuan berlumba-lumba macam tak cukup masa je) Suddenly he looked back. Oh yeah, his back was facing me. Suddenly he looked back. At me. Hahaha. Since I was the only one there. Boy, he looked so beautiful. He came towards me.

Then, all the sudden the race I was watching turned out different. I was like sitting in a group. Boleh x? Haha. The guy was still there. We were talking
which I don't know what. Its liked we had crushed for one another. Sesi luahan perasaan kot time tuh. Like you see in movies. Kan kan? And out of no where came this gurl admitting she was his gurlfriend. This part is funny.

She had brown hair. Look pretty though, but the moment she opened her mouth, my word! She had rotten teeth. Ugly looking. Like a stale cheese which was invaded by maggets. EEEE...There was this beautiful guy who had a gurlfriend of cheese rotten teeth. Hahaha. Mimpi pon boleh klaka eh? All I knew, the moment she admits she was
his girlfriend, I left. That was what I remembered. Mungkin kecewa kot, but I wasn't sad or anything. So I fled.

Then the scene changed. Suddenly it took place like I was about to exit an amusement park or a ticket counter like we used at a Comuter station. On my way to the exit, he came running. Awwwww...its so like in the movies. Haha. Macam xmo kehilangan orang tersayang. Hakhakhak. I turned around and there he was, standing. Now this one
confused me. Tetiba dier nampak shorty. Hahahahahahahaha. Ok.

I'm sure he wasn't short. Maybe I was standing on something a lil higher than him. That's why! There was a crowd all of the sudden. Macam waiting for this moment to happened. Silent took place and he said "I LOVE YOU. Dont leave!" while holding my hands because I was about to swipe the ticket. My, I'm laughing now. Hahaha. To be honest, I was swept away. Who would'nt be? Then we hugged or something. Hahaha. And it was 6am. It was gone just like that. Huhu. My dream was just a dream. Yet still, I was smiling all day and recalling back the dream. The I LOVE YOU scene. Hehe. If only, this took place in real life.

I'll be wooooowww... ;-)

*Beautiful in a guy doesn't simply means auww...ok! =p

I was DUPED...no...I am STU

2008-02-17T19:37:00.000+08:00

I've done the most stu***est thing ever. I don't know how on earth I fell for that.
Before this, the exact same situation happened. Except that I didn't make it through the papers. *Grin*

Anyway, what happened to me had happened to sumone else. I commented them thinking I was brilliant "Eh, stu*** lah these people" But I wasn't that smart after all. The differences between me and them, I am not that stu***. Yet still, I feel kindda like it.

Yesterday, well 2 days before, I received an email with the subject of Attn: Lucky winner. I was so curious. Who would'nt be. To my utter suprise and I was gobsmacked, I was announced as the winner of an E-Lottery game with the prize of £1,569,652.00 Pound Sterlings (One Million, Five Hundred and Sixty Nine Thousand Six Hundred And Fifty Two Pound Sterlings) only. Yeah, I know. That's A LOT and TOO GOOD TO
BE TRUE. I was star strucked though but it seems so real. With every detail. But I was still having doubts and this is the part where I became the stu***est ever!!! I'm embarrased now but just a lesson for you to listen.

I don't what happened. I did asked Kak Lyn, my co-workers about this suspicious email. She told me that if she was in my place, she won't buy it. But no harm trying. She said, if it is true, share some parts with her. Hehe. Ok, but I wasn't buying it too. So I decided to enquire for further information and they replied. It looks like I'm dealing with real people here. I kindda believe it. Shoot. Still, I wasn't so sure. So I went home. I asked my brother. He was giving me that look. You know the look leh-percaya-ke-neh look. Huhu. He was kindda encouraging me though, so why not give it a shot. Now, I'm a total idiot. I even prayed to Allah, saying how thankful I am. Rezeki betol neh. *Tunduk kepala jap* Malu~

I even had the angan-angan that if its true, I would take my whole kampung family for Haji. I would buy dad a Volvo S80 which he'd always love. Buy mom a new car. Get myself a persona perhaps. Hahaha. I'm pathetic.

Then, I went with my guts replying they email with giving out my information. How stu*** was that??? Fortunely, I didnt't gave out any IMPORTANT details. Yet, I still did gave them my add, my phone no. Huhu.

I'm so naive. When the email has been succesfully sent, it is then I decided to google out this E-Lottery thing. Turns out it was a SCAM. Astagfirullah! I WAS DUPED!!! Like everyone else. They received the same email as I have. Argggghhhhh...I was in despair after that and worried too, incase they might appear in front of the door steps. Huhu. My mind went crazy after that.

Luckily I managed to save myself because in order for me to claim my so-called-prize, I have to pay for the shipping expences. What idiot would pay for that? Guess I wasnt stu*** after all. Alhamdulillah
Lesson learnt.

Word of advice : Never Trust Anyone.

P.S ~ That JUMPER on screen rite now, didn't make me jump at all. Not really a thumbs up.

i'M SO outdated...heeeee

2008-02-12T22:47:00.000+08:00

Yeah...

I got my own fotopages...heeeeeee...yeah...like its sumthing new...hikhik...!!!

Check it out...

I'm so gedik right now...can't help it! Heeeeeee

LOGON FAILED

2008-02-12T16:04:00.000+08:00

What the heck does that mean??
Ok, I know what it means. It means can't login.
But what on earth does it mean? What's the problem?
Urgghhh...I so hate question I can't relate to. I mean, problems. I so hate problems I can't relate to. Bottomline...I HATE PROGRAMMING!!!!
Why does it have to be so complicated????

I'm on my wits end right now *sigh*

Appreciatin'

2008-02-06T14:14:00.000+08:00

As I got up this morning
You watched me and hoped I'd talk to you
Even if it was just a few words
Askin' your opinion,
Thankin' you for something good that happened, Lord
But you noticed I was too busy
Tryin' to find the right clothes matchin' with the right shoes and I
Ran around the house getting ready
You knew there would be minutes to stop and say hello
But I still I were too busy
And at one point I had to wait doing nuttin'
Then you saw me spring to my feet
Thought I wanted to talk
But I ran to the phone
Called a friend... Wassup!

Ok now it's time for us to talk
So I find and empty room but hesitation is in my heart
A look down the hall...nobody there so I close the door
Take of my new jacket? Man I can't put this on the floor
I'm a have this conversation standin' or my jeans will get dirty
Better yet I'm a sit on this chair right here 'cause I feel a bit lazy
Almost forgot to pull the curtains so no one can look in
And just when I'm about to utter you two words
Someone steps in
Embarrassed by the moment
I jump up and come up with some stupid excuse
Like I was looking for something
All while you were watchin' me patiently
Ready to give more chances
With the hope
That eventually at some point I will speak to you

You give me so much
You wait all day for a nod
A prayer or a thought
A thankful part of my heart

To all my mortals back home
All day workin' hard
Struggling all week
Every dawn standing tall

I know you noticed that before lunch I looked around
I felt embarrassed to talk to you
That is why I didn't bow my head
Glanced 3 or 4 tables over, saw some of my friends talking to you
But I did not, there is still more time left
Hope that I will talk to you yet, but I
Went home and seemed as if I had lots of things to do
After that what is on TV
Suddenly I felt too tired to talk to you
Fell asleep in no time without a thought for you
I know it's hard to have a one sided conversation
Well give me some days to try again and again and again

Pasé por enfrente de tu casa esta mañana muy temprano
No me dio ni por llamarte, saludarte lo cual es muy extraño
Ahora que la luz está apagada estoy pensando
Si sólo cuando yo lo necesito conversamos
O si sólo cuando temo me haces falta
A cada instante tu retrato está en mi espalda
Me equivoco en muchas de cosas
Y defectos tengo más de cien
Estoy luchando, tú lo sabes bien

Appreciatin' is something I be forgettin'
Every second, 24/7, I'm a forgetful servant, I gotta be prayin' though
Appreciatin', when suffering, calamities call,
My soul be hospitalized and all gonna be alright

To all my mortals back home
All day workin' hard
Struggling all week
Every dawn standing tall

To all my mortals sheddin' tears
Still greet with warm smiles
Patiently throughout the years
Give praise to the most high

To all my mortals back home
All day workin' hard
Struggling all week
Every dawn standing tall

To all my mortals sheddin' tears
Still greet with warm smiles
Patiently throughout the years
Give praise to the Most High

Outlandish

Poor me!

2008-01-30T08:52:00.000+08:00

I'm going deaf. Ok. Dont be too drastic.

I'm founding myself having difficulty in hearing. Seriously. Each day getting worse. Thanks to the earphone that I've been pluggin my eyes all these time. Oppss, eyes? Imagine plugging them to your eyes??? Not rite not rite. Correction: ears. Who else to blame? Haha. Really.

I've been using those gadgets since I've started work. I can't stand silent. Everyone was focusing too much on work and their too plugged their ears. So I followed them and its taking a toll on me. Actually, right before then I was having hearing difficulty. I remember way back my intership year. During lunch hour, we went for MCD. I've ordered so and so. And then the cashier would say the bills.

Cashier: It's RM 8.56 (Can't exactly remember the figure)
Me : Chili.
Cashier *With a straight face starring back*
Me *Starred back smiled innocently*
Cashier: RM 8.56 (Toner got louder but soft spoken)
Me : Oooooo....kkkkk, dier suruh bayar rupenya!

Damn. Dat was kindda embarrasing. But I stuck up being cool. Hehe.

Everwhere I go, I have to be close to the person who is talking. Otherwise that person is talking to themselves. Haha. Oh man, I need help!

...............

2008-01-28T16:48:00.000+08:00

While waiting for the data to be copied...

I just wanna spill in...huhuhuhu

Ok...I don't want to rant...I am approachin' adulthood style now...

Yeah...Like I can deal with dat...huhuhuh...*sigh*

Arggghhhh....whhhhhhhyyyyyyyy me...?

KL versus Penang

2008-01-21T17:26:00.000+08:00

Hmmmm...

1. KL - Sleepless city. Got out of the bus at 3am still got life on the street.
2. Penang - Reached penang at 2am, no sign of life. Ada lah beberapa of mereka.
Not many.

3. KL - So many lights
4. Penang - Not so many light. Does pelita counts?

5. KL - Bizarre traffic with bizarre people. Bizarre no of tolls and bizarre
no of cars.
6. Penang - Not so bizarre. Kampung. You dont find night clubs in the middle of the
padi field. Heh.

7. KL- Good food and so much choices. Still can sneak out to mamak stalls even at 3am
8. Penang - Good food too except their businesses runs before 12. Paling lambat
pon pukul 1. But the source of protein there are so fresh.
Plus cheap too.

9. Penang - More green. Good for the eyes.
10. KL - Green? Tall solid block is more I see.

11. KL - My parents and cats live there. O yeah, my paksu's next door.
12. Penang - My grandma, my uncles and aunts, my cousins are all in
penang. Scattered everywhere. Every weekend sleepover at their
house. One at a time.

13. KL - Mid-valley. Can take the comuter. Don't have to worry about parking.
14. Penang - Queensbay. Must have a car. Have to cross to the other side. Have to
worry about parking. Cost for an outing: Minyak + Duit feri @
the brigde + parking = Banyak tuh. Shopping fees not included. If nak
shopping sakan lah kan.

15. KL - I live between TESCO and JUSCO which is 10 mins away.
16. Penang - The nearest TESCO is in Sg. Petani where I have to take the highway
and would at least take me 45 mins...and JUSCO? Where is JUSCO anyway?

17. KL - Have to be ready before 7.
18. Penang - Still in bed at 7. Hehe.

19. KL - Still pama's little gurl. Hahaha. No way. Dude, 23 aint at all little
even though I am. Guilty =>
20. Penang - Independent chick on the rise. =p

I hate decision making. That is IF I have to ;-)

P.S. The location of penang I'm refering to is Kepala Batas, Seberang Perai. Penang still, rite?

Heeeeeee...

Work oh work #$%^%

2008-01-18T11:29:00.000+08:00

I'm so out of order lately. Work load has put a toll on me. Aiyak. I hate it. QA and indexing makes me want to vomit. Eeeeewww. Can't put it in words really. It's like taking forever. Good thing I have good co-workers who are so in my shoes. Syukur Alhamdulillah. Tanpa mereka, saya keseorangan. I'm ranting *Sigh*

**Disebabkan laptop ni lambat lah cam tortoise dan keje saya almost making me insane...saya meluahkan perasaan jap...*sigh*

Aisha

2008-01-08T13:02:00.000+08:00

This goes out to all the sisters out there...

The List

2008-01-07T12:36:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum

Praise be to Allah, I still live till today...Alhamdulillah...

Sumone is constanly babbling at me to update my freaking blog, and you know who you are =>. At least I know sumone is reading. Hehe. Hmmm...I kindda lost in time really. That is why my page is sumhow stranded. Silent. Full stop. Been busy lately. Haha. Lame excuses. Always and will be. =p. But I'm being honest here.

My life has gone, hmmm..I dont know what? Hehe. All I can say, I've been busy doing nothing. Hehe. Naaa...not really, how can you be busy doing nothing? Impossible. Anyway, its 2008. Plans for the future has not been laid out. Never been laid out really. Me nak buat plan? Haha. Angan-angan taik ayam. Is that correct? Left zaman peribahasa ages ago.

If I recall every year, I have this things listed out (well almost). A determination list. A list which needs me to be real. Like we all know, if there's no determination, the will to do what you've listed out, then, there's no deal. Sad really. Pathethic kindda like. Dah buat list, tapi tak ikot. Heck! So this year, no list for me. Hehe. Just wanna go with the flow. Yeah, tapi, dat doesn't me I cant improve myself. Rite?

So this year I just wanna sit back and enjoy the scene. Take step by step at a time. You never know what will happen next. That's the thrill of life...

P.s - I'm supposed to be busy...but I took the time. Plus I'll be jotting down more for sure now dat I know sumone is reading...=>

Salam

Whats with women and tupperware?

2007-10-02T13:36:00.000+08:00

Tupperware cravings

Always got me wondering what is so 'hebat' bout this tupperware.
Is it the brand? Is it becoz its made from U.S.A? Or is it because its just Tupperware?
I've seen people craving for them every now and then. Women especially. Its just a container but people buy them even at a relatively high price! You can buy container at a cheap price. But then again you have to take into account of the quality.

I have to admit the design is very cool indeed but when it costs like RM60 something-something for a 3-piece container with the size where it can only stores cereal, I'm always raising my forehead. Wow! With RM60 I can get something more interesting like new clothes ;-)

Then again, people are entitled for their what they like. What some others like, maybe some others dont. Its how the universe works. But this Tupperware does amuse me. Totally.

Maybe someday I might be craving for them =p

For the record, my mom has them too.

What u hate, u'll love

2007-09-18T08:31:00.000+08:00

I hate being honked at. Seriously. Eventhough I know I commited crime, heh, but I so hate being honked at. As far as I'm concern, I am not a reckless driver. I know my way behind the wheels. Its the people on road I have problem with. They dont have manners at all. They dont give signal when trying to switch lanes. Hey, I do that too tapi tengok tempat lah! But when you really need to switch lanes, in fear you might missed your exit, please give some spaces for us to get in. Damn! I gave signals, OK! And I went in slow hoping that you malaysian ada hati sikit! Its not like I barged in just like that. The least you people could do is give way. Pastuh kena horn sekali. Damn! *Kurang pahala* I dont understand Malaysian!

I have the tendency to be very mad if people honked at me for No reason(kalu ada reason pon aku cam marah jugak...hehehe). Since its fasting month, I babble to myself. Only God knows what. And with that, I have made my conclusion, I hated KL. Before this I liked KL so much that I could put up with the horrendous traffic and Putrajaya was dull and boring. I pretty much like Putrajaya now. And I'm sticking with that.

If only

2007-09-17T11:30:00.000+08:00

If only I could have you~

Taking a step further

2007-09-14T09:04:00.000+08:00

I want to try no matter what it takes...

Help me Allah, the Al-Mighty, the Merciful get through my days

Amin

Selamat Menyambut Bulan Ramadhan =)

Always sleepy

2007-09-12T12:36:00.000+08:00

I was feeling soooo sleepy today for no reason actually most of the time. Everytime the clock hits 10am(I was doing statistic review...haha) I'm already in a Far Far Away land when my eyes was fighting not to fall asleep. I can't stand it and I can't concertrate even if I stuff my ear with the highest volume you could posibbly imagine. So I decided to google out this syndrome I'm having by typing "I'm always sleepy" incase I could find help and it turned out there is a disorder related to this. It is called narcolepsy. Sounds sarcastic aint it? Its kindda funny. Really.

Narcolepsy is a neurological condition most characterized by Excessive Daytime Sleepiness
(EDS). A narcoleptic will most likely experience disturbed nocturnal sleep, confused with insomnia, and disorder of REM or rapid eye movement sleep. It is a type of dyssomnia. The main characteristic of narcolepsy is overwhelming excessive daytime sleepiness (EDS), even after adequate night time sleep. A person with narcolepsy is likely to become drowsy or to fall asleep, often at inappropriate times and places. Daytime naps may occur without warning and may be physically irresistible. These naps can occur several times a day. They are typically refreshing, but only for a few hours. Drowsiness may persist for prolonged
periods of time. In addition, night-time sleep may be fragmented with frequent awakenings.

I have the symptoms. I think. I'm not sure.

Nighttime sleep does not include much deep sleep, so the brain tries to "catch up" during the
day, hence EDS
May visibly fall asleep at any moment (such motions as head bobbing are common)
People with narcolepsy fall quickly into what appears to be very deep sleep
They wake up suddenly and can be disoriented when they do (dizziness is a common occurrence)
They have very vivid dreams, which they often remember
People with narcolepsy may dream even when they only fall asleep for a few seconds.

Yeahhh...I so have the symptoms. I dream vividly like being a superhero and my dreams are
full of action and I always remember them when waking up and I tend to dream even if I just doze off for a few
seconds*pelik tapi benar*

Maybe it runs in the family. My sister too is always finding herself to sleep. Even while driving. Chronic as it sounds. I'm always yawning now and then. My eyes gets dimmer and dimmer. Not a cool sight. Yeah, tend to look tired, lazy and poofy all the time. But I can't help it.

Another thing is one of my colleague once told me that maybe I have worms because that is one
of the symptoms shown if you have worms. Ok. I can accept that since I so think I have worms because I have other symptoms that shows me I have them, like excessive eating...hahaha! But then again narcolepsy is to consider.

No wonder after all this time, I was fighting like hell not to doze off. I'm always getting told off by my parents as I seem lazy by taking a nap all the time. Now I have reasons to sleep. Haha!

And now I'm feeling sleepy again...*sigh*

Ntah

2007-09-10T20:17:00.001+08:00

Kadang-kadang kita pikirkan orang tu, tapi orang tuh tak pikirkan kita, perasaan kita, macam mana rasanya to be lam kasut kite. Kita buat-buat gembira bile kite sedih, tapi mereka bile tak puas hati ke hape ke, nampak betul kat riak muka dorang. Kite nak respond pon cam xsampai hati je. Ok. Mungkin kite pon penah buat macam tuh tapi xde lah sampai tahap nak bengang-bengang, nak mengamuk xtentu pasal...mungkin ngan adek-beradek ngan mak ayah pernah lah...tapi tuh lain cerita. Ntah.

Kadang-kadang tuh bile kite tanya, dorang xdgr. Ok. Mungkin dorang pekak sekejap. Ntah. Pastu kadang-kadang bile kite tanya lagi ngan baik-baik, muka masam yang dilemparkan. Ok. Terasa hati neh. Tp aku kata kat hati, dorang bermasalah kot. Ntah.Abaikan je. Ntah. Manusia neh macam-macam. Aku pon macam-macam, tapi bukan jenis aku lah nak bermasam muka 24/7. Sebab tuh if aku bermasalah ngan secara langsung nye nampak kat muka aku. Ok. Mungkin sebab masalah lah kot. Ntah.

Banyak benda ekceli ;-)

2007-09-10T18:23:00.000+08:00

Hehe...*sengih sorang2*

Lama xupdate...ekceli banyak je cerita boleh distory-story kan...but me freaking busy and freaking busy and freaking busy sumore...huhuh...even if i'm not freaking busy, i'm freaking lazy to type and jot down all the incident...lame me hah? huhu...even i have to miss out my friend punya convacation(erk...cam spelled wrong je)...so missing out nak menulis di blog neh no wonder lah kan...huhuhuhuh...

anyway...

hmm...cam ckp sengsorang je kat sini...hahahahah!

p.s. to wnf...soo sorry i missed out ur convo day...bukan sengaja...huhuhuh

MIRC back then

2007-08-23T15:01:00.000+08:00

me: hi dude!

nickunknown: hi janda!

me: apasal panggil saya janda?

nickunknown: da awak panggil saya duda.

me: lohhhh...

*laughing out big*